Fear No Evil Ch. 01

"You'll never get to sleep like that and then you're gonna be grumpy and we won't go to the beach. I wanna go to the beach. Plus, I don't want to deal with grumpy Sid," Zach said as he walked into the living room and stood over Sid next to the couch. "Come on." He held his hand out to Sid.

Sid looked up at Zach in the dim light that streamed from his friend's bedroom into the dark living room. Zach was smiling at him. He looked down at Zach's hand and knew he wanted to take it. He knew that he shouldn't. He knew that if he did then Zach would lead him somewhere he wasn't ready to go. He shouldn't want it - he shouldn't even be thinking about it.

"Please?" Zach said.

Sid couldn't say no. He knew it was wrong but it didn't stop him. He took Zach's hand and got up off the couch.

Zach led Sid down the hallway and into his bedroom. After stepping into his room Zach let go of Sid's hand and went to the bed to pull down the sheets.

"Zach..." Sid said. He wasn't even sure what he was going to say.

"Sid... just... sleep here tonight. It'll be more comfortable." Zach said. "No one's gonna find out, if that's what you're worried about. My mom isn't going to be back until Sunday. Besides, we're friends - it's no big deal," he said.

Sid sighed. He looked at the place on the bed next to Zach as if it were dangerous. Even if Zach did just want him to get some sleep tonight, Sid knew he wouldn't get in the bed for that reason. He could sleep just fine on the couch. If he got in that bed it was because he wanted something to happen. Maybe Zach was thinking the same thing. Sleeping in the bed was an excuse. Sleeping together was the objective. Sid couldn't help himself, though. Maybe he didn't really expect anything to happen or maybe he hoped that he could cope if it did. He walked around to the other side of the bed and slipped under the covers.

"Night, Sid," Zach said, turning out the light on the nightstand next to the bed.

"Goodnight, Zach," Sid whispered. He tried to slow his breathing and calm himself down but his body was tense. When nothing had happened after a few minutes he began to relax and eventually fell asleep.

***

Sid turned over in his sleep and his hand bumped something. He opened his eyes but couldn't see anything in the darkness. He sat up quickly and looked around. His eyes slowly adjusted to the darkness and revealed an unfamiliar room. His heart started beating faster as he tried to remember where he was and how he had gotten there. Eventually, he recalled the foolish decision to sleep in Zach's bed and recognized his best friend's room.

"You OK?" Zach asked.

Sid looked over and could see Zach was laying on his back looking at Sid.

"Yeah," Sid said, "I'm fine."

Sid lay back down on the bed. He was drowsy but now keenly aware of Zach's presence. Every shift in the mattress or tug on the sheets made him think about his friend lying naked in the bed next to him. But he didn't even know if Zach was naked... Last he saw Zach was wearing a t-shirt and a pair of boxers. Why would Sid imagine he was naked now?

His dick was hard. He told himself it was just a biological thing. It happened every morning. It was normal. He told himself that but he knew it wasn't just that. It was being in this bed with Zach. His cock was so stiff it hurt. He slipped his hand under the covers, into his boxers, and wrapped it around his thick cock. It felt bigger than it usually did. It was so engorged that the skin around it was tight. The head was completely exposed. He ran his hands along it and his thoughts drifted to Zach. His cock twitched and he could feel pre-cum welling up through it to bead at the tip. He put his palm on the end of his cock to cover his urethra so he didn't make a mess in Zach's bed. He needed to calm down.

"Are you horny?" Zach asked him in the darkness.

Sid's breath caught in his throat. He stared at the ceiling, afraid to look over at his friend.

"I am," Zach said.

Sid tried to look over without turning his head. From the corner of his eye, it seemed that Zach was just looking up at the ceiling, too. Then he felt something moving under the covers. He took his hand off his cock and lay still. His chest felt tight and he swallowed. A light touch on his thigh sent shivers running through him. He felt Zach's hand, then, sliding across his leg towards his groin.

He knew he should stop it. He knew it was wrong. He felt Zach's hand slide his under the waistband of his boxers and wrapped felt his friend's fingers curl around the base of his shaft.

Sid exhaled as Zach started stroking his hot dick under the covers. Zach's hand moved slowly, sliding up and down his hard cock, and Sid just tried to keep breathing.

"Zach..." Sid croaked. He was trembling.

They still hadn't looked at one another. Zach slowly stroked Sid's cock.

"I'm not gay," Sid protested.

Zach didn't say anything and didn't stop. Sid had hoped he would because Zach's hand on his cock felt really good. Sid didn't want to have to be the one that ended it. Zach continued stroking Sid, squeezing his friend's cock gently as his hand rose and fell under the sheets.

"What if it wasn't about being gay or being straight? What if it was just about who you liked? And what you wanted to do? It doesn't have to matter who they are or what clothes they wear or what anyone else says..." Zach said quietly.

Sid gasped as Zach grabbed the head of his cock and slid his palm around it. It became slick with his own pre-cum as Zach stroked it.

"Say you like it," Zach said.

Of course, he liked it - but he couldn't say that. He knew what it would mean. What did Zach want from him? A boyfriend? Holding hands and walking on the beach and watching romance movies? He couldn't do that. It wasn't like Zach said, it wasn't just about what you wanted.

But it felt so good. Sid didn't even understand why. He had masturbated plenty of times before and it never felt this good. Zach wasn't even doing it the way he liked best, but it was still so much better.

"Just say you like it," Zach said, his voice cracking.

Sid didn't dare say anything. He didn't want Zach to stop but he didn't want to give Zach the wrong idea, either. Fuck that, Zach already had the wrong idea. Sid shouldn't have been staring at Zach or letting Zach see he was horny when they were working out. And he definitely shouldn't have tried sneaking a peek at Zach in the shower - Zach saw right through him.

Sid gripped the sheets as Zach's hand slid up and down his cock. Zach's fingers curled around the head of his dick and then slipped down to grip the base of his shaft. His breath came in ragged gasps as Zach stroked faster. He was starting to get close.

"You have to say you like it, Sid," Zach said firmly. He stopped stroking.

Sid looked over and found Zach looking at him. It was hard to tell in the darkness but he thought Zach's eyes might be wet.

"Zach..." Sid started but couldn't finish. What was he supposed to say? Maybe Zach would just give up. Zach could apologize and they could go back to sleep. It would be awkward for a moment in the morning but they could go to the beach and get on with their lives.

"Fuck you, Sid," Zach said, tossing off the covers and storming out of the room.

"Zach, wait!" Sid called after him.

Fuck. He untangled himself from the sheets and stuck his dick back into his boxers before hurrying after his best friend. Zach was in the kitchen pouring a glass of water.

"Zach..." Sid started.

"Whatever, man. I get it. Stay on the straight and narrow."

Zach turned to walk off but Sid reached out and grabbed his arm.

"Zach, wait," Sid said, "You don't understand."

Zach yanked his arm away from Sid. "What!?" he demanded. His eyes were wet.

"Zach, please," Sid said, "I can't be like you - I can't do what I want. You don't know what it's like..."

"You don't think I have my own shit to deal with? You don't think I have to live with this every day? Look, I get that your old man is a bigot. You can tell him whatever you want but you can't lie to me," Zach said, "Don't lie to me."

It felt like an icy void opened up in Sid's chest. He was cold inside. Cold and sick. He could see the tears about to spill from his best friend's eyes. He didn't want to lose Zach. He couldn't lose him. And he would be lying if he said he didn't want to touch Zach or that he didn't want Zach to touch him.

"Zach, I'm sorry," Sid choked, "I'm sorry." He could feel the tears in his own eyes as well.

Sid clenched his jaw against the tightness in his chest. He was afraid. So afraid. He looked at Zach and knew they were both hurting and wanting. There was something else, too, when he looked at Zach. Something within him besides the fear. Something that compelled him.

"I don't know what I want!" Sid said, "I haven't done this before. I never even thought about it."

Sid was almost shaking as he reached down to the hem of his shirt and pulled it over his head. Zach didn't say anything, but watched Sid, his eyes wandering over Sid's broad chest and flat stomach. Sid slipped his thumbs into the waistband of his boxers and pushed them down, letting them fall to the ground and kicking them away.

Sid looked away but he could feel Zach's eyes on him. Even though he felt a little vulnerable, it was exciting, and his cock started to thicken and lengthen. He stepped forward and Zach didn't retreat, so he reached up and put his hands on Zach's chest.

"Sid..." Zach said quietly, touching Sid's arms.

"Shhhh," Sid hushed him. Sid felt like he was lost. He didn't know what he was doing but, at the same time, he knew exactly what to do.

Sid reached up and caught Zach's hands, pushing them back. Zach moved with him, taking a step back, and Sid put Zach's hands onto the counter behind them. Then, he reached up to Zach's chest, again, and ran his hands down Zach's lean body, feeling his muscles, his form. Sid crouched down in front of Zach and Sid's hands drifted down Zach's stomach to the waistband of his briefs.

Sid felt his heart racing, the tension inside him winding tighter as he stared at Zach's body. I do want this, he thought to himself. Maybe Zach was right. Maybe all that mattered right now was what Sid wanted. Who he wanted. He wanted his best friend.

Sid slid his hands down the front of Zach's underwear. He swallowed. He had just touched his best friend's cock. He knew he would be doing a lot more than that but it was an exciting moment. He put his hand on the bulge in Zach's boxers. He could feel Zach's balls and his partially erect cock. Sid started to massage the bulge, feeling Zach's balls move and cock grow in his hand. He reached up and grabbed the waistband of his friend's underwear, slowly pulling it down to reveal Zach's cock. He moved his hands back and pulled the briefs past Zach's ass and slid them down his legs. Sid let one hand slip down the back of Zach's leg, picking it up so Zach would step out of his underwear.

Zach's cock, free of the confining garment, slowly rose before Sid's eyes. Sid's face was less than a foot from Zach's erection and Sid was fascinated by it. He had only ever seen his own dick before and had a much better view of his friend's manhood than he ever had of his own. Zach's cock was straighter than Sid's and the same tan complexion as the rest of Zach's body. His balls were hanging below it and Sid put his hand on them gently. Sid held them, felt them, as he wrapped his other hand around the base of Zach's cock. It was hard and a drop of pre-cum was gathering at the tip. Sid pulled up and down, stroking Zach's cock slowly, exploring the feeling of someone else's body.

Sid took a breath and felt his own cock flex, stiffening and growing for a moment. His thoughts kept trying to sabotage him. He was a sinner. He was going to hell. He looked up at his best friend. Zach was leaning back against the counter, watching him. Zach smiled. Sid felt a familiar surge within, something he knew in the back of his mind but hadn't yet acknowledged. It pushed all his thoughts away and left him in the dark, quiet house with Zach. He smiled and closed his eyes and put Zach's dick in his mouth.

Sid heard Zach gasp as he put his mouth on his best friend's thick cock. It was hot and hard and seemed much bigger in his mouth than in his hand. He sucked it into his mouth and then let it slip out again. It was awkward at first, but soon Zach's dick was wet and Sid was able to suck it in and out faster. With each stroke, Sid felt the head of Zach's penis rub the roof of his mouth. The underside of his friend's cock slid along Sid's tongue. If he let the cock slide too far down the tip would slide across his tongue and leave a salty trail.

Sid tried to imagine what he would enjoy and started bobbing his head up and down on Zach's cock faster. He squeezed it with his lips and licked the underside as it passed over his tongue. He stopped to catch his breath and then put just the tip in his mouth, rolling his tongue around it and touching Zach's urethra with the tip of his tongue. Zach gasped when Sid started licking the underside of his glans. Sid knew that was an especially sensitive spot for him and guessed it was for Zach as well.

Sid reached up and wrapped his left hand around the base of Zach's cock and cupped his friend's balls in his right hand. He sort of rolled Zach's balls back and forth in his palm and squeezed Zach's cock with his left hand. He dropped his head down onto Zach's erection, again, sucking his cock harder and deeper into his mouth. He sucked a few more strokes and then let Zach's cock rest in his mouth, rubbing the underside of it with his tongue again. He could hear Zach breathing heavily as he gave his friend a blowjob.

Sid continued this way for some time, alternately sucking and licking Zach's cock until he heard Zach call his name.

"Sid..." Zach said with a strained voice but never finished his sentence.

Sid glanced up when he felt Zach put a hand gently on his head. Zach's mouth was open in a silent moan as he looked down at Sid. Sid reached out and grabbed Zach's other hand, pulling it to the back of his head as well. That was something else he knew he would want and was sure Zach wanted it, too. He returned his attention to Zach's cock, sucking it quickly, and felt Zach's hands moving with him.

Soon, Zach was gently pulling Sid's head on his cock and Sid tried to match the pace Zach seemed to want. Zach started to lean forward a little and Sid slowed down, allowing Zach thrust his cock into Sid's mouth more and more. Zach started to gently fucking Sid's mouth and Sid just tried to keep his head still and continue sucking and licking his friend's dick. Zach was so careful, though, gently rocking his hips and pushing his thick cock into Sid's mouth in slow strokes.

Sid could feel Zach's cock pulsing in his mouth, he could feel it swell with every thrust. He kept his lips locked on Zach's penis, sucking it in and sliding his tongue under it with every stroke. He could hear Zach's breath coming faster and faster. Every now and then a soft "Oh" escaped Zach's lips as he fucked Sid's mouth.

Zach gasped and stopped his thrusts. He tried to push Sid back, but Sid kept his head down on Zach's cock and sucked harder. He stroked Zach's shaft with his hand and licked the underside of Zach's glans with his tongue. Zach moaned louder and a moment later, Sid felt Zach's cock swell and then a spurt of hot semen shot into the back of his mouth. It startled him but he kept sucking on the head of Zach's penis while his best friend came, pumping Sid's mouth full of his load. After a few final pulses, Sid swallowed the salty mess and let Zach's cock fall from his mouth as he coughed and gasped for air.

"Oh, fuck," Zach said, leaning back against the counter.

"Oh, fuck is right," Sid said with a grin.

Sid stood up and went to the fridge where he found a half-empty Mountain Dew and drank it down. He hadn't exactly known what cum would taste like but didn't think it was as bad as he had read online. His thoughts were interrupted when he felt Zach hug him from behind.

Sid put down the soda and turned around. Zach was standing still, breathing hard, his head hanging down a little. That lock of hair had fallen across his eyes, again. Sid reached up and brushed it aside, tucking it behind Zach's ear. Zach smiled, reached out, and took Sid's hand. He led Sid back down the hallway and Sid watched his best friend's ass sway just inches away from his rising cock.

Sid's heart beat faster. He knew he what he wanted but he wasn't sure if he was ready for it. He followed Zach into the bedroom knowing that everything was different now. Fear followed him, at odds with his desire, and he wondered which was stronger.