Richard Addik

This is a reflection from a frustrated cock loving man living a heterosexual lifestyle.

Ok so that's not my name but nevertheless I am a dick addict. I love to see a prick with hanging balls. I love to see the head of a circumcised or uncovered cock. If dicks don't fascinate and enthral you maybe it's best not to read on. If on the other hand if, like me, you just love a hard cock then read on and hopefully enjoy; I might be describing just how you feel and if that's the case I would love to hear your comments.

I'm not gay, but wouldn't have a problem if I was; it just so happens that I'm not. Bi sexual? Yes I am; it's got to be admitted; even though I love women and all they stand for I have to admit that I am also happy to be making love to a man. In an ideal world all women would have dicks as well as pussies. In fact I think I am happier in bed with a man than with a woman. It comes, however, with a pre condition.

Any man I make love to has to be a cross dresser, a transvestite or a transsexual. I just can't raise a hard on for a male dressed as a male. I spend hours accessing porn sites with pictures and videos of cocks; pictures of spunk covered photographs, pictures of sperm covered shoes, pictures of cum on panties and videos of cocks sensually pushing backwards and forwards inside a fleshlite before finally dumping their load of beautiful sperm; but these are all disembodied cocks. Pull back to the full picture of the man in the action and I lose all interest.

Of course I also love to see videos and pictures of TV's and transsexuals and here I am happy to see the entire picture, even if the face is obviously a man's face; just as long as there is a wig in place and maybe a touch of makeup. Actually I think if the face is obviously male it's an extra turn on for me. I love the faces of a heavily made up transvestites and I love a deep long French kiss with a man who is pretending to be a woman.

As a youngster I didn't get a lot of sex; what sex I did get was heterosexual but deep down inside I had this unfulfilled desire to suck cock and to ingest spunk. This may have been caused by exposure to a lot of porn or it may have been caused by an early episode with a male friend of mine at school or maybe I was just a dick lover at heart. With the friend at school I got so close to sucking his cock but it just ended in mutual masturbation. Dave; if you're out there, I want you to know that not sucking your dick and drinking your cum was the biggest mistake I ever made; it could have set me on the road I needed to travel a lot earlier.

Now I have this insatiable desire for cock and for spunk. I am pursuing this desire but it's difficult. TV's often don't want to climax because they need the ability to stay hard for all their clients. Transsexuals are often unable to produce a lot of spunk and old queens are often coming so often that they don't have a lot of spunk to give; so I have to settle for what little I can get. The occasional escape from home allows me to indulge my fantasies.

I badly want cock; I want it in my mouth and I want it up my ass. I want to drink a gallon of spunk and then to be covered in the dam stuff. I can't help this desire it's just part of who I am. Perhaps in truth it would have been a lot easier if I had just been gay in the conventional sense.

I just wish that I could have met a cross dresser in the past; I wish I could have spent endless days In Thailand screwing pretty Lady Boys; I wish I could have had my fair share of cock and spunk. Perhaps the need in me is still great because I was left wanting!

If you are in a position now where you are getting lots of cock and spunk then enjoy it to the utmost and think of poor sops like me who can only dream! If you're a transvestite or a cross dresser save some spunk for me!