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- Confession Pt. 01
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Sorry, this isn't an erotic story. It's more like a self- confession. It's an issue that is always on my mind, and yet I can't seem to make it a reality. Here we go...
So, I guess like a lot of guys, I consider myself straight. Well, that's not quite true. I hate the term bi-curious but I guess, for lack of a better term, let's say I'm bi-curious. What I mean is, I don't find men particularly attractive (well maybe some hairless, big dicked twinks) and don't think I'd ever be interested in a "relationship" with a man but I do often think about how I would enjoy sucking a cock and maybe more. (The "maybe more" is trying to stuff one of those beasts up my ass) Let's just call it bi-curious, OK?
After hours, upon hours, of watching internet porn, I'm totally amazed at the size of the cocks in these movies. Even the supposed "amateur" movies most of the guys have huge thick dicks. Of course, who wants to watch guys with average dicks, right? (You know, growing up and changing into gym clothes or swim trunks I can only remember seeing one young kid with a cock that must have been 7 or 8 inches long flaccid, sweet Jesus what a cock!)
Even more amazing, to me anyway, is the ability to suck and deep throat cocks that look more like my arm than a cock. I guess practice is the key to swallowing these monsters. Really, some of these cocks are the size of beer cans! (Can you wrap your lips around a beer can? If you can, all I can say is "holy fuck!")
Enough BS, let me get to the real issue at hand. I can sit around all day fantasying about sucking and fucking a gigantic cock. (So we agreed to call me Bi-curious, right?) I can even get into picturing me and the wife having a three way, featuring me licking his cock while he fills her pussy to the hilt and then licking up the cream pie and cleaning his dick.
Or better yet, we do a double penetration and both fill her up and then I cleanup both holes and clean his dick. (Hold on a minute, I have to go have a wank)
OK, I'm back. (BTW - that DP thing will never happen, damn it. I beg like the fucking dog I am, but NO anal is always the answer)
Well, the issue at hand is this. No matter how horny I get. No matter how high I get. No matter how fucking desperate I get. After I cum, I just have no desire to follow through with tasting cum, mine or anyone else's.
That might be the reason I'm considering sucking cock. He cums, I don't. (But what if I choke, as in, chicken out, that would really suck. I'd have to go for a facial and hope that he wouldn't kick my ass for not swallowing his load)
I can lick up my pre-cum all day long. Love it on tits. Love it on pussy. Love it on ass.
But turn that pre-cum into the real deal and I completely shut down. WTF?
Maybe the answer is being forced to eat it. You know, have her just plop down on my face after I fill her pussy. Or she pulls my head down and squishes it around on her lovely tits after I cover them with my cum. Or "the ultimate", a snowball. Oh my! (Wait, I'll be right back)
Back again. Damn, my balls are starting to ache.
Anyway, there's my dilemma. I wanted to share because misery loves company. I just know there's a bunch of you guys out there just like me. (You sick bastards)
My plan of action is to get there, one way or the other. If I have to have somebody force their cock and cum down my throat, or have the Mrs. take charge and make me at least cover my face with my own cum, then so be it. Until I live out this fantasy I just won't be able to relax, it's always on my mind.
I know many of you will comment on what a pussy I am. Or how fucked up this whole thing is. But I'm betting that I'm not alone. (Maybe I am alone, in which case I AM totally fucked up)
Anyway, that's my true confession.
Hope to report on my progress over the next few weeks.
- COMMENTS
Anonymousover 1 year agoInteresting story and fantasy. After many failed efforts to eat my cum, including times when my wife reluctantly tried to help me eat it from her hand after jacking me off, (but I'd turn my face away and refuse to eat it), she began to tell me what Id refer to as bi curious stories. One led me to actually eat most of a load by licking it off her pussy as she straddled over my face. The lead up was her telling me a story where I'm at a party with a group of men and women. I'm on my hands and knees sucking two cocks while another guy is fucking my asshole while she watches and directs me. The clincher was my interactive narrative in which I got her to say that she really would like to see me eat my own cum like I keep talking about. I'm really turned on when she gets on her back and helps me cum on her pussy. She immediately gets over my mouth and lowers herself on my tongue and says that she knows for sure now that I've eaten my cum.
Anonymousalmost 2 years agoI had the same problem and found the perfect solution: ruined orgasms! Yes, that’s a thing, Google it. You basically jerk off and at the last second you stop touching your cock. If you do this right you will cum without getting and orgasm and you will stay horny and without the thoughts of regret. Once you practice this to the point where you feel comfortable doing it, cum in a shot glass and drink up my friend! It works every time for me now.
Anonymousover 5 years agoI had a similar issue in the past... you can always unload into an ice cube tray, this way the cum goes straight in the freezer for the next wank. Once you’re horny enough get that cum cube and suck on it while edging yourself until it’s fully melted and you’ve swallowed your whole load. The flavour keeps and as it can take a while for the cube to melt in your mouth the flavour seems to stay and can be savoured longer.
I’ve also shoved a few cummy ice cubes up my ass so when I get my dildo out ten mins later my ass is pre lubed with my own cum, fuck yourself with the dildo then pull it out and suck it... do it before cumming, not only do you get ass to mouth but a cummy cock too, just like if a guy has made you sick his dick clean after banging your ass!
Anonymousabout 6 years agoAs I near completion I too envision her lifting off my cock, grabbing my hair and moaning as she slides her wetness all over my face. Yet, every time I cum, she gets up and my fantasy brews....
Anonymousalmost 9 years agoFor the past year or so, Ive been obssesed with the thought of eating my cum out of my wife's pussy. But everytime after I blow, I lose interest.
I will lick my pre-cum, no problem. Have even gone so far as cumming in my hand and bringing it up to my mouth, then I just chicken out. Maybe I just need to be forced to do it.
Have also recently been fantasizing about sucking a nice hard cock. Not sure where thats coming from, as Ive never even seen another real life hard dick, but the fantasy is there. Dont see me acting on it, but a female friend has hinted at inviting me for a 3some with her BF, so who knows.
Glad to hear Im not the only straight guy thinking about this.
