Pisces

The pen rolled, pulled between Victoria's lips when she pushed her bottom lip forward. It spun again when she drew her lip back. She breathed through her nose, blinked and twirled the pen forward, idly enjoying the repetitive action while her eyes scanned the monitor in front of her. Sharp red strands from her messy bob haircut swayed lightly while she nodded back and forth.

She hummed softly, creating a song using pieces of music cobbled together by her subconscious mind in an endless melody that helped to fill the emptiness of the often quiet store. The pen rolled. Stopped. Rolled. Rolled rolled rolled stopped.

A shadow passed on the wall behind her, drawing her attention to the mirror resting at an angle to the side of the register on her left. Her heart skipped a beat. She opened her mouth to drop the pen, catching it in one fluid movement with her left hand.

Victoria winced at herself in the mirror. Blue ink smeared the very corner of her lips. She sighed and touched the ink before running a knuckle along the freckles covering her cheeks and the bridge of her nose. Her fingernail clicked against the mirror when she touched it to gently turn it away from her until a black door was reflected - the entrance to the back room where the owner of the little plant nursery, Elias, was waiting for- waiting for-

She wasn't sure exactly what Elias did.

There was a specific class of customers who only spoke with Elias. After two years of working at the small store, she found she could pick them out as soon as they walked in and it became a little game for her to while away the hours in between caring for the plants. She couldn't pinpoint exactly what it was but she'd never made a single mistake over the last month. It wasn't the way they held themselves; some were stiff-backed and assured while others slouched and slinked. Still others assumed a casual countenance, wandering the store as if interested in the labeled herbs sitting within the hydroponic containers.

They all eventually made their way over to her in order to ask for variants of the same thing: 'I need to make a bulk order' or 'I have a large amount of special items I need to purchase' and any other request that fit the theme. Those customers were always sent to the back room and, if they ever returned, she was to allow them back without question.

Despite being return customers, they never gave their names and Elias politely avoided the subject when she'd asked after a few of the more outlandish ones. In return, she'd named them herself.

Ms. Crow Hat was her favorite. She wore a black bonnet edged with lace and silk roses but the crowning achievement was a large crow's head attached directly to the center of the brim. Victoria prayed it was a well made toy but it seemed real enough that she worried it was taxidermy work. The woman was middle-aged and always wore dresses in varying shades of dark. Even though she never purchased anything in the front of the store, she would make a full inspection and point out any issues she noticed. Yet she also praised Victoria if everything was in order. And sometimes she would tilt her head just so as if giving the crow a view of something interesting.

Other regulars included Ms. Serene - sometimes also referred to as Mrs. Must Be On Some Amazing Shit due to how incredibly laid back she was. Slow and smiling as if everything was new and interesting but she couldn't be bothered to react to any of it. Then there was Mr. Twitchy, who couldn't stay still.

Beautiful Question Mark was an androgynous enigma - cordial but distant and ethereal. Tall and lean. Whenever Beautiful Question Mark passed through the store, Victoria was left in a dizzy haze for hours, distracted by every little thing around her.

Even more puzzling was Accountant Man. He wore his white shirt with the long sleeves rolled up and his tie was perpetually loosened with the tip crumpled against his barely bulging beer belly. The man appeared constantly tired with his thinning hair tousled while his thick glasses were canted slightly on his broad nose. Still, he always said he hoped she was having a nice day before heading to the back room with his jacket clenched in his left hand. When he'd arrived the first time, she'd been certain she was wrong about him being a 'back-room-er' until he stood before the desk to ask for help on some unnamed bulk goods.

For a while she was sure it was all drugs and even now she sometimes worried the police would storm the building. Marijuana was legal but perhaps it was something else. Something more exotic.

In the end, it didn't matter. She was hired to sell herbs and plants and never saw anything out of order. Elias never asked her to do anything but care for the plants and treat the customers with respect. She'd say the same to any police.

When nothing else moved in the back of the room, Victoria turned the mirror back. She sighed as she stared at herself. An array of skylights filled the store with natural sunlight. One of the windows sat just behind her. She leaned back slightly until her face was highlighted. The direct light caused her freckles to fade somewhat while her short hair cast jagged shadowy cliffs against the green apron she wore over her dress shirt.

"Disheveled," she told her reflection while toying with the ends of her hair.

She'd tried different styles over the years before settling on the modified bob cut. Shoulder-length hair left her feeling like she was wearing a perpetual shawl while longer hair was a time consuming hassle to care for. Her mother called it 'boyish', but she thought it felt modern. It was her one remaining middle finger to conformity after a brief fling with a goth lifestyle as a teenager.

And so, it was a surprise when she found herself becoming infatuated with her boss.

Elias was everything she wasn't; self assured, calm, well put together and incredibly decisive. In their always brief interactions, he never misspoke or misrepresented himself. She felt relaxed simply being in his presence. Relaxed but also captivated. He was beautiful, tall with broad shoulders and curly brown hair perfectly framing his face. Clean shaven with high cheekbones and an expression constantly on the knife's edge of tranquility and amused interest.

The only fault she could find is that he wore the same style of clothing every day - dark gray slacks with a matching vest over a crisp white dress shirt. In the winter, he added a currant colored scarf and an overcoat but the base look was always the same. And even then it only served to highlight his allure. A not-so-small part of her interest in him was the constant wondering of what he was like beyond the persona he'd adapted for work. However, the physical attraction and the feeling of being anchored in his presence were what really drove her to him.

"And yet, here I am," she said with a sigh.

A week or more could go by without seeing anything more than a sliver of his arm when the back door was opened. And whenever he did spend time with her, he always spoke courteously to her but distantly - a god relaying orders to his disciple.

The one friend she'd been able to hold onto after college was no help. Her idea to 'just talk to him, maybe bring him something he likes and ask to get lunch together to get to know him' was utterly laughable. Searching the Internet for tips was not much better as most of those boiled down to the same formula - be cheerful, get to know them, find common interests, develop rapport and slowly increase your relationship until you feel comfortable enough to ask them on a date.

"How can I 'build rapport' if I'm too terrified to even talk to him?" she groaned, laying her head on her folded arms atop at the counter.

With a loud, overly dramatic groan, Victoria pushed herself up. She brushed her fingers through the tips of her hair and pulled at her apron, settling it in place before starting a circuit around the store to inspect the plants.

Victoria hummed sotto voce when she stood before the cooler, nodding her head from side-to-side while eyeing every cut in turn before checking the humidity gauge.

Hydroponics was next - her favorite section. The system took an entire wall with rows of herbs nestled carefully into their own segment of long rectangular blocks. The faint buzz of the high-pressure sodium bulbs mingled with the hum of the multiple air pumps to create a soothing white noise that permeated the store to drown out the already faint sounds of traffic outside. She tested the pH levels while checking and tweaking the system's pressure and humidity until she was satisfied with their numbers.

A few plants needed a little extra water in the afternoon so she topped them off carefully before returning to her survey.

Pruning scissors were set beside a large pot containing the narrow, towering stems of wormwood where it lay in a shaft of natural light. She breathed in deeply while leaning in to carefully push stalks aside. As always, the scent from the plant reminded her of Thanksgiving dinners from her childhood, before her grandmother passed away.

"Arrrrr tea meeee sia aaaaab sin theee uuum," Victoria sang, off key as she snipped the tip from one of the stems with a well-practiced, precise touch. She enjoyed the way the syllables rolled off her tongue and often found herself repeating the little sing-song when alone with the plant. "Arrrrtemisssssiaaaaa aaaabsinthiuuuuum. Artemisia a-a-a-absinthium."

"Nice work today," a well-cultured voice said from behind Victoria.

"Oh, God Da- aaANG! Dangit!" Victoria corrected, just before cursing. She jumped, mid-snip and a large part of the plant fell away. "Aww, no. Poor little guy. I'm so, so- oh. Oh, um."

Elias stood behind her with his unworn coat folded over his left hand. She turned to see him standing passively behind her but his eyes followed the falling clipping before it was caught by nearby stalks.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to startle you," he told her. Victoria faced him but stared at his chest while scratching the palm of her hand with the curved edges of the scissors. When she realized what she was doing, she hid the scissors behind her back. "It's my fault. I thought, perhaps, you heard me coming."

"No, ah, sorry, I didn't," she said, chancing a quick peek up at his face. There was no anger in his expression and no amusement at her fumbling. Long strands of his hair hid the corner of his left eye. For a single, heart-racing moment she felt an insane urge to tenderly reach up to caress his cheek and fix the wayward curls. She could visualize it happening in her mind's eye and the thrill of it made her swallow and look back down to his chest. To the well-tailored shirt and tie and vest hiding his broad, no doubt muscular- "Ha ha. You- you got me good."

"Not on purpose, I assure you," he told her. "I'll take the cutting; I'm sure I can find a use for it somewhere."

Victoria stared at his hand when he reached out. She swallowed once more but then twitched when she realized he was waiting for her. Turning back to the plant, she reached for the piece she'd cut but realized too late that she used the hand that held the scissors. With an awkward giggle that made her groan internally, she lay the scissors down and grabbed for the cutting but, instead, hit the stems supporting it, causing it to fall again. Her stomach dropped as she imagined Elias standing behind her with his hand out. Waiting. Finally, she snatched the plant and turned.

He stood patiently with his wide hand held out steadily before him. She couldn't remember if she'd ever seen his hand up close before. His nails were perfectly manicured and even the lines criss-crossing his palm were smooth and unbroken.

"Oh, sorry!" Victoria said when she realized she was just standing in front of him.

She reached out to place the cutting in his hand. Where her fingertips brushed his bare skin, tingling jolts shot up to her elbow before melting into pools of warmth that flowed up to her shoulders and down, raising the hairs along its path until it reached the tips of her toes.

"Victoria?"

"Oh! I'm so- here, sorry!" she said, dropping the cutting and snatching her hand away to clench at her side. She rubbed her thigh, just beneath her hip with her fist while desperately ignoring the signals racing through her body.

It was the first time in her life she felt her entire body yearn for someone. She'd had her flings in college but they were quick, immature things compared to what she was experiencing now. She wanted to collapse against him with his arms around her, supporting her. Massaging her. Fingers roaming her body while she whimpered for him to-

"Thank you," he said, interrupting her reverie. Her hand quested blindly for the edge of the table next to her until she felt the cold surface and then she gripped it tightly to hold herself up. "Lock up when you're done and I'll see you tomorrow morning."

Have lunch with me, she thought towards him.

"Mm-hmm," she mumbled while nodding with a wide, closed-mouth smile.

Victoria watched him gently thumb the leaves on the small plant before turning to leave.

I could buy, she continued to think as she stared at his straight back. Or you could. Or I could make something and bring it in. I don't know what you like but if we talked a while and you told me, I could make it.

"Oh," Elias said, pausing with his hand on the doorknob.

"Yes! Um, yes?" she asked, gripping the counter with all her strength until her forearm trembled.

Please ask me to have lunch with you, she pleaded mentally. Or dinner. I don't care if it's just an employee lunch. Or not. Just, give me something!

"I think I forgot to lock my door," he told her. "Could you take care of it for me?"

"Oh, yes, absolutely yes," she replied, smiling even wider to hide her embarrassment.

"I'm sorry, are you okay?" he asked, suddenly concerned.

"Absolutely!" she repeated.

Goddammit, she cursed before channeling all of her pent up energy into a mental scream that didn't touch the obviously fake grin affixed to her face.

Elias left and the door hissed quietly behind him.

"Goddammit," Victoria said out loud this time, sinking to her knees to carefully rest her forehead against the counter next to the wormwood.

His touch still resonated throughout her body, lingering deep within as a slow, pulsing beat cast out as rippling waves that left her aching for his touch once more. She stored the memory of all of it as well as she could knowing that she would revisit it once more in bed later that evening.

The rest of the closing routine was minimal - turning the sign over, locking the computer on the counter and shutting off the lights.

It was a rare occasion indeed that she was asked to deal with the back office aside from directing important clients where they needed to go. And, now that she thought about it, she wondered why she never brought the customers to the door. It suddenly struck her as odd that she simply let them go rather than walking with them in order to open the door and ensure they were allowed or to check if they had an appointment.

Victoria took the keys from her pocket as she walked past her desk. After a few steps, she slowed.

I'm sure it's fine, she thought to herself, gripping the keys in her hand while reaching for her pocket. The front door will be locked; nobody will go into the back. I just- no. No. Elias asked me to lock the back door. I'll do it.

She took two more steps, edging closer to the door and, yet again found herself coming to a stop.

He's never let me back here, she considered, chewing against the side of her mouth. Maybe he forgot and didn't actually want me to do it? If it just slipped his mind. Argh. No. He was clear about it. I'll take care of it. I will.

The door loomed before her as if she were looking through a fisheye lens or a fun house mirror. She squeezed her eyes closed against a bout of nausea while raising her hand to the deadbolt. Bile rose to burn the back of her throat but she worked through it to insert the key into the lock and turn until it gave a satisfying 'click' in response. Cold sweat formed on her brow and beneath the strap of her bra. She swallowed back the urge to throw up as she locked the doorknob as well.

The pressure throbbing behind her eyes lessened when she turned to walk back to the front of the store. Every step eased the pain and queasiness until it vanished when she was close to her desk.

"Good Lord, Victoria," she said, sighing while rubbing at her temples. She cleared her throat until the burning passed. "Being infatuated is one thing but weird psychosomatic physical pain just because you get close to his office? Get a grip on yourself, girl."

With the back door locked, she finished a few small remaining tasks before stepping outside and locking the front door. Foot traffic on the sidewalk in front of the door was slow. The dinner crowds were home, still mulling over their potential choices before flooding the downtown restaurants.

It was her favorite time of the day - work was just finished, leaving her to enjoy the rest of the afternoon. She lived close enough to enjoy walking home outside under the sun without too many people around her. Even now she kept her eyes on the ground with her shoulders hunched forward while watching her feet. She stepped over cracks in the pavement, shorting her stride or lengthening it as necessary to entertain herself as she walked.

Two blocks away from the nursery where she worked, a stray beam of light struck her eye. Victoria flinched. She shaded her eyes and turned to find the source.

A small boutique was nestled snugly between a Green Life Smoothie and an upscale used clothing store called, appropriately, Rethreaded.

"Since when?" Victoria asked nobody in particular while staring at the boutique.

It was unsettling. Her brain fought against it, as if trying to solve an optical illusion. The boutique trembled, the walls bowing in for a fraction of a second while the edges wavered. A tiny headache throbbed in the center of her brain while she squinted. The building grew firm once more.

She'd walked to work nearly every weekday down this sidewalk and back home the same way. The image of the two stores were clear in her mind and they were right next to each other. She couldn't even remember how many times she'd sat in the smoothie shop for lunch.

Victoria took a step towards the boutique to stare into the huge glass windows. Two faceless mannequins stared at each other from opposite ends of the display case within. Various styles of jewelry were arranged throughout - necklaces, bracelets, rings, hairpins, medallions, and so much more.

As she stared ahead, her eyes focused directly in front of her to see a simple gray bust with a glittering purple pendant perfectly centered on the chest. It shined in a way that was difficult for her to describe; it wasn't the simple violet coloring of a mass produced piece of plastic or faded amethyst gemstone. Even from where she stood, she could see the deep, rich pigments. Sunlight explored the depths of the pendant, revealing more complex shades until it appeared to fade away to ebony with hints of mauve stars twinkling in the void.

She touched the glass, enthralled by the sight of it as it pulled her in until she drew an involuntary breath. Her body resisted the enchantment, forcing her eyes to drop. The price tag, set on a rectangular card below the pendant, broke the rest of the spell.