Life after the Lottery Ch. 55

"Let it flow," I whispered. Linda moaned softly again.

I let go then I felt us merge together. It was incredible. We both became more and more aroused, but I felt all the love from her I had been feeling along with the building of our orgasm. I got lost in her.

"Oh...god...I love you," came from Linda softly.

I knew I didn't need to tell her anything else. Between the two of us, our energy grew more and more. I could feel Linda's muscles beginning to twitch so slightly as I held her. I also felt the warmth under my hand on her neck.

"Ohhhhhh..." came out of Linda. Her pussy muscles were beginning to squeeze my cock hard. It was time.

"Feel it, feel it all through your body and mind," I whispered.

"Emmmmm!"

Linda began to tremble as her orgasm began. I waited until it peaked and focused to control her. I used all of the energy I had to hold her there a top of her orgasm, in pure ecstasy. Linda was trembling in my arms as I held her longer and longer.

"Ahhhhhh! Ahhhh! Ohh, my, god, James!!

I held her and held her. I could feel the sensations of her orgasm running through her body. It was taking everything I had to keep her there because I was completely aroused also. I had no idea how long I held her at this place.

"Ahhhhhhhh!!" I heard Linda scream.

The feeling from her was so dramatic and strong that I started coming inside her.

"Yes!!"

"Oh, god!!" I screamed as I started jerking into her as I pumped more and more cum into her.

I was overtaken with what was happening. I could feel my cock continuing to spasm and shoot cum into her. Suddenly, I felt very light headed. It caused me to lose my hold on her orgasm.

"Ahhhhhhh!!" Linda screamed and started jerking hard in my arms.

I was trying to hold on to her as she shook and jerked. I could feel her orgasm taking over her body and mine.

"Ahhhhh!!" I heard Linda scream again and another huge orgasm shot through her.

I felt Linda sit up and drive her pussy down onto my cock as she screamed again. I felt my cock begin pumping cum into her again as a huge orgasm shot through me again. I was losing control.

"James!!"

I managed to get my eyes open. Linda was looking into my eyes. I was having trouble focusing on her.

"I...love...you..." came from Linda. I saw her eyes roll back and felt her go limp.

*****

"Linda! Linda!" I heard someplace off in the distances.

"Lind..."

*****

"Amy! Go to my closet. In the back, you will see a red trauma bag, get it! Hurry..."

I heard Dawn someplace far away...then nothing.

*****

"Dawn, what about James?" I heard Sam say.

"He is okay; I have to work on Linda. Amy put the oxygen on her so..."

*****

My eyes finally opened. The room was bright from the morning sun. Then I felt Sam holding me and giving me her energy. I managed to get my head up and look. I saw Linda lying back on the bed with an oxygen mask on her face.

"What..." was all I got out before my head fell back.

*****

I felt myself dreaming, wild thoughts of Linda and me. I could see myself trying to pull her out of the water. Then I woke up. I knew someone was lying in bed with me. I turned to look, and Linda was lying next to me. I looked around the room; the shades were drawn, and it was dim in the room. It took me a few minutes to get my senses. I knew it was late in the day.

"Fuck," I said to myself.

I turned and placed my hand on Linda's shoulder. I could feel all of our love still inside her, but she was deep in sleep. I tried to sit up in bed but wasn't having a lot of success. I lay back down and turned to Linda and held her. My mind was slowly recalling what had happened.

"My, god..." I whispered as it came back to me.

I closed my eyes as I held her and tried to remember everything that had happened. While I recalled it, I suddenly remembered the dream. Linda was in the water, and I was screaming and trying to pull her out. I could feel the freezing cold. It was winter. Then I opened my eyes to look at Linda. I knew she was awake. She was looking at me.

"Hey," I got out. She kept looking at me. "Are you okay?"

"Yes. James, what happened?"

"I think we both passed out."

"The last thing I remember is a massive orgasm ripping through my body...and my brain. Then I remember Dawn and Amy standing over me. Then waking up just now."

"I guess we both had a massive orgasm and passed out," I said.

"I'm tired," Linda said. She moved a hand to the side of my face and touched me. "James, I know that you do love me. What do we do?"

"Linda, I am not sure what happened last night. I did feel your love for me, and I made sure you felt mine for you. But, remember, it is different, it has to be."

"There is something I feel that I don't understand?"

"What are you feeling?" I asked.

"James, last night, I experienced some strange emotions and feelings."

"Linda, I didn't mean to push you so hard, but something happened that I don't understand."

"I know you love me and have feelings for me. But, when I felt your love, it felt so familiar and right. The sensation was so strong; I knew you loved me because it filled me. But, it felt right, not like I was feeling something new from you. I'm not sure what it is." Linda said.

"Linda, I don't know what to say. I was amazed that I could connect with you so deeply. It overtook me and everything else just happened. I hope I haven't caused you any problems."

"It was all incredible. The love I felt from you felt so deep, it overcame me, and I just let it flow through me. It was so strong; I knew that it was right and it took over my body. It felt familiar, but not like what I have been feeling with from you. It felt like you found something that had always been in me, but I don't know where it came from." Linda said.

"When Dawn and I first began to connect like that, we both felt something like that."

"Are you telling me you felt me like you feel Dawn?"

"It many ways, yes."

"But, how?"

"I don't know. It felt so natural to me," I said.

"Me too," Linda told me. "James, you can't love me like that."

"Linda, we have to talk about this."

"I know."

"You have much more than a feeling of just love for me. I am afraid I have created a problem between us." I told her.

"You are afraid that I love you like Dawn does and I can't detach from it."

"Yes."

"James, I also know that you love me very deeply. Like a husband and wife love each other," Linda said.

"I know. I didn't mean for this to happen."

"You said my love felt familiar. I felt something like a marital love, but it was from someplace I don't understand. I also felt like there was something else in that love, both joy, and sadness." Linda said looking into my eyes.

"Sadness because we can't be together like that?" I asked.

"No." Linda pushed herself up, so she was sitting in the bed, I did too.

Linda reached over and took my hand and held it tight. I immediately felt her love.

"I can feel it," she said. "I can feel the love I felt last night."

Linda sat there for a minute.

"James, I know I can't have you all to myself. I know this because I know how much you love Dawn now. But, I also know you have some kind of deep love for me beyond just the relationship we have. You told me I am part of your family now. I can accept that, and I will love you like my family. But, there will also be a different place in my heart for you. I am going to need you and Dawn to teach me how to share that love."

"We will. Linda, there is something between us we can't explain. I have to tell you that Dawn will feel it if she hasn't already. The love I have for you is different than the love I have for Amy and Samantha. I'm like you; I can't explain it. The two of us are going to have to work with Dawn so we can both deal with this."

"Can we make this work?" Linda asked.

"I'm sure we can. Linda, has this affected your feelings for Rachel?"

Linda looked at me and smiled.

"James, right now, I love her even more. I now understand that I have a lot of love to give. It is different now; my feelings for love are on top of all my emotions right now. They are out in the open, no longer buried deep inside me. You did something to me that is wonderful."

"That is your first step, knowing you have love to give."

Linda leaned to me and wrapped her arms around me for a minute. She released me and kissed me.

"Do you feel like you can shower with me?" I asked.

"Actually, I am feeling much better."

"Then come with me." I stood and took her hand, and we went to the shower.

We both were perking up and just enjoying washing each other's body slowly. I had washed Linda, and she was now soaping up my chest as the water ran over us. Then she suddenly froze.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"I just remembered a dream I had. It was about the two of us. We were outside, and it was freezing. I can see you pulling on my arm as I screamed. You were trying to pull me out of some water. I was freezing."

"Do you remember anything else?"

"Just that. Weird."

Linda went back to washing my body. Once we were rinsed off, we dried each other off. I grabbed one of my robes for her, and I slipped one on. I looked at the clock, and it was 1:30.

"Damn, it is 1:30. We slept all morning," I told Linda.

We headed down the stairs to the den.

"Well, good afternoon," Rachel said when she saw us.

"Sorry about that," Linda said.

"Do you two want some coffee?" Sam asked from the kitchen.

We walked to the bar and got some coffee from Sam. Rachel walked up naked and hugged Linda. I looked around the den and saw Amy sitting in one of the loveseats looking at me. I didn't see Dawn.

"Where is Dawn?" I asked. Sam looked up at me.

"She is outside someplace," Sam said.

Linda got up and walked back to the sofa and sat with Rachel.

"James, you need to go find Dawn," Sam said.

I took my coffee and walked out the back door. I didn't see Dawn anywhere around the pool. I walked to the edge of the patio and looked. I saw her sitting in the gazebo in a robe. I walked out to her.

"Honey, are you okay?" I said as I went to sit next to her.

Dawn turned and looked at me. I knew there was a problem; she had been crying.

"James, have I lost you?"

"What do you mean?"

"Have I lost you to Linda?"

"Of, course, not! Why would you think that?"

"I laid in bed last night while Sam was asleep and I could feel everything you felt, and she felt. I know what happened between you two."

"You could feel that?"

"Yes. I need you to tell me the truth. Have I lost you to her?"

"No!"

"Then what is going on between you two? When you passed out early this morning, Sam woke up suddenly. The two of us came to check on you. Linda was not in good shape. Her blood pressure was low, and her heart rate was erratic. But, while I was touching her...I felt the kind of love coming from her for you that only I have. Even while she was unconscious, I could feel your love still inside her. James, I don't feel it that strong from Amy and Samantha after you have been with one of them." Dawn said.

"Honey, something happened last night that I don't understand. We had been having sex all night; then she asked me to push her to a huge orgasm."

"You two must have talked a lot."

"I told her things about us and me that I have never told anyone but you. Linda and I were talking about keeping things in perspective when she told me that she loved me and that she had doubts about why I loved her. I felt her, and she was very confused. You will have to watch and listen to it. When I had her so that I could feel her and try and push her to a huge orgasm, something happened."

"What?"

"I wanted her to know I loved her. Before I worked with her on having an orgasm, I held her and let her know I loved her. But, I made sure it was just love and no deep feeling of love like I have for you. I made sure of that. As she felt it, it grew stronger and stronger in her. Dawn, there is something different about her. Don't get mad at me, but I could connect with her almost as deeply as I can with you. I don't know what happened."

"But, you didn't stop."

"I couldn't. Honey, I could obviously feel her love for me, but, I started feeling her love for me flow into me, like she was pushing it into me."

"She can't do that."

"I know! But it happened. You know how it is when the two of us are holding each other and just trading our feelings for each other. It doesn't stop until we both withdraw. It was like that. I got caught up in going through her feelings and sorting them out. I am not sure I can explain exactly what I felt."

"Try."

"It is going to sound strange," I told Dawn.

"I'm waiting."

"You know when we first started and discovered how we could merge and feel each other. Once, you said it just felt like it was supposed to happen. We talked about it and said we were soul mates and had always been and that are love was meant for each other, and it just felt familiar."

"It does. It is like on some level we had known each other before we met. Like we were supposed to be together. You can't tell me that is what you felt from Linda," Dawn said.

"Remember at first, it all felt so new to us. Like we were exploring each other for the first time. It was so pure and right. Now, it is still that way; we feel each other like new all the time."

"Is that what you felt from Linda?"

"Not exactly. I'm still trying to figure out what I felt. If I tell you this, I will need you to help me understand it, okay?"

"Of, course."

I sat for a minute as I thought about the feelings Linda and I shared.

"If I told you the love we felt between each other felt like it was old, and had always been there, what does that mean?" I asked.

Dawn sat up and looked at me.

"Tell me more."

"When Linda and I were talking about it in bed, we both said it felt natural like it had always been there. Honey, she did feel so familiar. I'll just say what I felt. I felt like I have known her before. Does that make sense?"

Dawn sat looking at me.

"Honey, what is it?" I asked.

"Did you feel like you to had been together before?" Dawn asked.

"Maybe. Like we had been lovers at some other time. I know it sounds strange, but that is the best I can make of it."

"It's not possible," Dawn said and got up and headed to the house.

"Dawn?"

I got up and followed her. I grabbed her shoulder and stopped her and turned her to me. I wrapped my arms around her and held her for a minute.

"James, please don't hold me right now."

"Why?"

"Because I can feel her."

I followed Dawn into the house.

"Is everything okay?" Sam asked as we walked by. Dawn kept walking to the den.

"Linda, I need you to come with me, you to James," Dawn said.

Linda looked at me then got up. The two of us followed Dawn down the hall to the last bedroom. We all sat on the bed.

"Linda, James has been telling me about what happened last night. I need to ask you something."

"Dawn, I'm sorry. I didn't know I felt that way about James," Linda said.

"I'm not concerned about that. I need you to tell me some things."

"Anything," Linda said.

"How much do you remember about how your love felt for James while you two were connected."

"It was very intense."

"I need to know how his love felt to you, emotionally," Dawn said.

"The best I can describe it is that it felt natural like we were supposed to feel each other deeply."

"Anything else?"

"Dawn, I don't think I should tell you. I don't want you to make anything of it," Linda said.

"Linda, I have to know exactly how it felt running through your mind and body," Dawn said.

"I told James that it felt like it was supposed to be that way. Sort of like an old familiar feeling or something like that," Linda said. "Dawn, I need to tell you that I have a deep and unusual feeling of love for James. I don't understand it, and I know he is yours. But he said you two could teach me how to share it. I am not trying to take him away from you because I love you too much."

"We will have to teach you how to share it, Linda," Dawn said.

"Dawn, I'm sorry. I don't know what happened or what is going on," Linda said. "Please forgive me and don't shut me out because of this."

"Linda, I would never do that. The fact is that you and James share some kind of old love."

"What does that mean?" Linda asked.

"I'm not sure."

Dawn reached out and took my hand and took Linda's hand. I watched as she closed her eyes. We all sat quietly for a long time. I could feel Dawn exploring my feelings deeply. Dawn finally released our hands and looked at us.

"What were you doing?" Linda asked Dawn.

"Feeling the love you two have for each other."

"You can do that!" Linda exclaimed.

"Yes, I can. You two do share something; I'm not sure what."

"We shared something last night. I feel very different Dawn. I told James that I now feel like my love fills me and it is open more. I actually feel more love for Rachel right now."

"That can happen. If you are holding back, even on an unconscious level, and experience like this can bring it out. That is a good thing." Dawn told Linda.

"Linda, tell Dawn about the dream you had," I said.

"What dream?" Dawn asked.

"I remember having a dream about James and me. It was very strange. I could feel the cold and could see him pulling on my arm, trying to pull me from some freezing water. I have no idea what that was all about," Linda said.

"Linda, James and I are going to have to work with you like we are working with Sam and Amy. We are having to teach them that they can have a deep love for more than one person. With you, it is going to be harder, but I think you can learn to understand it and deal with it. Think about how much you love Rachel...and James. If you can separate the two, it is the first step. You have to understand that you can have deep romantic feelings for more than one person."

"I am going to need your help. Dawn is this going to be a problem between us?" Linda asked.

"I don't think so. There are things you and I will need to talk about in private, though," Dawn said.

"Okay. Dawn, do you have any idea what happened?" Linda asked.

"Not yet. I need to talk to James. Go and get Amy and Sam to make some lunch, please."

Linda leaned over and kissed Dawn, then got off the bed and left the room.

"Any ideas?" I asked.

"Not yet."

"I need to tell you one more thing," I said.

"What else?"

"I had the same dream she did. I was trying to pull her out of a freezing river."

"What?!"

"I just thought you should know in case it meant something."

"No! James, were you touching her when you had that dream?"

"No, I remembered it while I was trying to wake up. She told me about it in the shower."

"Nonono!"

"What, honey?"

"Oh, my god! This can't be real!" Dawn cried out.

"You are scaring me, Dawn."

"It can't be possible," Dawn said.

"What!"

"There is an ancient belief among all Native People that if a man and woman that love each other and are bonded together...die together in a tragedy that cuts their lives short, their souls will find each other again, so they have a chance to finish their lives together."

"Dawn...seriously?"

"This is what I was taught by my great-grandparents. James, you know I believe in all the traditions and stories I have been taught."

"I know, but...that is stretching things."

"Do you remember any more of the dream?" Dawn asked.

"I was outside, and it was in the middle of winter. I remember holding onto Linda's hands tightly because she was slipping away from me into a river. That is all I remember."

"Did you get her out of the water?"

"I don't know; that's all I remember, honey."

"How long ago do it seem, how were you dressed, where were you?"