I Think I'm Gay

One day a young handsome, 6 foot, dark haired man knocked on my front door wearing nothing more than a tee shirt and tan shorts asking if I was the local nude photographer. Looking past this young man to see who was with him and seeing no one, I replied yes and would he like to make an appointment for his woman? He smiled and said yes that would be nice but could I take some pictures of him, naked? Looking rather surprised I kindly begged his pardon and replied that I don't shoot nude males. He assured me that money was not a problem and really wanted me to take some pictures for him. At this point I couldn't help but notice that his shorts were beginning to bulge in front, being a photographer I do notice these things. Was this young man getting an erection standing there in my front doorway? After explaining to him several times that I wasn't interested in a photo shoot with him, he went and did the most unusual thing, he dropped his shorts to the ground, no underwear on and sporting the biggest cock I've ever seen, and it was only semi hard. Now this got my attention real fast.

I grabbed him by his tee shirt and pulled him inside before the neighbors could see him standing there with his bare ass and big dick hanging out and his pants around his ankles. To make things worse, my wife is sitting in the living room taking all this in. Sorry to say I wasn't all that polite, and told him he had to leave. About that time my wife, Debbie speaks up and hollers, "I'll take the pictures for him." Yeah, right! I'm not letting her get anywhere near that young man.

This perhaps was the beginning of my fixation of another penis other than my own. Damn, his cock was big and did I mention he shaved all of his pubic hair off? I've never seen that before. Actually I haven't seen another male penis since my child hood. "Maybe a glance or two in a public restroom" but other than that, nothing to speak of or remember. My wife does shave her pussy mound and several of the gals I photographed do also, I found it rather odd that a man would shave down there. Except for the dark hair on his head, he was baby smooth all over. Little did I know, I would end up shaving my own pubic area latter in life. Shaved and single again.

CHAPTER TWO
Nude Beach

Determined to remain single after my last divorce and closing up my studio

I find a new interest in life, the local nude beach. I'm shy with self nudity, getting older with a pot belly, but what the hell; I'm going to let it all hang out, not that I have much to hang, I'm not getting laid, and I do enjoy spending time at the beach. Why not soak up the sun, and take some wild life pictures? So off I go to Playalinda Beach, find myself a rather secluded place, set up my umbrella and lounge chair and pretend I don't notice the nudist's that are passing in front of me.

I can't help but notice all the guys have big dicks; bigger than mine anyway, and some are smiling at me. As they pass, some give their dick a little tug. Later on, I learn that this is normal behavior if you looking for attention. "Sort of a come hither jester." Damn, now I'm attracting the homos. Is there no end to my misery? I just want to enjoy the sun and relax.

After an hour or so I observed one male watching me more than I feel comfortable with. He was real dark from the sun and had a large dick that I believe was semi-hard every time he passed in front of me. Now I know this can't be good, Sure enough it wasn't long before he strolled up to where I was sitting and said "hi." Trying to be polite and not stare at his semi hard-on that was inches from my face, I engaged in a conversation with him, telling him that this is my first time at a nude beach, all the while covering up my little limp dick with my hand and towel.

He explained to me that while passing he noticed my penis was small in size and that is what attracted him to me, seems he had a fondness for under rated members. OK, rub it in, I can't help it. Then he asked why I was hiding it under the towel? Because I'm shy stupid, ashamed maybe, think what you want. He then proceeded to explain to me that he is bi-sexual and married, and that he has a wife at home and would I be interested in going home with him and make love too her while he watches? Maybe his big cock was not what satisfied her, made her sore probably.

Thinking about him reaming his wife's pussy was more than I could envision. No way was I going to screw her with my little dick. I'm sure there wouldn't be any satisfaction for me or her. I think he just wanted to watch us go at it. Pervert! All the time we are talking he is playing with himself, one hand on his large cock and the other hand trying to get under my towel, damn he was distracting and he was a hell of a lot bigger than me. Now remember I haven't had any sex in a long time and that damned penis of mine starts having a mind of its own. My penis under the towel was rising and my breathing was becoming erratic and rapid. For some reason watching him stroking his cock is exciting me so without even thinking I slowly start to rub my own under the towel; by now I am leaking pre-cum all over my leg.

I didn't care what happens. All this sex talk and looking at his cock made me horny and I needed relief, look all you want dude, I'm going to jack off with you right here on the beach like it or not. He liked it I guess, because he reaches over and replaces my hand with his and started pumping it up and down. Damn, this feels fantastic. I closed my eyes and start to enjoy the moment when all of a sudden the next thing I know, he replaces his hand with his mouth and is sucking on my dick like there's no tomorrow. I start to pull him away but I was so damn horny and on the brink of cumming, so I push his head deeper into my crotch and start hollering, "Suck it bitch, suck my damn cock. Oh baby suck."

The next thing I know, my hand has found its way to his throbbing cock. Here I am jacking him off and enjoying the hell out it. Ok, so he's sucking, I'm jacking, and I'm telling him, "DON'T STOP!" All too soon I'm filling his mouth with my cum that has been stored up for quite awhile. I shoot spurt after spurt into his mouth and he's savoring every drop. I thought I would never stop. He keeps right on sucking until my dick softens, licking every drop. Best blow job I ever had, I forgot to mention that he came about the same time as I and I now have a hand full of sperm dripping down my hand. I'm not sure why I don't let go. Latter we both chuckled and walked down to the water to wash off.

This was my first experience with another male. Am I gay? I'm sure this doesn't mean I'm gay.

After several weeks at the beach I was feeling a little more comfortable being nude in front of the other guys and became friends with some of the regulars. Because I always carried my camera I became known as the photo hound. You must remember that most nudists are not cool with cameras on the beach. You must be very careful where you aim or you and your camera might end up in the surf.

So one day as I'm leaving the beach, a dude hollers over at me, "Hey photo dude, take my picture!"

"Sorry, I can't do that."

"Come on, please."

"No"

"Please?"

By this time he is being a pain in the ass so for some stupid reason, I holler back at him, "Get that cock hard, and I'll shoot it!"

Damn if it didn't rise on the spot. He was well endowed, close to nine inches. Now I'm not sure what to do; people are all around, guys and gals and me making a stupid remark like that. How dumb am I? Maybe I should run off the beach and pretend this never happened.

Everyone is looking at me and saying, "Take his picture, take the picture."

As I start walking over to him, a young, attractive naked girl reaches over and grabs hold of his dick and says "Here take it now, I'll hold it steady for you."

What could I do? Take the damn picture and get the hell out of there, that's what I'll do. Damn! I wish she would hold my dick. OK, wishful thinking.

I proceeded to ready my camera and started shooting close-ups of his now stiff-as-a-rock cock, first one way then another, watching as this gal is sliding her hand up and down his cock, his pre-cum glistening in the sun light, masturbating him in front of every one. Next thing I know several nudist are asking for pictures, shoot me, shoot me. As long as they are assured their face won't be in the pictures they are all asking for pictures and how much do I charge, can they hire me to shoot an orgy or would I get naked while I shoot. What the hell. I don't take pictures of naked men but I sure as hell wouldn't mind having this gal play with my now rising dick.

One guy handed me his business card. I'm not sure where it came from because he was naked; maybe it was stuck between his ass cheeks. He wanted to know how much I would charge for several pictures of him sucking my dick and maybe some of me sucking his. Shit! What kind of a situation did I get myself into now? Every one thanked me and after handing out several business cards of my own I got the hell out of there.

All the way home from the beach I kept seeing in my mind the vision of that guy's cock, I wasn't sure if it was seeing that girl rubbing it or if I was fascinated with the size and looks of it; wishing all along I was holding it instead of photographing it. The more I thought about it the harder my penis got and the next thing I know, I've got my bathing suit around my ankles and jacking off, going down the highway. Thank God I have a conversion van with dark tinted windows! It wasn't long before I was coming all over myself. I stick my finger into my fresh cum and start licking my own semen. Pre cum is one thing but now I'm going way beyond.

Damn, am I gay? This has to be a gay thing.

Now I have a new fondness for tasting my own cum, so here I am driving down the highway, licking my own cum from my fingers and getting hard all over again. Do you think I'm becoming a homo? No way! I don't have an attraction for other men; but for some reason my dick has a mind of it's own and starts to get hard thinking about someone's cock. Maybe I have a penis envy complex; maybe that could explain it. All I know for sure is, I'm not gay.

Now I'm thinking to myself, what would it be like to give a blow job? What would it feel like or taste like? Could I really suck it and swallow his cum? Would I gag? All these thoughts are going through my head after my encounter at the beach. Now I'm thinking back and wishing the young man that came to my door long ago with that big beautiful cock would come back. I damn sure would photograph him now. I wonder, could it be that bad? I've made up my mind, the first chance I get I'm going to make myself do it. Yes, now I'm looking forward to giving my first blow job.

Damn, Am I gay?

CHAPTER THREE
Do I act on my desires?

My fantasy and desire to suck a penis is now overwhelming. Should I? What about AIDS and other venereal diseases? Will I become a homo and only desire men? What about fucking? Could I fuck a guy in the ass or would I let some one fuck me in the ass? No way! I won't even let my doctor put his finger up there, how could I let a man stick his stiff dick in my tight little virgin hole?

I'm still going to the nude beach and taking pictures, getting to know the other nudist. Each day, after taking pictures of different guy's I would go home and tell myself, "That was a beautiful cock. Why didn't I ask him if he would let me play with it, or better yet,let me suck it?" I keep telling myself that I'm going to ask the next guy, or maybe just lean over and put it in my mouth. I feel a little uneasy asking if I can suck a stranger so I convince myself to reach out and take hold and suck, that's what I'll do.

Well you guessed it; the time for me to act on my obsession came sooner than I expected. As I was walking down the beach one sunny morning, heading to my spot away from the others, I couldn't help but notice a new guy lying on his back in a green lounge chair. No one else was close by and I didn't think he even noticed me. I think he was sleeping. He was young, very tanned with no body hair, except for a neatly trimmed patch around his pubic area, maybe 5' 10 with long blond hair and dark sunglasses covering his eyes. His circumcised penis had a metal ring around it and it was soft, just laying there on his tanned body. I stood there with my mouth open and looked at him for what seemed hours when all of a sudden he sit's up and asked if I see anything I like? What the hell could I say? I stammered, "YES." He invites me over to where he is sitting and asked several questions about me and the beach.

Well that broke the ice for the two of us. With my shorts on, camera under my arm I get right to the point and start asking all kinds of questions about his cock ring. "Why?" "Does it feel good?" "Does it keep you harder?" "Do the girls like it?" Stupid questions only a dumb, horny old man would ask.

He asked about my camera and after some thought he asked if I want to take some pictures of him - like he couldn't see me drooling from my mouth. I told him I would love to and got my camera ready, we discussed several poses and I started doing my thing. He asked why I was still in my shorts so with out even thinking I shucked them off and continued shooting. After several shots and making sure no one could see us, I asked if I could touch his cock and take a couple photos with my hand holding it. He nodded and smiled, "Go for it, do what ever you want."

Oh brother, that was the wrong thing to say to me. Or maybe it wasn't, because I didn't waste any time reaching over and I took hold of his now semi-erect penis. Damn, he was young and beautiful and hot to the touch. Both my hands were shaking so bad you would think I was having a seizure, no way were any of my pictures going to come out clear; not as nervous as I was. I tried to concentrate on taking the pictures but when his hand pushed against my hand and started rubbing both our hands on his dick, I almost lost it.

The hell with the camera; my dream has come true. His cock continued to swell even more. Yes! There is a god, a penis god, and I have a rising star in my little hand. When fully erect I believe he must have been 8 inches or more. How the hell do I know? All I know is, he has giving me the go ahead to do what ever I wanted.

After a few strokes he nodded and asked if I wanted to suck it? Just like that, do I want to suck his cock, he doesn't know me and I don't know him, this was my chance, could I do it? Here was the most beautiful penis in my hand and he wants to know if I want to? Needless to say, I threw caution to the wind, leaned over and put that cock to my mouth, swirling my tongue all around it like a pro. First, my lips touched the tip of his penis, it was ever so soft, like velvet and hot, My tongue first probed his pee hole then I slowly eased my mouth around the head, first an inch then two, then like a mad man I try to take all of it. Each thrust I go farther and farther down on his shaft, until I've consumed every inch. I can't believe it! I've got his whole man hood in my mouth. He starts bucking as I continue sucking; determined to never let it escape. Then my hand reaches under his butt and finding his bung hole all wet from my saliva, I massage it and I begin to push my finger in. With encouragement from him, I slide another finger in and start finger fucking him much to his delight.

Here I am a straight dude, going crazy, sucking this boys cock and finger fucking him. Please don't tell anyone. I enjoy making love and eating pussy, but this was a whole new experience and I was making the best of it. Oh shit, maybe I am gay. This sure feels good in my mouth and I can tell by his actions, that he is enjoying every minute as I continue sucking him.

It wasn't long before I could tell he was about to cum, I actually could feel him expanding, filling my mouth until I thought I couldn't take anymore. Then it happened. He started shooting his cum into my hungry mouth. At first I thought I'd better stop but before I could tear myself from his pulsating pole, it was too late. My mouth filled with his hot cum; some leaking from my lips on to his stomach and balls. I started to gag at first, but was determined to consume all that he had.

This young man was full of cum and I, a straight dude, was draining his spurting cock, determined not to waste a drop. I find that his cum tasted sweet like my own and I wasn't disappointed at all. I continued sucking and licking until his penis is soft in my mouth. Finally I let it go. As I look up I see him smiling back at me. Not a word was spoken, but I could tell he was spent and enjoyed my first real blow job.

Damn, I've sucked his cock, finger fucked him, let him shoot in my mouth and I don't even know his name. I don't have a clue. Off we go to the waters edge to freshen up.

"Am I gay or is this just "penis envy???"