Paramedic Pt. 03

"Hmmmm. Something getting hard down here" said Jared as he gently touched Liam's dick with the face cloth and washing it. He used the face cloth to stroke up and down the growing shaft.

Jared used his other hand to toy with Liam's balls. He stood up and looked Liam in the face and pulled him into a hug. While they kissed, Jared began to wash Liam's ass crack with the face cloth, washing gently up and down crack and over Liam's rosebud. He threw the cloth down and grabbed each of Liam's ass cheeks and started to massage them. He reached one finger up and started to circle the little muscle buried between the cheeks before sliding it in.

"Oh Jared" Liam exclaimed as Jared was slowly inserting the finger into the very tight opening.

"Oh Yes" said Liam as he tightened his hug with Jared. Jared toyed with Liam's asshole pushing his finger in and out very gently. The two of them were rubbing groins and dicks together with growing abandon. Their actions of massaging each other's bodies as well as rubbing their hard cocks into each other went on for a few minutes. The two of them were now very close to cumming. Jared continued to grind his pelvis while fingering Liam's asshole when he felt some contractions from Liam's asshole on his finger. Liam stood still while he came with his cum smearing between both his and Jared's bodies. The sensation of Liam's warm cum between them and on Jared's dick was enough. It pushed him over the edge as well. Wave after wave of pleasure hit Jared as he cum. They both stood there, hugging tight, letting the shower water run over them.

Jared and Liam broke apart. "Good thing the apartment building has a large water tank eh?" said Jared.

"We need to wash up again" laughed Liam. They finished their shower, dried off each other and went to the bedroom.

Liam looked at Jared and said "I don't have any clean clothes here."

"Although I like the look of you running around naked, it might be frowned upon in public. We are about the same size so you can borrow some of mine" Jared said.

"I am not wearing any of those ragged boxers" Liam said. Jared struck his tongue out at him.

They rummaged through the dresser drawers finding enough clothing for both of them to wear and then got dressed. There was enough work out clothing for them both as well and they threw it into a small back pack. It was mid-afternoon when the two of them finally left the apartment.

The boys finished their workout and showered at the gym. They both felt fantastic and energized as they went shopping. The two of them got into Jared's vehicle and drove to the mall. They wandered around aimlessly for a while until Jared saw a men's store.

"I need to buy some new underwear I guess. I don't want you laughing at mine anymore" said Jared.

"I didn't laugh at your boxers. I just thought you have different underwear to show your assets better! But again, now that we are together, I am not sure I want you wearing anything but your boxers when you have to change near others in public."

"It's too late Liam! Damage done! I am going underwear shopping for both of us" said Jared feigning indignation.

"What do you mean for both of us? Do you have a mouse in your pocket? My underwear is perfect" replied Liam as he threw his hands into the air and rolled his eyes in an exaggerated display.

"Now that we are together, you need boxers!" exclaimed Jared.

They both laughed and went into the clothing store. It was one of those stores which sold all the latest fashions, and quite a section devoted to men's underwear. The boys were looking at several different styles and colours when a man approached them to ask if they needed help.

Liam looked at the man and said with a big smile on his face "we are trying to find better underwear for this boxer wearing heathen. Something brief and tight would be perfect for him to wear."

The man gave them both a look over and said "Yes, I think I know what you guys would like. There are some briefs here which accentuate your package and hug your ass. There are no lines shown through your pants so it looks like you are commando."

The man showed the two of them another style. "These are a tight fitting boxer style brief with a pouch for the goods."

"If you are so inclined, there is another type here which can also be used as a jock strap" he said.

The man turned towards them and said "We have some nice jeans which would also look good on you two. The underwear and jeans would work well together for the bodies you guys have. You should be showing those bodies off while you are young."

Jarred bought a dozen pairs of underwear for Liam which he selected. He also grabbed a dozen pairs for himself which Liam gave his approval. The jeans they looked at were nice soft denim, mid-range rise, and were cut in such a way they showed off a person's ass. When Liam tried on a pair and modelled them for Jared, his only comment about them was "woof!"

Jared tried on a pair and modelled them for Liam. Liam came up to Jared, face to face. He reached around to the back and felt up and down Jared's ass.

"These feel great on you Jared" said Liam. Liam stepped back a bit and looked at Jared's crotch area. It was obvious Jared was now semi-hard and the Jeans made it look even better. "I like those" he said.

The salesman was using a piece of cardboard to fan himself in an exaggerated manner. He said "So do I. You both look fantastic in those jeans. You two are so in love aren't you?"

Liam replied "We are very much in love."

The salesman smiled and said "My partner and I have been together for 15 years. I have worked at this store even longer and I have sold a lot of clothing to all kinds of people. I have seen people in love, people who thought they were in love, lust between people and people who were tolerating each other. You are the first two I have ever dealt with who I can actually feel the love radiating out of you like the heat from sunshine on a beach. Not to mention you are both generating a lot of other heat as well" he chuckled.

The boys blushed and Liam said "Thank you for your kind words."

They bundled up their purchases and left the store. Jared paid for it all.

Outside the store Liam said "Jared, I want to pay for my own things. I appreciate you generosity but you didn't have to do that because I do make good money as a paramedic. I don't know what to say except I love you."

Jared leaned in and said "I wanted to do this and I love you more. Money is just money. I love to use it to make someone happy. Plus watching you walk around in those jeans will be payment enough." Jared kissed him.

They locked the bags of clothes in the back of Jared's SUV. Upon their return to the mall, Jared took Liam to a Chinese Dim Sum restaurant where they tried all kinds of different exotic dishes. Finishing their meal and feeling like over inflated balloons, they went food shopping. Those bags of groceries were piled in the back of the SUV as well when they were done.

They got back to the apartment and carried the goods to Jared's apartment and put it all away. Jared got a bottle of wine out and opened it. He poured two glasses and gave one to Liam. They went into the living room and sat together on the couch.

"This has been a wonderful day Jared" said Liam.

"I enjoyed every minute of today not because of what we bought, but because I got to spend it with you Liam" replied Liam. He leaned over and kissed him sensually.

Liam returned the kiss with enthusiasm. When they broke apart Jared placed his hand gently along Liam's cheek, stroking it, taking in the soft and velvety feeling of his skin. Jared whispered "I have never loved anyone as much as I love you Liam. You are quickly becoming a very big part of my life."

Liam eyes started to water with tears. "Jared, I didn't know loving another person could feel like it does with you. Even when we were separated in the stores today, I was longing to be with you. I love you unconditionally and with my total heart."

"We have it bad for each other don't we partner" said Jared.

Jared put his arm around Liam's shoulders and pulled him tight. Liam leaned his head onto Jared shoulder and sighed. "This feels so right Jared."

"It does to me too Liam. I would like to tell you about my grandfather if you want to hear about him" said Jared.

"Please, tell me about him. I feel that you really have a strong connection to him the way you spoke about him at supper last night."

"My Grandfather raised me. I was abandoned by my parents because they didn't have the space in their lives for a baby. My grandfather was my father, my friend and my inspiration to seek knowledge of the spiritual world. I love him so much. The nice thing is, he comes to visit me sometimes during a smudging or sweat lodge ceremony to give me some advice, and to remind me I will always will be loved by him" said Jared.

Liam spoke "He visit's you Jared? I don't understand."

"The sweat lodge gives you a chance to commune with the spirits of people who have messages for you or you may have for them. It's not like making a phone call to a specific person but it seems to me, the ones who have the most important messages come through to share them with you. I must admit, I do not understand who is chosen to come through, but it always seems to be ones who I need to speak with" replied Jared.

"Please tell me more about your Grandfather" asked Liam.

"He is the last of the old ways. Grandfather is a healer for the people as well as a respected spiritual guide. I am told our family has been doing it for generations. I have the same gifts or abilities as he does, to channel the Creators will into healing. He can sense people's emotions even when they mask them. He can really get in touch with their deepest thoughts with a touch of his hand. At times, he can modify people's thinking processes at times as well by placing or covering up preconceived thoughts with his suggestions. He taught me all of these things, and how to control them as well. He taught me to accept the gifts and to use them on behalf of the Creator" explained Jared.

"So you know what I am thinking Jared?" asked Liam.

"No Liam. I could probably make an educated guess what is one your mind" laughed Jared "but I have never used my gifts on you in any way. It would have been for personal gain and I would never do it. Don't you recall Pierre outing me and I was shocked you were gay as well as being interested in me? I had no clue about you because I had never used the gifts."

"I'm sorry, your right. From what I have learned about you while we worked together, you have too much integrity to have done it. Besides, I have learned you do not lie."

Jared looked at him and kissed him deeply. "Besides, it doesn't take a mind reader what you have had on your mind for the last 24 hours. The constant bulge in your jeans doesn't need someone with a gift to recognize your thoughts."

Liam laughed "Only with you Jared."

"Liam, would you tell me about your life?" asked Jared.

Jared felt him tense up under his arm. "It's hard for me Jared. My parents were killed in car collision on their way to see me at college. They were great parents and like I told you before, they didn't even blink an eye when I came out. They did warn me of the difficulties I would face, but the assured me they would support me because I was their son and they loved me. Mom was a nurse and dad was a doctor. They used to laugh about putting a spin the term 'Operating Room" at the hospital. At 13, I didn't want to hear about my parents having sex which made them laugh only harder. We had a good life and I loved them dearly. When I graduated from college, I moved here to start the job." Liam explained.

"What about the collision?" asked Jared.

Liam hesitated before answering. "I was at college studying paramedicine. I was so involved in the course I didn't get home very often to visit with them. They offered to come up to visit; it wasn't a long trip - only an hour away. I offered to take a break from my studying and buy them dinner if they came up to visit me."

Jared felt Liam's body shiver, and he pulled him tight into his side. When Liam looked directly into Liam's eyes, he could see he was crying.

"You don't have to say anything else Liam" said Jared.

"For the first time, I want to. I want to tell you Jared, to tell you what a monster I am. They wouldn't have been killed by the semi driver who fell asleep at his wheel if they weren't coming to see me. The truck driver was running 2 sets of logbooks and been driving for 26 hours according to his satellite record. The company wasn't shutting him down and had encouraged him to put in as many hours as possible. He was popping pills to stay awake. They never had a chance" Liam was sobbing loudly. "If I had not invited them for dinner, they would still be alive. They left our house to come and see me because I was too selfish to go visit them. I killed them!"

Liam got up and ran for to the door. He started to put his shoes on but was having trouble seeing them through the tears and fell over.

"Now that you know I killed my parents, you won't want me to be near you." sobbed Liam

Jared had moved from the couch quickly and was following Liam. He was surprised at Liam's statement about being responsible for his parent's death. Now he understood why Liam was reacting to the death of the man involved in the collision yesterday so personally. He was feeling responsible for the man's death the same way he had suppressed his feelings of responsibility for his parent's deaths. He reached Liam as he fell to the floor and got down next to him, wrapping his big arms around him and pulling him in tight. Liam was struggling at first, trying to resist, but Jared was bigger and stronger.

"Let me go, I have to leave. You hate me know" Liam yelled.

"Liam, listen to me. STOP and be still" Jared said calm but firm. Jared could feel Liam's body stop struggling in his arms.

"Listen to me Liam. I love you." Liam's body went rigid, but he wasn't struggling at all.

"Did you hear me Liam? I love you" repeated Jared keeping Liam tight in his arms.

"Why would you say that? I killed my parents" said Liam as his sobbing intensified.

"Liam, look at me" said Jared.

Liam replied quickly "No. Let me go."

"Liam, look at me" said Jared in his very calm voice.

Liam lifted his head to look at Jared. Jared could see Liam's beautiful blue eyes were red and swollen from the crying, but they were still beautiful. "Liam, I need you to stay here with me and let me help you. Listen to me Liam, I will say this very clearly - I love you, unconditionally."

Liam looked at Jared for a long time, as if he was trying to see if what was being said as the truth. "You can't love me. I killed my parents."

"Liam, I love you. Let's go sit on the couch and again and talk."

Jared could feel Liam's body relax in his arms. He stood, dragging Liam up with him and over to the couch. They sat down and Jared pulled him tight to his side.

"Liam, we have talked of paths in life being followed throughout life. Unfortunately, sometimes when people are diverted off their pathway it may intersect with someone else's, changing them both. From what you have told me, it appears to me that is exactly what happened."

"You just told me they offered to come to see you and you offered to buy them supper. Is that accurate?"

"Yes."

"Could they have said no for your invitation to buy supper, or made it another night?"

Liam sat and thought for a couple of minutes. "Are you saying it was their fault?"

"No, I am not. Could they have said no for your invitation to buy supper, or made it another night?"

"Yes, they could have."

"Were they coming before or after you offered to buy them supper?"

"Before."

"Were they coming to visit you without any mention of supper and just to be with you to visit?"

"Yes, they were. You are trying to blame them."

Jared replied softly to Liam, "Not at all. They made a series of choices in making the trip. They chose who was driving, chose the vehicle they were driving, chose the route as they the speed to travel to mention just a few things. They chose to travel down their pathway of life, to come and visit you of their own free will. The truck driver made all kinds of choices as well, except his were all bad choices. His pathway forked, and instead of sticking to the main trail he chose the fork. His fork unfortunately resulted in a path across your parent's pathway and the results were devastating. His choices resulted in killing two innocent people who were just following their hearts to be with the one they loved. You did not kill them. Do you understand Liam?"

Liam settled back into Jared and was quiet. "In spite of how fucked up I am, you still love me Jared?" he asked.

Jared leaned into and kissed him long and gently. When he broke the kiss Jared looked into Liam's beautiful blue eyes and said "Liam, I love you unconditionally. I am not complete without you in my life. I Love you."

Liam started to cry again. "I don't deserve you Jared."

Jared stood and led Liam to the bedroom. He helped Liam get undressed and crawl into bed. Jared quickly undressed and crawled into bed behind Liam, spooning him. With his arms wrapped around Liam, he said into his ear "I love you Liam."

"Jared, I am the most fortunate man on the planet to have met you. I love you so very much" said Liam

"Let's go to sleep and see what the next day brings Liam. Good night my love" said Jared as he kissed the back of Liam's head.

Liam bent his head down and kissed Jared's arm wrapped around his chest. "I love you Jared. Thank you." Liam was exhausted, and fell asleep quickly.

While Jared was waiting for Liam to fall into a deep sleep, he thought about the crisis with Liam's inability to deal with the death and suffering he saw as a paramedic. It had become obvious to him the real root of the problem for Liam was the suppressed memories of his parents deaths. He blamed himself for their deaths, and in this context he was blaming himself for the deaths of some of the patients. When Jared was sure of Liam sleeping soundly, he gently moved away from him and got out of bed. He went to his smudging room and kneeled before the bench. After chanting prayers, lighting candles and the smudge bundle he cleansed himself with the sacred smoke. After cleaning himself he placed the bundle back into the bowl.

"Creator, guide my hands to do your work. Liam has a heart and spirit which needs to be mended for him to continue on his pathway in life. I sense good things from this man. He has a potential to achieve great things in his life and to help many, many people. He lives for his job as a paramedic and his real potential to make a difference."

"Creator, I have promised you, and I have kept my word that I would never use your gift for personal gain or reward. I am conflicted because I know I can help Liam, but I love him and I believe it would be for my benefit. I need your guidance Creator, what am I to do?" Jared continued to kneel and look into the flames of the candles in front of him.

"Creator, my heart hurts for Liam with a pain I have never experienced before. My head hurts thinking of him. My soul longs for him when we are separate. My loneliness and pain all disappears when I am with him. I cannot allow him to continue on this path to destruction." Jared reached out and turned his palms upward. "I offer my life and spirit to you Creator in exchange for Liam's broken heart and spirt being healed. I do this freely, I do this for love, and I do this to heal that man." Jared had tears slowly leaking from his water filled eyes, leaving a wet trail down his cheeks before they dropped off and onto the floor.