by idyllic_thoughts
I can relate to a lot of what you say here, especially about being unsure of your place in a group encounter. Thanks for sharing it.
I found that your reflection made it feel more real and authentic, although it was a bit of a damper on its sensuality. Assuming its true, I hope that your subsequent relationships have been more satisfying!
I've had similar low-quality sexual relations, including some with escorts. Sometimes, the physical sex has been pretty great, but the emotional connection so poor that the whole experience was only so-so. This was the case both of the times that I hired a couple of girls for a duo. In both cases, the girls were clearly only doing it for the money and were just not into it otherwise.
Anyway, thanks