A Big Shiny Blue Marble Ch. 59

I guess it just shows how screwed up things can get if you take something out of its natural place and stick it somewhere else. We're like you though, half-human, so I hope that helps."

"I wasn't really worried, "Ellie smiled, "Not like I was the first time that I saw it. I could have crapped myself then. Even when Talon came back to see if I was alright, I was afraid. I don't think I'd be now, though."

She looked at Katje for a second, "I think you have more shapes than me. I only have two."

"We have like three and a half," Katje chuckled, "though you might see it as four. We can look human like this -- no wings or tail. We can look kind of, sort of like that, but with those things, so we think that's our natural way to be, and we can look like something else, but that is really like two things that aren't the same, but feel like they are to us. It's a really small shift from one to the other, and we don't have horns in any of them.

Actually, I kind of wish we did. I like the way that horns look on some demons. I love your horns whenever I see them."

Ellie was a little surprised, "You do? Really?"

Katje nodded, "Change for me? Let me see them, please?"

Ellie didn't think it was anything other than a little odd that she'd want to see that, but she switched her shapes in the blink of an eye -- and then cursed for the way that she was sitting on her tail, so she fixed it.

"How's this?"

Katje grinned as she reached out slowly to touch them lightly, "Yup, I really love them on you. I guess they don't serve much of a purpose to demons here, but to me, they're sexy as anything."

She chuckled, "Probably the perfect fashion accessory, other than you can't change them if you don't like what nature gave you or if you want to change your clothes. Something like a pullover must give you fits," she chuckled.

Ellie thought it was funny and she nodded, "I never gave them any thought before, but after hearing you, I feel a little proud."

"You should," Katje nodded, "between them and your teeth, you're one sex-beast like that. Well, in my opinion. Makes sense why you get all the howlers chasing your ass now."

Ellie was surprised, "You like me like this?"

Katje nodded, "I like you either way. Like this, you look wilder. Better change back before I get too many dirty thoughts."

Ellie tilted her head at that. She couldn't understand it. "But if, ... if you're something that hunts demons -- or , ... you can, ... why would the way that I look affect you? I think that I'd probably look like more of a meal or something. No?"

Katje shook her head, "The point is -- at least I think the point is; that we're here, and we're the same inside in a way because we have some of the same blood swirling around in us. I see you and, ... "

"Ok," Katje groaned a little, "I can't really sit here and tell you that it doesn't matter and everything's gonna be alright -- all while I've got things about me that I haven't shared. So I'll fess up now, Ellie.

I love guys, mostly um, mine. I need Talon just to breathe and be able to think, well, if we're not fucking each other stupid ... er.

But I also like girls too. I'm really afraid to make you uncomfortable, but I am being honest. I'm not gonna make a move on you or anything, but if I don't tell you out of a desire to be honest with the friend I want to have in you, then to hide it would just make me feel like I'm being dishonest. Do you get all that?"

Ellie thought about it and nodded.

"You ok with all that?" Katje asked, looking a little fearful and on her, Ellie didn't like it at all. She nodded.

"Good," Katje sighed in a little relief, "My point is -- before I forget it; is that I wasn't kidding you."

She pointed, "He likes you and he thinks you're beautiful and he really missed you. I like you and I think you're REALLY beautiful and I'm so glad that you're back. And that was before I knew about that." She pointed a little, "Now, well, the way that I feel hasn't changed at all."

She was feeling a little uncomfortable herself. Katje was a person who didn't like feeling that way the same as anyone, and since Talon had come into her life, she'd been far more inclined to challenge her feelings instead of allow them to make her back away from things. But this?

She decided to change the subject, "So do you want to see all of my shapes? You never asked me and I really thought that you would."

Ellie nodded slowly, "I'd love that, Katje."

She'd been curious about it, but didn't have the nerve to ask. Having Katje change her shapes would give her a little time to think about what she'd just been told. Part of Ellie was terrified.

The rest wanted to jump on the dark-haired girl in front of her.

She had no clue what to do if she did that; she just knew that it was what she had the thought to do right then.

Right after that, though, she was amazed as Katje shifted and looked at her hopefully, as though she really hoped that Ellie would like her in these shapes.

"That one," Ellie grinned, "No no. Go back one. I like the way that you are like this too, but it takes a lot of getting used to because every time I've seen either of you like this, there's been blood flying all over. That other one, ..."

Katje changed back to the shape which was purely for stealth, sneaking through some form of undergrowth which none of them had ever seen and never would. This suited that and a short burst of speed, followed by a quick kill and a meal. Ellie knew nothing of this, but she smiled then.

"Oh yeah," she sighed, "I love the way that you can look in any way, but I think this one is my favorite. Love those stripes too. Could you please stay like this for me? I'll stay the way that I am if you do."

Katje beamed at Ellie. She knew that no matter what, they'd just become real friends at that instant. The uncertainty was gone. She was still struggling with her feelings in terms of sex, and she still didn't want to screw this up, but she was happy now that she could see that she had a friend in Ellie. She even said it.

"I think we've just become serious friends, Ellie -- at least I'm hoping."

Ellie looked at her for a second and then she grinned, "Yeah. That's how I feel too."

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They talked for a little while after that, but they decided that they needed to get at least some sleep. But Katje was adamant that Ellie not sleep in the chair.

"You're sleeping here with me. We don't have to touch and we can sweat side by side. I don't want to sleep any other way, and with you in that chair over there, ... well that's right off the list. I hope I've convinced you that I'm not gonna hurt you and I'd rather forget that I even could, if it's all the same to you. Ok?"

Ellie was almost game, but, ...

"But what about what you said? You said you think I'm uh, ... "

"Beautiful," Katje nodded, "So? Does that mean that we can't sleep in the same bed? I'm not gonna spring a stiffy or anything."

She chuckled, hoping that Ellie would agree. She didn't want to have any kind of play between them. She really did want them to get some sleep and she didn't like the chair as an option for either of them.

Ellie hesitated for a second and then she nodded, setting her empty mug down and then coming to the bed while Katje tried to keep her heart rate down as she watched someone so lovely lie down near the edge of the bed.

The thought crossed her mind about a saying that she'd heard and never understood.

The lamb lying down with the lion.

She pushed it away, telling herself that the important thing here right now was to cement their friendship. She moved to lie down beside Ellie.

"I think we'd still have a safe space between us if we got just a little closer," Katje said softly, but meaning it, "Less chance of either one of us falling out like that."

Ellie kept looking at Katje and looked as though she had nothing to say, but then she did move a little closer after she'd nodded, "Try to remember something, Katje," she whispered.

"This is all really strange and new and wonderful to me, but, ... well, you made a joke about you not getting a stiffy. You can't 'cause you're a girl.

But I might. That's what I'm afraid of."

Katje smiled and moved a little closer. She put her arm over Ellie and sighed, "Talon has those all the time. I'm used to them, Ellie. I won't mind, so don't let it bother you. Tell you what, ..."

She wore such a soft smile on her lovely face that Ellie would have likely agreed to anything right then and she knew it.

That was what she was afraid of -- at least a little. She was confused and even so, she was almost aroused; not that she knew that to do about it in much of any way, but still ...

"Put your arm over my shoulders," Katje whispered.

Ellie tried not to be terrified. She knew that this friend stuff -- especially under these circumstances -- was going to need some give and take, and in her case specifically, it was going to require a little bit of daring. But she was happy to still be breathing after the way that her day had gone and she was very happy overall. She raised her arm after Katje had removed hers, and she set it very carefully over the girl's shoulders. It didn't feel quite right, and so a second later, she moved even closer and then it felt good.

"Like this?" she asked Katje, who nodded and moved very slightly to kiss Ellie goodnight.

"I've found lately," she whispered to Ellie, "that the best way -- if I'm feeling uncertain about something -- is to face it and see. I only got that way because of Talon.

Just wait and you'll see. He'll give you confidence that you need even while he's being a little goofy. It just comes from him like that.

You're worried about getting a little hard and not being able to help it. I don't have one, but I've learned how it is. So I'm going to just get this out of the way, and then we can sleep without your needing to think about it, since I know that you will."

She moved her hand and very gently took Ellie's erection and what she could hold of her scrotum in her hand, the shaft of it along the inside of her wrist. She didn't squeeze and she didn't rub or stroke. She just moved it so that it was against Ellie's abdomen and she held it there cupped as much as she could.

She kissed Ellie very softly once more and then she smiled, "If it gets worse and it need a little attention, Ellie, just let me know. Good night."

"Good night, Katje," Ellie whispered, "and thanks for everything. If there's anything that I can ever -- "

Katje sighed then, happy as a well-fed and loved cat and Ellie didn't even mind it as her face came close enough to her own to nuzzle against her cheek before they were almost touching noses when she eased her head back down.

"We'll have to see about this new wrinkle," Katje whispered, "since it wasn't something that we thought of as more than a nice little thought when we told each other that we missed you and wanted to see how you were doing.

But if you want to do something for me sometime, and you want to tell me yes for what we haven't even talked about, then shave this for me after that - after you decide," she smiled and Ellie felt the smile.

She also felt Katje's fingers as they squeezed her so softly only once.

"Then I'll know. But no matter what, I'm happy right now. It doesn't feel like it's just Talon and me against the world now."

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Ellie was now officially dog-tired, she thought to herself. She still had her erection, as small as it was to her mind. Katje had fallen asleep again after saying things to Ellie which almost guaranteed that she wouldn't sleep after hearing them.

Katje probably couldn't have known the effect of her words on someone like Ellie, who'd always felt like more of a different and unwanted species for all of her life. Now she knew that she was and yet she wasn't at the same time. Ellie had always been that - some of one thing, some of another, half human, half-demon, ...

100% fucked-up and unwanted - other than to stare at for a moment and then to ridicule.

But the black-haired girl sleeping next to her hadn't seemed to care and from her words, Talon wouldn't either. She'd been accepted. If that were true, it boggled her mind. There hadn't even been any conditions set for her admission.

They were just trying to tell her that if she wanted it from them, ...

She was already home.

Ellie had to blink furiously for a few moments. At least it took her mind off her little erection. It might not be like the big things that she'd seen now and then, but that didn't absolve her of the incessant urging that it sent to her, the same as likely any other in the world, she guessed.

Just then, Katje made it worse by moving her hand. the touch was gone and it was a change.

Well any change under the right circum -

Ellie wanted to groan. She might not have more than a breakfast sausage, she thought, but at the moment and for the next little while at least, it was going to pretend that it was a breakfast sausage-sized piece of steel.

Katje opened her eyes a little and realized that her hand had moved away. She looked over and saw Ellie looking back.

"Not sleeping?"

Ellie shook her head a little and Katje reached over again just because.

"You'll never get to sleep with it like this," she whispered, "You can have ten stiffies while you're sleeping and not know, but just one when you need to drop off and it'll never happen.

Ok, roll onto your back, Ellie. I'll help."

Ellie's eyes opened and Katje smiled and kissed Ellie's nose, "I don't know if you get the feelings of needing it the same way that I do, or if what you feel is like what Talon might feel.

So I have to think that it's maybe BOTH - so you just lie on your back, Ellie. I think you need to learn what it's like to have someone do something good for you just because they want to."

Ellie was scared to death, but that thing stood up, ready to do its best to be counted, as it were.

She didn't even have time to think and grow more unsettled - as if that were possible.

Katje just moved her gently and then she took the end into her mouth for a moment while she worked back on the foreskin to expose the glans and then she took it in again with a sound which Ellie was startled to hear as a pleased little sigh.

The sensations - once Ellie could settle down - caused her to want to reach for Katje and her hands hovered in the air out of uncertainty for a few moments. But Katje had been watching there in the dark and she lifted one hand at a time and took Ellie's, placing them where she wanted them on her head.

It didn't take long at all; Ellie never having had anything like that in her life. She came and her little balls gave their best seminal heave-ho and to Katje's surprise, there was more for her than either one of them would have guessed.

She worked it all from Ellie very gently, not wanting it all to be too much for her and then she crawled up and they shared a long and soft kiss.

Ellie held Katje and looked up at the ceiling. Wasn't something like this supposed to be a bigger deal? Nobody had even died - especially her. There had been no vengeful hate-filled stroke from Heaven in anger over the mal-formed thing getting to feel a little pleasure.

Ellie realized that she was being a little melodramatic, so she just tossed that bullshit right there. What she was left with was a very strong sense of thankfulness and affection for someone who wanted them to be friends so much that even Ellie could sense it.

Well alright then.

"Thanks - "

Katje kissed Ellie's chest right in the middle and then she looked up. "It's ok. You needed it and I wanted it. I got a lot, too. Really nice."

"I've never felt something like, ... I never knew it could feel like that for my little um, sausage."

Katje snorted a little through her nose and Ellie felt her smile against her chest before she raised her head to look into Ellie's eyes.

"Oh shut up, Ellie. At least you have one. The number of times when I've actually WANTED one for Talon when even I could see that he wanted it and didn't even know it himself ...

Besides, this is not a breakfast sausage. I told you about honest opinions and that's what you get from us. What you have here is no monster, but that doesn't mean a thing. Talon's is a little bigger, and he's no monster, either.

What you have here - and I'm only joking a little bit - is a wiener with only about a small bite off the end - and I like it, Ellie, so no more sausage crap, ok?."

She laid her head down and began to suckle one of Ellie's nipples gently as she reached to hold Ellie's genitals again.

She stopped suckling after a moment and said, "I hope you can have sweet dreams now, baby. You deserve to have them now. Good night."

Ellie said goodnight and she lay there on her back for a little while looking up, but not for long. She laid her arms over Katje and they were both asleep in minutes.

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It was mid-morning when Talon woke up, still feeling like shit on a stick, but better somehow. The edge of something in his peripheral vision drew his attention and he tried to look at it.

He had a little trouble focusing on it, since it was fairly close to his face and so he tried to lift himself up on that side. He was startled to see it move then. Worse, it didn't move away, the way that it might have if he were under it if it were a blanket or a sheet.

It confused him, even after he'd figured out that it wasn't something bad, necessarily. He reached for what he could of it and almost jumped when he could feel his own touch there when he did. His being startled caused more movement and then he just felt that and exerted more.

He stared as a wing came slowly and uncertainly into view.

Well it sure couldn't have been anything else.

He sat up cautiously and as he did, he moved that wing a little experimentally. That was when the smell hit him and while he recoiled from that, it jogged his memory a little of the events the previous day and what he could remember of the evening. He remembered Katje saying to him that his wings were coming in.

He looked over toward the bed and he saw, ...

Well, he wasn't sure, but he did recognize Katje there and a moment later, he saw Ellie in the bed as well, but the odor of what he carried on his back reminded him that he wanted to wash.

Ok, just how the fuck does one go about something like that, uh, specifically?

He had no idea, but he reasoned that he'd need a little help, so he stood up. His balance was different, he decided, and it came to him that to minimize the effect, he'd have to, ...

It was better once he'd figured out how to pull the wings against his back, though the smell still wanted to make him gag. He began to try to think of any place here where there was enough water to jump into. He came up uh, dry for the moment at least.

He suddenly remembered a pond on the other side of the place, but that was a good walk away. He did think of the wings on his back, but he decided that he needed a little guidance first, so he put that off. More importantly, he knew that there was no means of opening the blast door from the outside, once it was all the way closed and he wouldn't just walk off and leave it open, not while the others were there asleep and defenseless.

Talon wanted to just look up and curse loudly, but that wasn't an option. He had a memory of the two females struggling with him sometime during the night, so he knew that they likely hadn't had as much sleep as he'd had. What to do?

He had that decided in three seconds and he smirked to himself as he walked over to there that one backpack hung from a peg on the wall. His journey took him past the bed and he looked down at two of the loveliest people that he'd ever seen. But that was just the start of another brainbuster to him.