Punishment

Tears run down my face as You turn boldly turn away
The rope cuts me deep as Your eyes sadly say
How much i’ve hurt you deeply, and You don’t know what to do
And how You can’t do anything until You start feeling again like You
You turn and walk away, with a sad look on Your face
And i drop my head and sob, full of terrible disgrace
How could i have let You down, and disappoint You so?
And wonder what my punishment will be, God will only know
The look in Your eyes is worse than Your cane
And the welts it leaves is not as bad as my heart full of pain
i twist my wrists against the tightly bounded rope
To punish myself until You calm down and are willing to cope
my skin itches badly, wanting to feel Your touch
Either it from love or from punishment, i just need You that much
Your rejection is more then what my aching body can take
And Your silence is deafening as my heart starts to break

i hear Your footsteps coming slowly up the hall
my heart throbs violently waiting for You to call
The door opens gently, and i don’t dare look that way
And hear You walk up behind me, without a word to say
I feel You brush Your whip softly against my back
And i silently thank You for the warning as i brace myself for the attack
i hear the whip crack first before the pain soaks into me
And the tears burn my eyes so much that i can’t see

But i take this punishment with open arms with love i only see
For every strike that You lay down, You are forgiving me
There is love in each one, and only very few understand
How much a Master gives when He is in demand
And how lucky i am to feel this rare deep bond
And every lesson He teaches me makes me go beyond
What a normal relationship would go to, it’s really hard to explain
That my Master is not all involved with just torturing and pain

The whip dies down, and i am taken off my cross
He helps me to the tub and slowly washes me off
He whispers in my ear, the first words i’ve heard all day
How i need to learn my lesson so there will be more time to play
And how much He loves me and hopes i love Him back
But the actions i sometimes take seems that my love sometimes slacks
my shoulders gently shake as I hear these hurtful things
And i jerk ever so lightly as He slowly cleans my stings
i whisper between sobs of how much i love Him so
And how i wouldn’t know what to do if He should ever go
For the only thing that i know now is that i love Him everyday
And hate myself when i make Him sad, oh why am i that way?
He softly smiles and strokes my hair and kisses me on my head
"I forgive you slave" His deep voice soothes, "Now let’s go onto to bed."