Jamie, Yvonne, Sarah, David, Ch. 01

Sarah gasped deeply, and her hands quickly moved to cover her opened surprised mouth, as her robe fell open slightly.

"Oh my God, Jamie... you didn't! Please tell me you didn't hear that!"

"Sarah, how would I even know his name? We never discuss our nights out, remember?"

"How much did you hear!"

"Right up to the part where you used my friend Becca as an excuse to meet with him and 'be with' him... all night... again... without protection!" she started crying again, and I continued,

"Look Sarah, you should see him whenever you wish, and it will either kill or cure our marriage; it's really on life-support right now anyway. Sarah, you have committed adultery with this man. And... I am guilty of that as well!"

"What do you mean, Jamie?"

"I know we said that date nights when I do not take you home, are our secrets, but since I know about yours, you should know about mine." I waited for that so sink in, but noticed her sad expression.

"That first night at the big reception, your friend told me that you were leaving, so I knew that you were saying no to me, and yes to another man. I approached a girl named Yvonne that I had danced with earlier, and asked her out for a late snack and some wine. I ended up at her place, and we made love that night." Sarah interrupted,

"You made love to her Jamie? I know her, she has brown eyes... I sat with her earlier."

"Yes, but I will not characterize being with her to you... that would be crass. So last night, when I had heard enough from you to make me very sad... and angry, I went out and called Yvonne again. I was not with Joe, I was with her for a while tonight, and I... was with her again in the car outside her place. I hadn't intended for that to happen, but it did.

I just needed someone to talk with about what I heard from you and Sherri. But after we uh, well, in the car, I came home. I suppose I used Yvonne to get back at you. For that I am sorry, and embarrassed that I could even be like that."

"Oh Jamie! I am so, so sorry you had to hear that. I hate sneaking around, and maybe we should suspend our date nights until we can figure out what to do."

"Sarah, I want you to see David as much as you would like. Just tell me when you are going out for the evening, and I'll watch our children. If you sneak around, it will kill our marriage, and if you eventually prefer him to me, which is what it sounded like, that will kill our marriage for sure; but it will be fairer to me. I promise I will not retaliate with Sherry or Yvonne or anyone."

She was crying such bitter tears again, I almost felt sorry for her. She was listening to me so I continued,

"Sarah, I don't ever want you to have to fake anything with me again, or be with me out of some sense of duty. If we stop having sex while you are seeing David, at least that would be better than your fanaticizing about him when you are with me. Don't worry, I will get by... I'll take a lot of cold showers. Maybe we can cuddle a little here and there if you can stomach doing that with me."

"Jamie, I can't tell you that I don't want to see David, because I do!" She had stopped crying, and was more angry than sorrowful. She continued,

"I can't even say that I love him... I just love being with him. He is thrilling, and he excites me. So I am embarrassed to say that, since you are saying I can see him. But I um, I... will take you up on that offer, and Jamie... I will see him again." She pursed her lips together, looking very resolute. She went from embarrassed, to sorry, to indignant in a very short space of time, sitting in my easy chair.

I was a little shocked at her callousness, in view of my concession to her. I made the offer, but I was really hoping that she would tell me she wasn't going to see him anymore and just wanted to be with me. I thought for a moment and responded,

"Alright!" I said, showing some disgust with her. "At least that is an honest relationship. I will be a cuckold, but an unwilling one. I will hate to see you going out to meet him, but I will deal with it! If you get to the point where you need to be with him permanently, we will divorce. You will likely win custody of the children... and I will lose them too. I just hope that David is good to my babies!"

I was pissed! I was feeling sorry for myself, with that last self-serving bullshit statement. I was truly shocked that she was so insistent on putting our marriage in jeopardy, just to have his cock inside her.

I gave her a look that registered sadness, disappointment, and anger, that she could take advantage of my good will, by expressing her renewed desire to see that ass-prick again! Then after getting everything she wanted, she had the gall to say,

"Oh, Jamie! How did we get to this point? I don't want to lose you! And I don't want you to lose your children I know how much you love them!"

I tried to keep my anger from boiling to the surface,

"How did we get here Sarah? You said no to me one night, and yes to another man. Then you committed adultery with him. I love you Sarah, and you are all I need for the rest of my life. And Sarah, you have no clue about the depth of my feelings for Clare and Todd! So please do not try to characterize my relationship with them!" I waited for dramatic effect and then said,

"There isn't going to be a second wife for me!" I paused again, "I chose you, and you were supposed to be it, for me! But you have chosen someone else!" My anger was starting to show,

"I am so extremely disappointed in you!"

"Jamie, what if I asked Sherri to look in on you when I am out for the evening? She might like that too. I will explain things to her. I think I would be uncomfortable with you being all alone."

I couldn't believe she said that!! I had to grit my teeth harder just to keep from slapping her across the face (I would really never do that)! She didn't hear a word I said! I declared by undying love for her, and for her only! She was no longer my wife now! She had chosen David, and was just throwing Sherri's pussy at me for a consolation prize. I suddenly realized how over it was for us, when she started to pity me by pushing someone else at me to assuage her guilt! Through tightly clenched teeth, I said to her,

"Sarah, at this point, I couldn't possibly care less what you do! How do you think Sherri will feel about your treating her as nothing more than a consolation piece-of-ass for a lonely, childless, old cuckold?"

"She loves you, Jamie, and she would be good for you."

She said that matter-of-factly. In total disbelief that she could be so utterly, utterly clueless, I responded to this stupid cunt with,

"So you are really serious about continuing to fuck this guy? Sarah, I no longer care for your opinion one way or another! Just do not poison my kids toward me!" I turned away, but turned back to her with another thought,

"I was actually hoping that you would decide to prefer me over David! But since you are so insistent on being with that ass-clown, there is really nothing more to say!" She thought about what I just said,

"Oh, Jamie, you are over dramatizing this! You will be able to see the children, and I would never poison them against you! I just want what I want for right now, and I am sorry if it hurts you."

"YOU MEAN YOU DON'T GIVE A SHIT IF IT HURTS ME!!" I yelled at her, but I took a breath, and calmed down enough to say,

"Okay then Sarah! You get David, so good luck to both of you and have a nice life! I get at least someone to socialize with, plus Sherri, and maybe Kim too."

"Well, you have become quite the little negotiator haven't you? Alright, but let's say that all of this has a deadline. Let's say that in two months we will review our arrangement."

"Whatever! I am not interested in reviewing anything, at any time Sarah! But before you and the kids move in with him, you get the job of telling Claire and Todd what you are doing, and why. Claire will certainly figure it out on her own, if she hasn't already, and make her own judgements about you!"

"Okay, Jamie! FINE!! Yes, to all of it!! I'll talk to Sherri and Kim today." She said indignantly.

I stood up and looked at Sarah, the one girl I had decided I wanted to be with, for the rest of my life. I have lost her. She will never give David up, unless that prick gets tired of her first, and throws her cute little ass out. But I do get a new friend to tell my troubles to at least... and Sherri and maybe Kim for sex!

"Sarah, I want just a few hours to myself this evening with no questions asked! Also, on your nights out, you have to be back home before dawn... for the children... just for appearances! You don't have to sleep with me, or even touch me! I will set up a cot down here if you prefer."

"Fine! Fine, Jamie! Whatever you wish!" For someone who is getting everything her way, she seemed very pissed.

I looked at my ex-wife (soon to be, anyway) as she stood. We looked at each other for several seconds, then she slowly approached me to put her arms around me. I pushed her back, but relented just enough to let her cry on my shoulder, and I allowed her a platonic pat or two on the back, as she shook from her sobbing.

I have lost all feelings for Sarah!

She was nothing to me now!

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Continued in Chapter 02