Becoming a Cocksucker: A Journey

I also still get sex regularly, so my obsession with sucking cock isn't from some sexual neglect from my wife (truthfully, I sometimes wish she didn't want it so often).

The reality was I didn't even have interest in sucking cock until one day during a bachelor party where one thing led to another and I ended up sucking a guy's dick in the bathroom. I was drunk as a skunk but still knew a whole new life had been opened up to me.

And now I'll fuck my wife and then go and suck dick if any of my four regulars beckon me. I have even left my wife during a movie to blow a guy in the bathroom, snuck out after bedtime on the excuse of a night call (I'm a plumber... yes I get the irony that I love draining pipe) and even ditched her during her 40th birthday party to suck not one, but two cocks. My reality is that the choice between cock and pussy isn't even a contest.

I crave cock, I don't crave pussy.

.....

Although I couldn't have fathomed choosing sucking dick over fucking my wife a little while ago, now I likely would suck a cock over screwing my wife if the opportunity arose.

9. TUMBLR TEMPTATION

As I recalled Mike's cock and the fact he was completely shaved... I ended up googling cock pictures. Before I knew it, I was on Tumblr and scrolling down through pictures and gifs of cock after cock.

As I stared at one cock after another, once again confirming my awe that every cock was unique, my mouth watered. I loved staring at the wide range of cocks... although they all seemed to be large.

Big cocks getting sucked by women.

Big cocks getting sucked by men.

Big cocks fucking women.

Big cocks fucking men.

Big cocks shooting all over a woman's face.

Big cocks shooting all over a guy's face.

In the end, it didn't matter who was sucking, who was getting fucked. I watched the cock.

I watched the cock slide in and out of a mouth (guy's or girl's mouth didn't matter).

I watched the cock pound in and out of an ass (whose ass it was didn't matter).

I watched cum erupt out of each cock... watched the cock pulse... watched cum geyser into the air....

As I kept scrolling, besides finding pictures, there were also occasionally some interesting quotes that either turned me on or confirmed my thoughts:

-'I exclusively jerk off to cock now' (which I seemed to be doing myself).

-"Here's what I learned: when a woman sucks your dick, she's doing you a favor. When a man sucks your dick, he's doing himself a favor." (In retrospect that definitely seemed to be the case with my wife now and I wondered if that hadn't always been the case; while if I sucked a cock, say Mike's, I would indeed be doing it for myself!)

-Men are far better at sucking cock because they understand the equipment and also just love to suck cock. Women, on the other hand, treat sucking cock like a chore (Oh my God, does that describe my wife perfectly... although when we were younger she seemed to like it... was it all just part of the act?)

Anyway, not to bore you with my inner psychological state of mind, but this was my mental state when I headed over to watch my 3-1 Giants (a big 23-20 win last week) play on Mike's big screen.

10. A TRADITION BEGINS

While he was his normal relaxed self, I was a bundle of nerves. Was he going to suggest we watch porn again? Was I going to be able to see his cock again? Did he have any clue of the anxiety and excitement that was jittering around inside me?

As he handed me a beer, he asked, "You okay?"

"Um, yeah, sure," I nodded, sure not going to tell him I was just excited about the possibility of seeing his cock again.

"Think we can win today?" he asked... we were playing the hated Patriots, who were undefeated.

"If we maim Brady," I joked.

"Good game plan," he approved.

"I should be coach," I laughed, a little too loudly.

We headed to the living room to watch the game, which started well for us as we were up 10-0 after one. During the second quarter, Mike said, "So I have quelled my worries for a while."

"A ten nothing lead against Brady isn't enough," I responded, especially since they were at our 23 yard line.

He laughed, "True enough, but I meant my sex life."

"Oh," I nodded, as my eyes glanced down at his crotch area without me even realizing I was doing it until I noticed my eyes were fixated.

"We've had sex a few times every day this week," he said.

"That's exactly me too," I joked, before adding, "minus those few times every day."

"Not once?" he asked.

"Does masturbation count?" I smirked.

He laughed, "Well, that just isn't right."

"Tell me about it," I sighed heavily.

"I got a wake-up blow job this morning and I fucked her at lunch," he said.

"Swallow or facial?" I asked casually, although I was really curious.

"Cum is a great breakfast snack," he joked.

I said, maybe too hungrily, "I imagine so," although luckily he didn't catch on to the fact I was wishing that load had gone down my throat.

"So I may have to get Andrea to open up your wife," Mike said.

"That isn't possible," I said.

"Andrea is quite convincing and completely bi," Mike revealed.

"And you're okay with that?" I asked.

"Oh yeah," Mike nodded. "Nothing hotter than having two girls eating pussy in front of you."

"You've seen Andrea eat out another girl?" I gasped, my cock suddenly super hard.

"A few times," he nodded. "She loves eating pussy, almost as much as she loves sucking cock."

"No wonder you married her," I joked.

"She has said she thinks Sandra is pretty hot," Mike said.

"She still is," I nodded, "although she doesn't seem to think so."

"Andrea will help her rediscover her sexuality," Mike promised, before cursing, "Fuck!"

I had forgotten the game was on, but our ten nothing lead had evaporated with back to back Brady touchdown passes. "Fuck, I hate Brady."

"Me too," he nodded, as he stood up to get another beer.

His cock was sticking out of his sweats and I asked before I even had time to think about it, "How can you be hard after shooting two loads already?"

He shrugged, "Talking about lesbian sex always gets me hard."

"I can't recall the last time I shot two loads in a day," I admitted.

"Well, it's almost half time," he said. "I'm going to grab us two beers from a new batch I made and then let's bust a nut."

"Sounds great," I nodded casually, as my hard cock flinched in my pants at the idea of seeing his cock again.

Once he was gone, I adjusted my cock and watched as we pulled within one on a long field goal that hit the cross bar and just fell over making it 14-13. I called out, "We got a field goal."

He returned with beers as he said, "Well, we're competitive with the Patriots. That's a great sign."

"Yeah," I nodded, as he handed me a beer, his crotch briefly right in front of me. "Our offense looks good, although our defense hasn't been able to make the big third down stop."

"Brady is tough," he said, as he sat down, as I downed a big swig of beer to control my sudden thirst.

We watched the last couple of minutes and sighed in relief when time ran out on Brady just out of field goal range.

Mike pressed some buttons and soon the porn was on. This time it was two hot girls in a sixty-nine. He pulled out his cock and said, "Lesbian sex is fucking hot."

As I glanced at his cock, I pulled out mine as well while I concurred, "I always thought so too, but I imagine after seeing it live, porn would be less thrilling."

"Porn is always thrilling," Mike said, as one girl screamed, "That's it, suck on my clit."

"True enough," I agreed, as I stared at his cock and his hand stroking it.

Mike said, "The only thing hotter than two chicks munching on each other, is two chicks sharing my cock."

"You're shitting me," I said, stroking my cock.

"Oh yeah, I've had Andrea sucking my cock while her friend sucked my balls," he said, glancing over to me, which made me quickly take my eyes off his cock.

"You are the luckiest guy alive," I said in awe of his sex life and his cock.

"I sure can't complain," he said, returning to watching the sex scene, while I returned to watching him stroking his cock.

"You better not," I said. "The majority of us aren't even close to that lucky."

"I'll help you with that," he promised.

"That would be amazing," I said, although I was thinking of him offering me his cock to suck... and not Andrea and my wife munching cunt (although I wouldn't refuse seeing that either).

"Oh yeah," he nodded, pumping faster. "A guy should never be kept from living out his fantasies."

Again he was saying one thing while I was hearing something completely different. 'My biggest fantasy is sucking your cock... swallowing your cum.'

I chuckled as I admitted, "I've long given up on living my fantasies."

"Dude, don't say that," he said, as he stroked himself and glanced at me.

I quickly glanced away, but was sure that this time he'd noticed my attention on his cock. I stammered, "The older you get the less likely things are likely to come true."

Mike said, as if offering his cock to me, "Sometimes you've just got to reach out and make it happen."

Was he implying I should just bend down and suck his cock?

Or was he just telling me to be more aggressive with my wife?

"Oh yes, fist fuck me," the woman screamed.

"Oh, there's something I haven't done," Mike said, returning to the TV screen.

I joked, "Hard to believe there's something you haven't done."

"I'll have to fix that," he said, as he sped up his jerking off while focusing on the fist pumping in and out of the blonde.

He stared at the female's fist, I returned my stare to what was wrapped in his fist as I stroked my cock furiously too... imagining having the balls to just reach out and make it happen.

"Oh fuck," he groaned.

"Shit," I groaned too as I watched his cum shoot out of his cock, mine following seconds later.

We both cleaned up as he said, "God, that was hot."

I enthused, "I couldn't agree more," although we still weren't talking about the same thing.

Like last week, once the game was back on we didn't talk about sex anymore, although we swore a lot as New England took over and went on to win 35-20.

As I was leaving, Mike said, "Live out your fantasies, Rusty. Regret is a terrible thing."

Coming from someone way younger than me, that seemed strange advice, as I answered, "I wish I had your confidence."

"Just take what you want," he said, unaware that he was offering his cock to me.

I smiled, feeling oddly giddy at responding so brazenly since he wouldn't catch on, "I may just do that."

"You'd better," he said, as I headed back home.

That night, I jerked off a second time imagining I had bent down and taken his cock in my mouth... wondering if any of his advice was aimed at me sucking his cock... although it seemed unlikely, even though I couldn't help but think once or twice he'd caught me checking out his dick.

11. WOULD BEING A COCKSUCKER SPICE UP MY MARRIAGE?

As I read more online, I actually read about cuckolding, which didn't turn me on... I didn't want my wife fucking some other guy... eating some pussy sure... but fucking someone else... no! Plus, although I wanted to suck a cock, I didn't want to play second fiddle to some other man in front of my wife. The idea of some guy fucking my wife while I watched or sucking a guy's dick after it had been in my wife wasn't appealing at all.

But... the idea my wife might enjoy watching me suck a cock... well, that did turn me on, even if it seemed even less likely than the Buffalo Bills ever winning a Super Bowl.

Yet, as I continued reading online, I kept uncovering more possibilities.

After I ran across this comment from a woman, I began looking for more feminine comments:

My husband craves cock. I have no problem with this. In fact, I think it is fucking hot. Knowing that my strong fireman husband gets turned on sucking another man's cock or being fucked in the ass (especially by a twink) is a huge turn on to me. Watching a cock fuck his face is sexy as hell, and watching a cock plow his ass is better than any porn movie.

Although getting ass fucked wasn't for me, encouragement from my wife would be amazing, although I couldn't imagine my wife thinking the same thing. Yet, this first woman wasn't the only one.

When my husband first said to me that he was curious about sucking another man's dick I was appalled. I questioned our entire relationship and my own inadequacies as a woman. Thankfully, the internet helped me understand that this wasn't uncommon. Eventually I accepted that if he didn't try it, he would always be curious and this lack would likely have a negative impact in our marriage. So, I found a guy for him. Oddly, searching for a guy was fun... it was like dating all over again. In the end, I picked a big dicked guy so that if my husband was going to suck a cock he would be going whole hog. And although I didn't fathom I would ever find this hot... watching my man on his knees bobbing on a big cock turned out to be the hottest thing I'd ever seen. Now the first Saturday of every month I bring home a new cock for my man to suck.

And....

There is nothing hotter than a man sucking cock.

And....

At first I wasn't sure what I thought of it. But once I saw him sucking cock I was hooked. Seeing my strong man submitting was awesome. The only thing hotter is when he is on all fours and I peg him. A man giving his ass to a woman, especially if that woman is me, is the ultimate turn on.

As I read these and many more I couldn't help but think how hot it would be to have my wife support me in this sudden obsession. Yet, I knew there was no way she would be at all interested in such a thing.

As I did more research I discovered one more interesting new thing... and unlike cuckolding which seemed to take away from a man's masculinity, this seemed logical... especially considering my wife's (and many other men's wives') lack of interest in sex in general.

12. BRO-JOB

I found this fascinating.

The definition of a bro-job was something that wouldn't have made any sense to me a year ago, yet with my unfolding fascination with the idea of sucking cock and all my research it now made perfect sense.

A bro-job was oral sex between two heterosexual friends. This instantly made me think of Mike. Would he let me suck his cock... give him a 'bro-job'?

This led me to reading about straight guys who suck cock on the side.

Sex is sex... and if you can find a suck buddy, then life is perfect.

It compensates for the decline of your sex life with your wife.

It removes your temptation to cheat on your wife.

You suck him, he sucks you.

Life sucks... and that's a good thing.

And....

I had been sucking cocks at gloryholes for a few months (which is risky I know, but it was the only guaranteed cock I could find) when one drunken night I ended up sucking off a poker buddy. Ever since, every Monday night I tell my wife I'm off to play poker but spend the majority of the night under the table sucking off all four buddies (usually taking a couple loads from each before the night is done).

And....

Women don't understand the never ending sexual desires of a man. No matter what our age, we're always thinking of sex. And as a woman's sex drive seems to shrivel up and die as she ages, ours never diminishes (at least mentally... even if getting it up gets tougher). So when the wife quits sucking, we're naturally going to have to find an outlet. It starts with porn, but that only opens us up to wondering why every girl but our wife is an eager cocksucker. Thus we eventually begin to crave sucking cock or getting our cock sucked. And once you discover that 90 percent of men over forty have pondered sucking cock, finding a suck buddy is relatively easy... although scary at first. You can't just say to your buddy, 'Want to suck each other's cock?' Although I would imagine that if you asked at the right time, the answer would be yes 90% of the time. Because as I mentioned, men are always horny and always want a pair of lips wrapped around their cock.

For the next few days, and one extra day, we were playing the Monday night game this week, all I thought about was the idea of a 'bro-job' even if it was just one sided. Oddly, although I desperately wanted to suck a cock, particularly Mike's cock, I didn't get particularly excited thinking of having a guy suck mine.

13. A LOVE FOR COCK IS CONFIRMED

A wave of disappointment washed over me when I learned Andrea was still home.

I don't know why, but I somehow felt like today was the day... the day I would finally suck a cock... Mike's cock.

Yet, that suddenly seemed unlikely with Mike's wife home... although checking her out was definitely enjoyable in her tight jeans and even tighter sweater that showcased every curve. The only way it could have been better was if she:

a. Was in stockings

b. Suggested I suck her husband's cock

She brought us appetizers during the first half as we scored a couple early touchdowns and led the Redskins by eleven after one. A couple of minutes before the half, Andrea brought us another beer, bent over giving me a great view of her fine ass, before kissing Mike. She said, "I'm going to pick up some more beer and pizza."

"What kind do you like?" Mike asked.

"Any kind," I answered.

"Sausage?" Mike questioned.

"Yeah sure," I nodded, even though I was thinking of a very different sausage.

Andrea left just as we took a 21-6 lead.

Mike said, "Man we are really on tonight."

"Yeah, offense and defense," I nodded.

As the half ended, Mike asked, "Want to watch some porn?"

"Sure," I nodded, acting casually.

He put the porn on. This time a brunette was bobbing on a big cock. He pulled his cock out like he had the last two times and stroked it.

Like the last two times, I stared at his cock as I fished out my own.

Like the last two times, while he watched porn I watched his hand stroking his cock.

After a couple of minutes, as I imagined leaning down and taking Mike's cock in my mouth he said, "Go ahead, Rusty, do it."

I stammered, as I broke my gaze off his cock, "W-w-what?"

"It's obvious you want to suck my cock," Mike said.

"I-um-well," I babbled; the moment I'd fantasized was finally here, but now I didn't know how to deal with it.

"Have you sucked cock before?" he asked, as he stood up and moved in front of me.

"Um, no," I answered, my hunger for cock still there, but the moment seeming so surreal I couldn't comprehend this was happening.

"But you want to, don't you?" he said, as he stood in front of me, his hard cock still sticking out of his pants, level with my open mouth.

Although I was ready to suck his cock, I wanted to suck his cock, I was worried about his wife. I asked, "What about Andrea?"

"That's why I sent her out," he said, slowly stroking his cock directly in front of my enraptured face.

"Really?" I asked.

"Yeah, it's obvious you want to suck my cock, and I love having my cock sucked," he said.

"But won't Andrea think you're cheating?" I asked, suddenly tentative, even though I wanted to just lean forward and take that magnificent cock in front of me into my salivating mouth.

"What she doesn't know won't hurt her," he shrugged.

"Really?" I questioned.

"Some of the best blow jobs I've ever received were from guys," he revealed.