I Will Never Be Loved Ch. 05

Danielle's Pov:

It's been a few weeks since I have been here and nothing has really changed since my talk with Luke. I haven't said much to anyone. My aunt and grandmother haven't really bugged me at all. I guess people can only take so much of being ignored before they give up. Then again Luke hasn't stopped trying to get me to open up either, and I have been ignoring him as well. I don't understand why he's trying so hard. Yet it felt good to have someone care for once. I had never had anyone ever really care about me.

While I have been staying away from everyone I had a lot of time to sit and think about what has happened to me. Even though my situation sucks, there is nothing I can do about it. Not only that but my grandmother and aunt were really making me feel bad. They had done everything they could do to find me. They had worked so hard to find me, and here I was acting like a baby about everything.

It's about time that I get over myself. I didn't know when or how I was going to get out of here. But I knew that I needed to make the best of my situation while I was here. I might as well take the time to get to know them. After all they were my family, the only family I had left. There was no point in acting the way I was because nothing was going to change. It didn't matter if I never talked to anyone of them again. I would still be here and not in New York, I might as well make the best out of it. So I decided that today was a new day. I was going to at least make an effort. I took a quick shower and got dressed in some brown shorts and a blue shirt. I put my hair up since it seemed like it was going to be a hot day, and I applied a small amount of makeup.

I took a look at myself in the mirror and let out a loud sight. I hated how I looked in shorts. I felt as if all of my fat was just spilling out of the shorts I had on. Actually I hated wearing just about anything because I felt like I never looked good in anything that I would put on. I shook my head and I pushed the thought aside. I opened my door walked out of my bedroom. As I walked down the stairs I found my grandmother cooking breakfast.

I just stood there for a moment looking at her. The whole time I had been here I ignored her and everyone else. If I spoke it was mostly just me answering a question they asked me, and I usually only said yes or no. I had never started a conversation with one of them. And I honestly didn't know what to say. I took a deep breath and walked further into the room.

"Hey can I help you with that?" I asked her. Glenda turned around so quickly I thought she was going to fall. She looked at me as if I had lost my mind. She looked like she was in a state of shock. Which I can understand since I really haven't talked to her since I have been here. She just stood there looking at me for a few minutes. She shook her head and smiled at me.

"Ummm yes of course dear, I could use some help setting the table, if you don't mind." She said to me with confusion in her voice. She was still in shock about what was happening.

"Yeah definitely." I walked over to the table and started to set things up. The whole time I was setting the table I could feel Glenda watching me. At one point I think I even saw her pinch herself. I couldn't help but chuckle at that. She actually thought she might be dreaming. I was almost finished doing the table when she spoke again.

"Why now?" She asked me.

I turned to look at her. "What do you mean?"

"Why are you talking now, and asking if I need help. What has changed?" She asked me while she turned off the stove and came over to where I was standing.

"Ummm well I mean, why not now. I just, want to make the best of the situation. I mean there's no way I can do anything until I am eighteen anyway, so I should just suck it up and deal with it."

I heard her start to laugh from in front of me. "God you are so like your mother. In more ways then I think you will ever know. She always acted so guarded as well. The only difference is your mother never held anything in. One time we were at a store and we were about to get cashed out. One of the cashiers made fun of the way your Aunt Lisa was dressed, and your mom freaked out. She said and I quote 'Do you really think all that makeup can hide the ugliness you have on both the inside and out. You better shut that bitchy mouth of yours before I cover your face in blood.' You should have seen the girls face I thought she was going to crap herself.

I couldn't help but laugh at this. Once I started I couldn't stop, and my grandmother started to laugh as well. Before we knew it we were both laughing hard and holding onto our stomachs. I hadn't laughed like this in a long time. I haven't been able to feel this carefree in so long. After a minute or two we both stopped laughing and were smiling at one another.

"Danielle I know that you've been through a lot, and I know that you truly don't want to be here. But you don't know how happy we are that your here. And I'm truly glad your giving it a chance here. It's no New York that's for sure, but I think your going to like it here." Glenda said to me as she rubbed my back lightly. I smiled at her words, and nodded my head.

"Not to quote Annie or anything but this house is a mansion. I think I'm going to like it here." Both Glenda and I laughed at my words. It was nice to have someone to laugh with like this.

We were interrupted by the door closing and about almost everyone who worked here standing at the door. They must have though they were losing their minds. I really could care less about what they thought at the moment though. This was the first time I had laughed in forever. It felt so damn good to laugh. To not be sulking around and feeling sorry for myself.

"Anyone want to include us clueless people in on what you guys were laughing about?" My aunt asked as she walked over to us. Luke followed behind her.

"Yeah, I mean secrets don't make friends." Luke said from beside her. I couldn't help but chuckle at his childish behavior.

"It's nothing really. Just having ourselves a good laugh." I said to them. My grandmother laughed at this.

"Yes just a laugh. Any who breakfast is ready. Why don't we eat up before it gets cold." She gave me a pat on the shoulder before going off and setting the food onto the table. I went to go sit in my usual seat. Of course Luke came to sit right next to me.

Usually Luke was the first one to talk but today was a new day. And after my good conversation and laugh with Glenda I was in a great mood. "Good Morning Luke!" I said to him as I grabbed some eggs and hash browns. He looked at me with the weirdest expression.

"Are you feeling alright?" He asked me with a straight face.

"Of course I am. Why?" I asked.

"Because your up and about laughing with Glenda, helping get breakfast ready, and now your saying good morning to me. It's strange to see you so happy and involved. What changed?" He questioned as he grabbed some food for himself.

I shrugged my shoulders at his words. "I just think it's time I took your advice and actually got to know everyone here. I can't change what's happening to me, so I might as well embrace it." I answered him. I then I turned to my aunt. " Lisa, do you think I would be able to help around with the animals today. Maybe I could help out with Princess." I heard everyone around the table gasp except for Luke, he was still looking at me with a shocked expression.

"Oh sweetie you don't want to help with her, she's a really hard horse to take care of." My grandmother said to me.

My aunt was the next person to talk. "Yeah. Princess doesn't even like to be around any of us, and we have been around Princess her whole life.

I was about to tell her about the day when I first got here, but Luke interrupted me. "Actually she is really good with her. The first day that she was here, I found her in the barn with Princess. Princess was all over her. I have never seen her want anyone to ever touch her like she did with Danielle. I think she has taken a real liking to Danielle." Luke said to them as he looked at me.

Again everyone gasped. She must really give them a hard time if they are reacting like this "I can't believe it." My aunt said.

"Yeah me either." My grandmother whispered.

"Well if you and her really get along that well then I think you should be the one to take care of her, or at least try to. " My aunt said to me with a smile. "But your going to need to know how to take care of her. There's certain things you have to do, especially with a horse like Princess. Who wants to help Danielle get settled with Princess?" My aunt asked as she looked at everyone around the table.

"I will" Said one of the guys who worked here. I believe his name is Dan. I looked over at him and smiled. I would take all the help I could get. I really didn't know much about horses. I have been trying to learn things about horses online for the past few week. I honestly didn't think there was much more to learn, but every bit of information counts.

I heard a growl from beside me. Not an animalistic one, but one of a pissed of human. I looked over to see Luke staring at Dan with a pissed off expression. "I'll help her, you won't be needed Dan." Ha I was right about his name.

Dan shifted in his seat then spoke again. "Ummm I think I can handle it Luke, it's no big deal."

"I said you won't need to help her, I will!" Luke yelled at him. Everyone in the room went silent. No one was eating, let alone moving. You could cut the tension with a knife. I had never heard Luke talk like that before. That really isn't saying much since I have only been here for a few weeks, but still he didn't seemed like someone who got mad easily. Although it was a bit scary, it was more sexy then anything else. Wait where in the world did that thought come from? A guy like Luke wouldn't be into a girl like me.

"Okay dude chill. I was just trying to help." Dan said to him as he continued to eat. Never once did his eyes leave me and Luke.

I looked over to see that Luke still had this hard look on his face. I don't know why I reached over and grabbed his hand but I did. I only wanted to give him a quick squeeze, the kind of squeeze that said 'hey it's no big deal', then move my hand away. But Luke had other plans. He quickly grabbed my hand before I can move it, and he held it there and started to eat his breakfast.

Luke was something really new to me. I had never had a friend before, I actually never had anyone care about me in anyway. This was definitely something new to me. Maybe moving here wouldn't be as bad as I thought, maybe.

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