Life after the Lottery Ch. 55

"Dawn says it can be intense."

"It is."

"Are you okay?"

"Oh, yes."

I slid my fingers out of her pussy and rubbed her juices on her nipple. I slow built up the energy flowing from my fingertips.

"James, are you doing it again?"

I kept rubbing and adding more energy until I felt the tingle.

"Emmmm, that feels amazing."

I kept rubbing around her hard nipple as I watched her areola fill with blood. Linda had closed her eyes and was just feeling what I was doing.

"Ohhhh... stop."

I removed my fingers from her nipple.

"James, I am enjoying your touch. But, I want to ask you something?"

"Okay."

"Is that how you drive me to incredible orgasms when you are fucking me?"

"No."

"Never?"

"A few times when we started because you were holding back."

"Really?"

"It just opens up your energy to mine."

"What do you mean?"

"When I touch a woman, it only takes me a few seconds to determine if she can feel me. If she can, but is resisting, I can open up her flow of energy from me."

"How?"

"I don't know."

"Is that what you did to me?"

"Sometimes. Are you ready? I'm still going to make love to you."

"Promises, promises," Linda said smiling. We laughed. I rolled next to her and rubbed her breasts. She took her hand and rubbed my chest for a while. We were quiet for some time.

"James?" She was still rubbing my chest.

"Yes?"

"It has been an incredible night so far. I have had a very good time."

"Good."

"When you and Dawn are together, and you drive her to those incredible orgasms, does it take a lot of your energy?"

"Not what you have seen."

"Does it make you tired?"

"With Dawn, no. It doesn't take much from either of us to have incredible orgasms. Once or twice we have experimented, and we wore ourselves out."

"What were you doing?"

"A few times we have seen how long she can stay at the peak of her orgasm."

"Really. Does she do that, or do you do that to her?"

"A little of both."

"What happens?"

"It ends in some pretty crazy orgasms for both of us."

"Emmm, that sounds fabulous."

Linda slowly slid her hand down until she had it wrapped around my cock.

"Tell me about what you can do to me?" Linda asked.

"Dawn and I both have discovered that we can help you along when you are ready for it."

"What do you mean when I am ready for it?"

"When you have time."

"What do you mean?"

"Linda, I have pushed you to several huge orgasms, you know that. You get tired after it and want to sleep. So, if you are just stopping by, I don't do it."

Linda stroked my cock quietly for a few minutes.

"I am here the rest of tonight and tomorrow," she said. "You told me you were going to drive me to more pleasure than I have ever experienced. What did you have in mind?" Linda asked.

"You have already had quite a night."

"I have...but...I want to scream with pleasure."

"Again?"

"Yes! Again!"

"I am sure I can make that happen, Linda."

Linda released my cock and sat up next to me and looked at me.

"James...I want you to do it. Will you push your energy into me until I have an incredible orgasm and scream as loud as I can?"

"Do you think you are ready for that? Do you think you understand more about it now?"

"You would have to tell me. Am I capable of feeling all you can do to me? You have done it before you said."

"Honey, I have done it to you before, but nothing like it can be. I just helped you feel your own sensations and amplified them for you."

"And it was great. But, can you push me more? Can you drive me to the ultimate orgasm; something incredible I have never experienced?"

"I'm sure I can if you want that to happen."

"Will you? Tonight? Right now?"

"We can, but let me tell you something."

"Anything?"

"Linda, I have done this to several women. They experienced the pentacle of orgasms a woman can have or at least as much as I can give them. But, once it was over with I regretted it."

"Why would you regret giving that to a woman?"

"You have to understand something. If everything works as it should, you may have an orgasm that you may never experience again. The women I do this with did. Afterward, I told them I was sorry for doing it because they would never experience that level of arousal and pleasure again."

"But, James...you can always do it to me again."

"True, but I worry that a woman may never experience the pleasure from a regular orgasm again."

"What does Dawn say about it when she has those incredible orgasms?"

"She says it makes all of her other orgasms more intense, but only because she understands where her body can go and lets herself go there."

"Can I learn to do that?"

"I don't know. Dawn and I have talked about it. She is hoping Amy and Samantha can learn that."

"How many times have you done that to them?"

"Once."

"Are they okay?"

"Yes, but Linda, you are not like them. You are not in touch with your body and feelings like they are learning to be."

"James, you make me feel incredible when we are together. Since the first time you made love to me my orgasms have grown more and more intense, and as you and Dawn say, more emotional. I think it will keep growing...and...you have nothing to worry about."

"You are right; you are experiencing that."

"If you wanted to try and do that to me, do you think I am capable of responding that way?"

"You mean a mind-blowing orgasm?"

"Yes! Like Dawn has when you do that slow thing."

"Linda, I need to explain something to you. I can push some women to incredible physical and emotional orgasms like we are talking about. But, you need to know that what happens to Dawn when are doing the slow thing as you call it is completely different. You could not expect that to happen to you."

"Why not?"

"What have you felt when I have pushed you to an orgasm?"

"Wonderful things. My body is so full of every sensation that it just takes over and the feeling is incredible."

"What else?"

"The muscle contractions that rip through my body make me melt and feel so wonderful. It is just a huge, incredible orgasm, that rips through my body."

"Anything else?"

"I feel so excited and happy after it is over," Linda said.

I looked at Linda for a minute.

"What are you not telling me, James?"

"You have seen Dawn, and I, have those incredible orgasms when we are holding each other. Tell me what you saw happen to us?"

"You two sit so still and hold each other so closely. Sometimes I hear you whispering softly to her, but not often. You two look like you are lost in your love. Then at some point, I see Dawn tremble, then scream. After that, she seems to melt into your arms. What happens to you?"

"The same thing. We have an orgasm in unison. Once it is over, we have to hold each other for a while?"

"Why?"

"It is almost impossible for several reasons for us to move."

"Like what?'

"Linda, you are asking things that we have never told other people."

"I'm sorry. I'll stop."

"No...that's okay. Something you need to know is that when that happens to Dawn and me, it is a very complicated process of many things coming together at once. A few things are the physical sensations, relaxation, our breathing, our heart rates, and most of all our feelings of love for each other at that moment. It is not something that happens from physical stimulation; that is probably the smallest part of it. We can do that because we are connected spiritually; you and I are not."

"I have been curious about that because you two never move. Does it happen because you push so much of your energy into her?"

I sighed deeply.

"I don't think I can explain it to you yet. It involves years of practice. It is not something we knew we could do. We have developed it to the point it is now. What is between us is a very spiritual thing, it always has been. You need to understand something. You have felt the sexual energy and arousal I can push into you, and that Dawn can. The girls probably do it to you, but they haven't understood what they were doing until recently. When Dawn and I do that to you, we are finding your sexual energy and your arousal energy. It is sort of like finding and tuning into a frequency; it is not the same with all people. When someone gets aroused, at the surface of their feelings is the lust and desires of what they want to experience. That is what we use to find and sort of feedback to them on our level."

"You feel all that?"

"Yes, from some people, remember. There are other feelings we can find and tune into."

"Like what?"

"With you, we can feel your love energy, and we tune into that and give you that from us because you need it. When we can do that, it enhances the sexual feelings and arousal because the feelings of sex are very strong. Most people get off from just driving their lust and sexual satisfaction to a point they have an orgasm. Think of it as two people masturbating each other. There is no love in that for most people, just the act of having an orgasm. With us, our orgasm is all about the sum of the feelings between us and a deep connection we have."

"How do you know all of this?"

"When you can feel other people's emotions and sensations, you learn what they are about. My training helps a lot. You know I have had sex with many of our friends. And...probably half of the women I just fuck. No love, no emotions, just sex. But, I love them and enjoy being with them."

"Did you just fuck me the first time?"

"No, I didn't. Linda, I would have never had sex with you in the state you were in at the time if I had felt that I couldn't connect with you. The first time, I wanted you to realize you could feel great with just some simple, loving sex, and you did. That was all you needed at that time."

"It was. You are right, if I had felt like you were just fucking me, I would have never come back. But, even I knew there was much more to it than sex. Somehow, I knew you really wanted to help me. It felt like something from a lover even then. James, I trusted you then, and I trust you now more than ever. But, you haven't told me why what you and Dawn do is different than what you have done to me."

"You said you wonder about the two of us not moving?"

"Yes."

"If we are not moving, how do you think we achieve those orgasms?"

"I don't now. That is what I want you to explain to me, please."

"I know it is hard for you, and the other few people we have told, to understand that our love exists on a different plane and probably time than anyone else we have ever met. It is just some kind of connection we have had since we met."

"I still don't understand what you mean by that, James."

"Let me think a minute, Linda."

There was no way I could explain this to another human being that had never experienced it. I had to think.

"Linda, do you love me?"

"You know I do, but...not like Dawn or your girls."

"Well, I think you have learned to share your love, and I believe you love me more than you think. But that is okay. When we have sex, do you feel my love for you?"

"I know you love me, James."

"Do you feel it, not just know it?"

Linda looked at me for a minute.

"I do. Do you feel my love for you?"

"Yes."

"Is that what you and Dawn feel?"

"Yes, and no."

"I'm pushing, I'm sorry."

"That's okay...I just have to think."

"James, are you telling me that your love for Dawn and hers for you extend beyond what other people know as emotional love? Is it energy, as you call it, that only you two feel?"

"Yes! Perfect! Let me think!"

I sat for a minute.

"Damnit!" I yelled. "I can't think of anything you can relate it to! I am already having trouble explaining it to Amy and Sam now that they have felt it."

"Maybe there is no way you can make me understand." Linda acknowledged.

"Linda, when we are together closely as we were earlier, tell me what you feel outside of the arousal?"

"James, I am starting to feel sort of a oneness with you, it is hard to explain. It is like I just feel your emotions too. I am just very comfortable with how you feel to me. It is different than anything I have experienced, even from Dawn."

"Good! What else!"

"I am starting to know the difference in the sexual feelings between us and our emotions."

"Really! Tell me what that feels like!"

Linda looked at me for a minute.

"Maybe I shouldn't, James."

"Please, I need to know what you feel."

"I...it...it may not be something that should be there between us...it may be something that has gone too far, James."

"Please! I need to know what level of emotions and feelings you are understanding?"

"James...what I feel tells me that you love me more than you should."

"Great!"

"No, it's not, James. I have been worried about this."

"No, you don't understand. I love you very much, but you do not have to worry because the deep love I feel for you has no comparison for the love I feel for Dawn! Do you remember Dawn telling you that we had love to share?"

"Yes."

"It really is sharing on multiple levels. I can love you more than anyone probably other than your parents. I know from you that you had a deep love for your mother and father and even your grandparents. This is great!"

"James, I am not sure about this. It has probably gone too far between us."

"No! I have been working and working with you so that you would feel that level of love again, and now you can! Wonderful! Oh wow, I need to try and explain something to you."

"James, slow down."

"Am going try and explain something to you using what you and I feel. The first time I touched you, I knew there was more to you. Even though you were in a somewhat emotionally withdrawn state, I knew. The first time I let myself make love to you, I knew there was enough to help you deep inside. Since we talk and other things, I know you trust me very much. That gives me the freedom to work with you because that trust has to be there because of the things you feel. You accepted what was happening between us and just let it grow. As things have progressed, yes, I have pushed my energies into you, but only at a level, you can handle. Any more would have overwhelmed you emotionally, and you would not have understood why.

While we were traveling, I got to spend the time alone with you that I needed. I know you realized it since we have been back that things have changed. While we were traveling, I had been giving you more and more. That was why the sex between us was so great. But, while I have been giving you more and more, I have been taking from you the emotions that have grown in you. This is what I have to try and explain. We have told you that we can give emotions and mentioned that we can pull energy from someone. Right now, you are very open to all that I can give you, but I have to measure it, so you are not overcome by it. But, from what you're telling me, you are feeling it as I give you more. As you have grown with this, I have been able to draw your energies from you now."

"Like what?" What do you take?"

"I don't really take anything. I just let your energy run into me. If I want, I can actually pull your energy from you. I can do this on a level you could actually feel it leaving you."

"Can that be bad for me?"

"Not with Dawn and me, but there are times it can be, but I will explain that another time. What I have been doing is taking the feelings of love you have for me and just drawing enough into me that you don't realize it. Now, you have to listen to me. I can draw your love for me into me and feel it very deeply. It is one of your energies I use to measure what we mean to each other. If it is on a very meaningful level and free from doubt, it is a very wonderful feeling for me. By that measure, I know what to give you back and how much."

"Your love?"

"My love and dozens of other types of feelings. Since before we left on our trip that is what I have been doing when we were together. That is why you have felt more at peace and enjoyed everything more. It is also why I decided to find all of you erogenous places tonight because I can do so much with them now."

"Since I seem to know how much you love me, do you know how much I love you?" l asked Linda.

"I do. I understand."

Linda sat and looked at me concerned for several minutes.

"Linda, what's wrong?" I asked.

"James, you and Dawn have forgotten something."

"What?"

"You know how much I love you. And I know how much you love me. You said that the love you have for me is strong, but nothing like you love Dawn. You have forgotten, or don't understand, that I am not capable of sharing love on that level. James, I love you very much. What am I supposed to do with these feelings since I can't have you?" Linda ask me as I watched her eyes well up. "I am not like you two."

"Oh, my god. Linda, I am so sorry. I got caught up in your progress and didn't consider that. That explains something."

"What does that explain?" Linda wanted to know.

"When Dawn needed to talk to you on the plane, she was feeling that. Now, I understand something else."

"What?"

"I can't tell you right now. I'm so sorry. Linda, is the love you have for me getting in the way of you and Rachel? Is that what is holding you back from her?"

"Honestly, yes."

"This is my fault."

"No, it's not. I just fell in love with you, James."

"I forget things like this. Until Amy and Samantha came into our lives, I only had Dawn to share love with. The two of them are still working through this shared loved too. You remember the time we told you that we had enough love to share with you?"

"Yes."

"I guess we forgot that you had to be capable of sharing your love also. We just take it for granted."

"James, I need to know why you love me?"

"Linda, I love you for several reasons. For some reason, I have a strong attachment to you. From the first time I met you I have felt that way."

"What do you mean?"

"I am not sure. It was like when I met Amy the first time, then her sister. On a lower level, it is like when Dawn and I met the first time. There was no doubt between us that we were meant for each other. The connection I have with Dawn is all there is in my life. I like to look at other beautiful women, but I have never had any remote desire to do something like cheat on Dawn. It has been that way for 11 years."

"But, you have sex with other women."

"It's not cheating for either of us. It is just something we decided we could do and have some fun. Do you believe that things happen for a reason, Linda?"

"Sometimes."

"The night that Amy and Dawn first made love to each other, it felt so right. Of, course, it was highly erotic and exciting as I watched, but it didn't feel wrong. Then Amy's roommate kicked her out, and Dawn told her she could live with us until she got back on her feet. When she moved in, Dawn and I knew our lives were going to change. Then when she asked if her sister could spend Christmas with us, we said okay. But, five minutes after I had met Samantha I knew she was different and was meant to be part of her sister's life and ours."

"How did you know that?"

"It was a feeling. A feeling like we were in tune with them on some level."

"But they have ended up being like you two in some ways. What about me?" Linda asked.

"When we were in the bikini store that day, I was watching the three of them run around half-naked while they tried on bikinis. I was sitting and watching them model as they kept changing clothes. I had a sudden feeling I needed to stand and look toward the door of the store when I heard it open. I did, and you walked in. If you remember, I walked to you."

"I remember. Are you saying you knew I was coming in?"

"I guess. Once I was close to you for a few minutes, I knew that you needed my help. That couldn't have happened unless some type of connection formed between us that quickly."