Dear Diary

"You are a wonderful kisser, and it was a perfect first kiss, but you might want to move that unless you plan on taking my virginity tonight." It was an open invitation, and I certainly wouldn't object, but I doubted he was quite ready for that step.

"I don't mind us giving each other pleasure, but you should save that for someone you truly love," he said as he started kissing his way down my body. God he was dense sometimes, but his lips were magical. Remember how I said my breasts were sensitive? Having him suck in my nipples was about a thousand times better than anything I had ever done alone. Apparently, my request to make me feel like a woman he loves was all he needed to hear.

His mouth engulfed most of my breast and his tongue worked over my nipple like me trying to get to the center of a tootsie roll pop. My first climax came when he pulled back and grazed his teeth over the hardened nub. He kept nibbling on it as I shook and moaned, only pulling away once my climax ended.

"I know you like making comparisons to my other girlfriends, so let me tell you that you have the most amazing nipples I have ever seen. They are bigger and more sensitive than any girl I have ever been with." I couldn't help but glow at his compliment. I guess the spirits had to give me something to make up for shortchanging me on everything else. My breasts were little more than rounded bumps on my chest, but my nipples were the size of a ripe cherry when I was aroused.

I could feel his finger rubbing over my juicy lips as he took the other nipple in his mouth. I was very thankful for all his other girlfriends, because he had learned how to make a woman feel amazing with them and I was benefiting from that experience now.

"Suck it harder big brother, it won't break," I moaned as he worked my nipple over. The increased pressure and his finger stroking over my clit set me off again and I moaned as I started shaking under him. I couldn't believe how easily he was making me climax and how intense the feelings were. My nipples and clit were throbbing in time with my racing heartbeat and every inch of my body burned with pleasure.

I whimpered as he started kissing down my body, afraid and excited to find out how good it would feel when he started licking my pussy. His tongue traced along my outer lips, cleaning up the secretions from my previous climaxes. I was purring with pleasure when I heard him inhale deeply before smiling up at me.

"When we get to college, and you start dating, never do anything with a man who refuses to lick your pussy. Your smell is intoxicating and you taste delicious. Any man who says otherwise or refuses to do this for you isn't worth your time anyway."

He spread my legs a bit more and used his fingers to open my lips. His tongue traced over my inner lips and across my maidenhead. It was very erotic feeling, but he avoided my clit to build me up slower. After a couple minutes of his gentle teasing, I was panting and begging him to lick my clit. Instead of just licking over it, he sucked my clit into his mouth and started lashing it with his tongue.

I had to clench my jaw to stifle the scream of pleasure that threatened to burst out of my throat. The pressure that had been building up exploded out, sending a wave of pure pleasure through my body as I experienced the most intense orgasm of my life. It felt like every other climax I had had all month was rolled up in one super intense burst of ecstasy that wouldn't end. His thrashing tongue kept pushing me higher and higher until I finally had to push his head away so I wouldn't scream.

By the time I recovered and stopped twitching, he was sitting beside me. Forgetting my plan, I straddled his hips and let my dripping pussy drag over his cock as I kissed him passionately. "Sorry I had to stop you, but it was too damn good. I was afraid I was going to scream and alert the parents. You may need to get me a gag the next time you do that to me."

He just smirked up at me. "You realize they couldn't hear you if they are in their room, no matter how loud you get. Their bedroom in on the other side of the house and they had the builders do everything they could to soundproof the walls. You guys barely hear the loudest of the girls I have brought home, and believe me some of them got loud."

"Shit, I forgot about that. I'm so used to staying quiet that I don't think about it," I muttered. "That was the most amazing thing I have ever felt. I have never cum that hard before and I'm still insanely horny right now."

"I'm more than happy to do it again, now or any other time you want me to. I wasn't kidding when I told you how good you smell and taste and I love giving you that much pleasure. You should probably move off my lap before we have an accident though."

I had been grinding my pussy over his cock the entire time I had been in his lap. I didn't know if he was worried about slipping inside of me or cumming from the stimulation. I had intended to wait, but I was too excited to hold back anymore.

"I'm sorry big brother, but I have to tell you the whole truth and hope you forgive me. You remember how you said I should save my virginity for someone I truly loved. I've already found him, and it's you. Our sex games over the past couple weeks were my plan to get you comfortable enough to take my virginity and become my lover. I've been fondling your cock while you slept and I played with myself, fantasizing about it being inside of me. I have been afraid to say anything because I didn't want you to think I am some kind of freak, but you are the only one I have ever felt like this with."

I was sitting back in his lap, waiting for him to condemn me. This could destroy everything I had worked for, but I couldn't keep lying to him. I was surprised when he pulled me in to his body and started rubbing my back.

"I'm not mad at you baby girl, but I am a little upset about you lying to me. Was that all you did, or is there more. I want the truth, about that and how long this has been going on."

"I have been playing with myself in your arms for a couple years, like I told you before. I was never brave enough to actually touch it until the beginning of last summer. I never tried to put it inside of me, but in the last couple of months, I did tuck it between my legs and played with both of us until we climaxed. I used to lick your cum up before I put your cock back in your shorts so you wouldn't find out."

I heard him sigh as he held me. "Tilly, Tilly, Tilly, what am I going to do with you? It wouldn't be safe for me to have sex with you, no matter how much we both want it. Our parent's would freak out if they ever found out we were even playing with each other as we are, and there is always a chance I could get you pregnant. I could never risk you like that."

"Would you be willing to risk it if there was no chance of me getting pregnant? I mean, like zero percent. Would you risk mom and dad finding out? Maybe if we waited until we went away to collage to become lovers, I could wait that long if you need me to."

"If it was just our parents I would take you tonight, but no birth control is one hundred percent effective. The chance of getting you pregnant will always be there, and there is too big a risk to your health or the health of any baby we made," he replied with a sigh. "I know you will find someone who loves you as much as I do someday. You will love each other and make beautiful babies with him."

"That can never happen big brother. You may not remember it very well, but I was always weak as a child. The conditions before our birth made it so I didn't develop fully in the womb. I was on nutritional supplements and steroids for years as my body built up the strength I needed to do things like crawl or walk. The doctors were surprised I didn't have some kind of brain damage, but my heart, skeletal muscles and reproductive organs were the hardest hit."

"It took me so long to walk because my muscles were not strong enough to support my body, and my heart wasn't strong enough for anything but the mildest exercise until I was almost seven. There was nothing they could do to fix my reproductive system though. My ovaries work, but my uterus never fully formed and there is no way for an egg to get in. The only way I could ever have a child would be to have an egg extracted and implanted into a surrogate so she could carry the child. So you see, you could cum inside of me freely and never have to worry about me getting pregnant. It's not even possible."

I could feel his tears dripping on to my shoulder and pulled back to look at him. "Don't be sad big brother. I'm not saying everything is perfect, but I'm not upset about how my life has turned out. It just means you can love me freely without any worries, unless you don't want me."

"Of course I want you. I've wanted you for years now, but what would our parents say if I stopped dating so we could be together," he asked. "The only reason they are comfortable with us being down here alone barely dressed is because they know I have my girlfriends. They would start watching us a lot closer if I didn't."

"Oh, I don't want you to stop seeing your other girls, as long as you give me attention too. It actually gets me kind of hot knowing you are such a stud. I have one last little secret, but I won't tell you unless you are sure you want us to be lovers. I wanted us to go away to college, where no one would know you were my brother so we could live together as lovers. Do you think you would like to live like that with me?"

"I would love it, but we have one other big problem," he said looking down at where my lips were still spread over his cock. "As small as you are, I don't think I would fit inside of you without hurting you. Several of my girlfriends couldn't take all of me, and you are much smaller than they were."

I gave him a wicked little smile as I reached between us and grasped his cock. "Only one way to find out big brother, I may not be able to take all of you, but I'm sure as hell going to try."

Lifting myself up, I started rubbing the head over my pussy lips. I had to admit I was just as concerned as he was, but I had waited far too long to try this to back out now. My pussy was still dripping from my previous orgasms, so there was more than enough lubrication as I lined the head up with my virginal opening.

I pushed down a bit, feeling my outer lips stretch to accommodate his girth and immediately felt the pressure on my maidenhead. Pushing harder, I winced as I felt it tear and froze with just the head inside of me. It took a minute for the pain to pass and I could see the concern in his eyes. Pulling his head up to kiss him, I sank deeper on his cock and moaned into his mouth. Being stretched so much hurt some, but the pleasure was undeniable.

"You feel so good inside of me big brother. It's so much better than I imagined." I only had about three inches inside of me when I started rocking up and down on it, letting him slide a bit deeper on each stroke. My breasts were rubbing against his chest as I worked him deeper, and my first orgasm caught me only half way down his thick shaft. His hands on my ass were all that stopped me from fully impaling myself as I thrashed and screamed in pleasure.

"Of fuck that was a good one," I moaned as I started moving again. Each slow steady stroke let me take another fraction of an inch as my pussy stretched to accept him, but pushed me closer and closer to another mind-blowing climax. Every inch I took set me off again and I could hear him panting as he got closer.

"Cum in me big brother, Fill my tight little pussy with its first load of your creamy cum. I'm close to another one myself, and I want you to cum with me this time. I can't take all of you yet, but if we practice enough, I might stretch out to accept all of you. Are you looking forward to it as much as I am?"

His cock expanding inside of me made my eyes pop open and I could feel his hot cum as it blasted into the depths of my pussy. I threw my head back and screamed out as a wave of pleasure ripped through my body. Each pulse of his cock sent me higher and I saw stars as I collapsed on his chest.

I lay there, panting and whimpering as I felt his juices leaking out of me. The feeling of him cumming inside of me blew away even my greatest expectations and I didn't want it to end. I couldn't help but moan as his cock finally slipped out of me. I was sore as hell, but I felt fulfilled.

"I don't think I have ever had a climax that intense. You felt amazing Tilly. Do you really want us to be lovers when we go away to college? I would love for us to be together, but I kind of promised someone we would hook up when we got to college."

I smiled and shook my head. "I want us to be lovers, but I don't want you to give up your other girls when we go away to college. Remember that secret I mentioned? You are the only man I have ever wanted inside of my pussy, but I have another fantasy. I used to fantasize about the other girls in the locker room and what their pussies would taste like. When we go to college, I want you to keep bringing girls home for both of us to play with. I want to lick your cum out of their freshly fucked pussies while you take me from behind or be sucking on their tits while you fuck them."

I could see the shock in his eyes and smiled. "I know I'm kind of a freak, but I have hidden my desires for so long that it feels good to tell you the truth. Speaking of freaky desires, I am going to lick you cock clean and savor the taste of our cum as I do it. I hope you don't think less of me, but I want to fulfill every kinky fantasy you have."

As I dropped to my knees between his thighs, I saw the traces of my virgin blood still on his cock. I licked them up with as much love as I did every other trace of our recent activities and felt him growing hard again under my attentions. I smiled up at him as I ran my tongue up his revived shaft. "My pussy is kind of sore still, but I would be happy to make you cum in my mouth again, unless you're feeling kinky and want to try taking my virgin ass. It might take a while to warm my ass up enough, but I know we have some body oils in the bathroom if you want to try."

He just smiled down at me and shook his head. "I'm too exhausted for that you insatiable little minx, but we will definitely try it sometime. None of my girlfriends ever even offered to try that. No, I want you to go get cleaned up and come sleep with me, just remember to put your shirt back on in case mom or dad come down to wake us. I was more thinking you could fulfill your other fantasy a lot sooner than you were imagining. A couple of my exes expressed a desire to have a threesome with you, but I never asked because I didn't think you would be interested. We split on good terms and they would probably still be interested if I asked them. Don't ask who though because I want it to be a surprise."

I pouted a bit as I got up to go to the bathroom. I took a minute to clean myself up because my climaxes had smeared my virgin blood down my thighs. When I came out, he already had his shorts back on and was laying down waiting for me. Slipping my shirt back on, I snuggled back into his arms with a sigh.

"I won't ask who they are, but can I make one special request? Ask whichever one has the biggest tits first. I am a bit underdeveloped in that department, and have always wanted to play with a big set." I would be happy with any of his exes joining us, but there were a few I was praying for.

"As you wish baby sis, you know I would do anything to make you happy."

Waking up Sunday morning really sucked. My pussy was still sore and apparently, my body decided it was time to start a period on top of it. I was a couple of days earlier than expected, but it wasn't exactly regular so it was hard to predict. At least it let me explain why I was walking a bit funny without making mom suspicious. It also gave me a good excuse to lie around watching movies all day since the cramps really were a killer.

Monday morning on the way to school, my brother asked how soon he should try to set up a date for us with one of his exes. I had to think for a moment. My periods were usually heavy and ran for four days so I told him I should be completely finished by Friday, just to be safe. With the game on Friday, I didn't think we would get to do it then, but I was hoping for something over the weekend.

My brother got the scholarship offer from USC on Wednesday and we both sent off our confirmation letters, along with a pile of thank you for the offer but no thanks letter to the other schools. Texas might have been further away, but southern California sounded like paradise after growing up in Nampa. My parents wanted us to go to Boise State so we would be close, but we both wanted out of the northwest.

The team was throwing a little party for him after the game of Friday, so I told him I would be waiting in the basement and went home with our parents. It was just after ten when he finally got home, so I knew my parents were already asleep. When I heard the door to the basement close, I just smiled as I waited for him to join me.

When he put his hands over my eyes, I thought he was just being goofy again until I felt someone straddle my legs and kiss me. "No touching yet. I brought you a surprise," he whispered in my ear. "Mom and dad already said we could have a slumber party down here tonight, and I think you will be very pleased when you find out who is kissing you."

I trusted my brother explicitly and returned the kiss while keeping my hands at my sides. The lips pulled back right before my brother's hands left my eyes and I found myself staring up into the most gorgeous green eyes I had ever seen. Them, and the rest of the goddess they belonged to, had been an active part of my fantasy life since we were freshmen together. She never actually dated my brother, but they had been lovers on and off all through high school.

"I hope you don't mind, but I have never actually done this before," Julie said with a smirk. "I told your brother that I was attracted to girls, and I thought you were gorgeous but I would never do anything unless I found someone I could trust not to talk about it around school. When he asked me if I wanted to join the two of you, I jumped at the idea."

I was still stuck on her thinking I was gorgeous. I had been in love with her from the moment I first saw her, and she thought I was gorgeous. Julie was almost six foot, with long red hair and a body that guys would kill to get their hands on. Her full double d cup breasts and the perfect heart shaped ass she had made her the most desired girl in our school, and she thought I was gorgeous.

"Why would you want to play with me," I asked, suddenly self-conscious. "You could have anyone in the school, male or female, willing to do anything you asked. Why would you be interested in playing with someone as underwhelming as I am."

She gave me an odd look then smiled. "Because I think you are gorgeous. That long silky hair, your perfect porcelain skin, and your petite body just turn me on. I have always found you attractive; I just never thought you would be interested."

I responded by pulling her down and kissing her again. Our first kiss had been fairly chaste, but this was far from it. There were three girls on my most desirable list, and the one of them I had been in love with for years was straddling my legs and kissing me with the same amount of passion I had for her. Her hands were on the couch behind my head and mine hadn't gone past her waist when I felt my brother sit down beside us.

"I think someone is over dressed still." Julie sat back and we both looked over at my brother. He was already naked and fully aroused. I started to reach for his cock but stopped and gave Julie a worried look.