More than Friends

As we sat in our dorm, Jessica opened up the vodka and mixed us both drinks with sprite. I took a sip and nearly spit it out. "What's wrong, don't like it?" she asks.

"Did you even put any sprite in it? It feels like it's all vodka!" I tell her. Literally, it was vodka with a hint of sprite.

"Man up, you're such a lightweight!" she let out a laugh. "And don't even give that, I've never drank before excuse. This is college, you're going to learn the hard way how to handle your liquor."

"But... That's not fair!" I argue. She gives me a smile as she takes a sip, I see the scar on the inside of her wrist and it sends a shiver down my spine.

"Life's not fair," she replies. She knows that more than anyone with everything she's been through. She almost didn't make it out of that dark place. I almost lost her. The memory of that day puts my stomach in a knot.

When Scott outed her as transgender, a lot of horrible things happened after that. I'm not even talking about the loss of her scholarship or the state championship. She was ostracized by the people who said they were her friends. They bullied her and shamed her. That wasn't even the worst of it. It's what I did next that truly broke her. When I heard what people were saying about her, I didn't believe the rumors at first. I thought Scott made everything up because she wouldn't have sex with him. There's no way she was transgender. I would have known! We didn't have secrets between us. At least I didn't.

When I confronted her about it at school, she finally told me the truth.

"Kevin... The rumors are true... I was... I was born a boy," she told me.

I couldn't believe it. It wasn't the fact that she was a boy that bothered me, it didn't matter to me at all. I just thought I knew who she was. I thought we knew everything about each other and it turns out I didn't know her at all. I was confused and I felt like she didn't trust me. If she couldn't tell me the truth about that, what else did she not trust me with?

When she saw the look on my face... The look of disbelief, shock, pain, anger, confusion all mixed in one. It devastated her. She must have took it that I was disgusted with her. I wasn't, at least not with her being transgender. Tears started to roll down her cheeks. Before I knew it, she took off.

The rest of the day I sat in class and couldn't stop thinking about it. All of it! The fact that she was transgender and didn't tell me. All the horrible rumors that were going around school. The whole thing about her being kicked off the girls' soccer team and her scholarships being pulled. The pain in her eyes as she saw the way I reacted when she finally told me. The more I thought about it, the more I realized why she didn't tell me. The way everyone treated her once they found out she was born a boy, it's no wonder why she didn't tell anyone. And the way I overreacted. Will she ever forgive me? Now I feel so terrible about everything. All she wanted was to live a normal life as a girl. I can't believe I acted like that. She was my friend... She is my friend! My best friend and I feel like I betrayed her. Just like everyone else has. I need to go talk to her. I need to let her know how I feel and that I'm so sorry for overreacting.

My phone buzzed in my pocket. I waited for the right time to check it. The teacher lectured for the entire class period. He was constantly looking at me for some reason. It felt like an eternity went. Finally, the bell rang and I whipped out my phone. Jessica sent me a message!

I quickly opened it.

Kevin, I never meant to hurt you. I truly like you and I'm sorry I didn't tell you the truth. I just knew deep down that you wouldn't understand. Not many people do. I don't blame you for that. I don't blame you for anything. You were always kind to me and I enjoyed every minute we spent together. I just can't live like this anymore. I can't live as a boy and society won't accept me as a girl. There is no place in this world for me. I hope you can forgive me one day. I wish you can one day find happiness. - Jess.

No! What have I done! I immediately tried to call her phone, but it went straight to voicemail. She must have turned it off! Fuck!

'Jessica, please pick up the phone, you don't want to do this! Please don't do this!'

I quickly hung up and rushed outta class. I called 911 as I ran down the hall.

'911 what are you reporting,' the dispatcher said.

'My friend just texted me and I think she's going to do something drastic. I believe she might try to take her own life. You have to do something!' I spastically shouted into the phone. "She said she couldn't live like this anymore! She said there is no place in this world for her! You have to save her! Please!'

'You need to calm down. Where is she now?' the dispatcher asked.

'I don't know! I think she's at home. I'm on my way over there right now!' I frantically yell into the phone as I rush out to my car.

'Do you have an address? What's her name?' the woman on the phone asked.

I told her the address and gave her Jessica's name. She told me she was sending someone over. They would be there soon.

I got in my car and drove as fast as I could to her house. When I finally arrived at her house, there was an ambulance already there. I rushed inside the house. Please be alive Jess! I can't lose you! I found them in the hallway just outside the bathroom. The floor was all wet. The water had a red tint to it. Oh no! The EMT's had Jess on a stretcher, they were trying to stop the bleeding from her arms. She was soaking wet. She had cut herself! They had a breathing mask on her. "Jess!" I shouted.

"Sir you need to step back, we don't have much time. We need to stop the bleeding and get her to the hospital. She needs a blood transfusion." one of the EMTs told me. Everything that happened from there was a blur. The next thing I remember I was sitting in the hospital waiting to hear any news on Jessica. Her parents just arrived. They were both freaking out. They went up to the desk.

"My daughter was just admitted. I need to see her. I need to make sure she's alright. Her name is Jessica Graceson." She said as tears fell from her eyes.

"Hold on a sec, let me look up her information." the woman at the desk said.

I got up and walked over to them. As soon as she saw me she rushed over to me. "Kevin, what's going on? What happened to Jessica?" she asked.

"I... She... She tried to..." I didn't know what to say. So I pulled out my phone and showed them the message. As she read the message a look of devastation appeared on her face.

"What!? What's the message say!?" Jess's dad asked.

She handed him the phone as more tears flowed down her cheeks. "Is she... Is she alright?" she asked.

"I... I don't know, they won't tell me anything because I'm not family. I think they were able to save her. She was alive when they brought her here." I stuttered out. I was a complete wreck. "As soon as I saw her text, I called 911."

"You did the right thing, Kevin," Jessica's dad told me. Just then a doctor came out.

"Are you Mr. and Mrs. Graceson?" he asked.

"Yes! How is my little girl? Is she okay!? What's going on?" Mrs. Graceson asked in desperation.

"She's alive and she's in stable condition," he told us. He then turned to me. "Are you the boy that called 911?"

I nodded. "Well son, you saved her life. If the EMTs arrived a second later, she probably wouldn't have survived. She lost a lot of blood."

Mrs. Graceson broke down as she pulled me into a giant hug. I couldn't help it either, tears were falling from my eyes too. I couldn't believe I almost lost her that day. If I didn't open up my phone when I did, or call 911. Things could have been ended terribly.

"Scout! You're not even listening to me!"

"What?" I looked up at Jessica as she took a sip of her drink.

"You kind of just zoned out there for a sec," she tells me.

"Oh... I'm sorry. I'm just glad you're here," I tell her.

"Well... ah... thanks. I'm glad you're here too. That came out of nowhere," she says. "Everything okay?"

"Yeah! Everything is great!" I tell her. "Now what were you saying?"

"I was just saying, we don't have to go out tonight. We can stay in and just drink by ourselves. Just the two of us," she says. "I know you're not really into the whole party thing and to be honest I kind of want to stay in tonight anyway."

"Yeah, that's fine with me!" She smiles at me and I smile back at her.

"Did I ever tell you that I'm glad I have you as my best friend?" She asks.

"I think maybe once or twice."

"Well, Kevin... I'm so glad to have a friend like you!" She places her hand on top of mind. We're sitting on her bed like old couples do before they turn in for the night. I turn my hand over and our fingers interlock with each other.

"Just friends?" I ask. My heart feels like it's beating its way out of my chest.

She looks into my eyes. "Do you want to be more than friends?"

I stare back into those beautiful brown eyes. I take a huge gulp of my drink. "Yes," I say. "I've always wanted that."

"Really?" she asks.

"Yeah, ever since we first hung out, I've had feelings for you. I didn't exactly know what those feelings were until I almost lost you," I admit. "Jessica, I'm in love with you."

"Even though I'm transgender?" she asks.

"Yes! That doesn't matter to me! I don't care that you use to be a boy. I don't care about what you have between your legs. I love you, Jessica!" I tell her. "Every second we spend together, I fall more in love with you. You're my best friend and there is no one in the entire universe I would rather spend the rest of my life with. I know that sounds hokey and dumb, but that's how I feel."

She looked at me with those eyes, those gorgeous eyes. A tear rolled down her cheek. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset you. That's just how I feel. Please, just..."

Before I could say another word, she leaned over and kissed me. The touch of her lips on mine sent explosions through my mind. Suddenly I felt a splash of something wet and cold. We both jumped back. Half of Jess's drink landed on my lap. We both broke down laughing. She took my drink and placed them both on the nightstand. "I'm so sorry."

"Don't be," I tell her. She pulls me back into another kiss.

"You don't really need these pants right? Let me help you take them off," she grabs my belt buckle and starts to undo them.

"Who needs pants anyways, right?" I joke. I gently place my hands on the sides of her face and pull her back as our lips meet once again. Her fingers get my belt unbuckled and they start to work on unbuttoning my pants. Before long she starts to tug them down.

She pulls back to look down as she takes off my pants.

"Jess, how exactly do we ah... do this?" I ask her.

"Honestly? I don't know, I've never done this before," she says. "But, I mean... I guess we uh... you know."

"Anal?" I ask.

"Yeah," she says. "Are you okay with that?"

"Yeah. That's fine with me. Ah... who's going to um... You know... Receive and what not..." I ask.

"Could we take turns?" she asks.

"Uh yeah, I... That works."

"If you don't want to do this I understand," she says.

"Jessica, I definitely want to do this!" I tell her. Her face lights up with that infectious smile and she plants another kiss on my lips as she climbs on top of me.

"Me too!" she says.

I hook my thumbs underneath her shirt and pull it over her head. She's wearing a purple lace bra underneath. I place my hands on her hard abs and slowly make my way up to the back of her bra. She squirms slightly as my fingers brush over her skin. "That tickles," she laughs.

"I'm sorry, I..." She places her lips on top of mine again as I try to unlock her bra. After a few failed attempts, she leans back.

"Here let me do it." She slides the lace straps off her arms and spins the bra around. She snaps it off, making it look so easy. She keeps her arm over her breasts as if she's afraid I won't like them as she tosses her bra aside. "Don't judge, my mom said I could get breast implants when I finish college."

I laugh, then I lean up and press my lips against hers, reassuring her that there's nothing to be afraid of. Her hand falls against my side. I journey down from her lips, lightly kissing her neck, making my way to her breast. They're really small and perky. "They're perfect!" I tell her.

She lets out a moan as my tongue makes circles around her nipple. Her hand moves to the back of my head, lightly brushing through my hair. I switch to her other nipple and suck it in my mouth, causing her to gasp.

I immediately let go. "Did that hurt? I'm sorry!"

She laughs, "No it's okay. I don't mind."

I continue to suck on her nipple, eliciting all sorts of moans and gasps. She slips her hands under my shirt and starts to lift it up. I break away from her breasts as she pulls the shirt over my head. She tosses the shirt over her head. She then places her hands back behind my ears and pulls me in, our lips meet once more. Her tongue slips into my mouth and tangles with mine.

The passion I feel for her burns deep down to my core. I wrap my arms around her and hold her tightly. She pulls back and looks into my eyes. "Kevin... I love you." Her hand brushes my cheek.

"I love you too!"

That smile takes over her beautiful face and she leans back in and once again our tongues are locked in a dance. I kiss her like this is the last day I have left on this earth. Finally, she pulls back and gets off the bed.

She turns around and starts to undo her pants. She looks back at me. "Close your eyes."

"Why?" I ask.

"Please, it's just... I'm nervous. Okay?"

I get up off the bed and wrap my arms around her. "It's okay to be nervous. I'm nervous too. I'm not going to hurt you ever again."

My hands make their way down to the button of her pants. She lets go and allows me to do it. I undo them and hook my thumbs under them, dragging them down. I kiss my way down her back as I pull her pants down. She's wearing a matching purple underwear. She has one of those thick, but lean, bubble butts. Probably from all those years of playing sports. She grabs my shoulder as she lifts up one of her legs. I slide her pants off her leg and then she lifts up the other one. As I pull off the other pant leg, she lets go of my shoulder.

I hook my fingers under her underwear and drag them down, uncovering that perfect ass. I let go of her panties as they fall to her feet. She looks back at me as my face is inches away from her butt. I give her ass cheek a kiss.

She pulls her cheeks apart revealing a lovely rosebud. I press my lips against it, kissing it softly. She moans as my tongue presses against her entrance. I press on as my tongue slips inside her anus. I smother her pucker in spit as my tongue works in and out of her asshole.

She finally steps away and turns around. I finally for the first time see her cock. It's as hard as a rock. I've never seen someone else's cock before. It's slightly larger than my own. I'm not sure if I should be embarrassed or impressed. She is completely clean shaven. I look up into her eyes, trying to figure out what she wants.

She brushes her hand against my face. I reach up and wrap my hand around her cock. She lets up a little moan. "I've never... ah... done this before." I say to her.

She laughs. "I know."

"Right..." I say. I close my eyes, open my lips and take the tip of her dick into my mouth. It's spongy and tastes musky. I swirl my tongue around it. She lets out of soft moan. I try sucking it like a popsicle, evoking a gasp.

"Wow, you're pretty good at this!" She moans as I take more of her member in my mouth. Her hands make their way through my hair urging me forward. I brush my hands up against her thighs. Her strong athletic thighs.

She pushes forward, thrusting her cock past the entrance of my throat. I gag on her dick. She releases my head and I pull back off her cock. It falls from my lips, bringing a trail of spit with it.

"Do you want to try anal now?" She asks.

"Is it going to hurt?" I ask.

"Slightly at first," she says.

"I thought you've never done this before..."

"Only with a dildo," she says.

"Oh..."

"We don't have to do it if you don't want to," she says.

"No, I want to. I'm just nervous, that's all." She smiles and helps me on my feet

Our lips once again find themselves connecting for a deep, long, passionate kiss. She pulls back and our eyes connect. "How do you want to do this?"

"I don't know, you want to be on top first right?" I ask.

"I don't have to go first," she says.

"No, by all means, I trust you," I tell her. She slips her hands underneath my boxers and pulls them down, freeing my hard cock.

I kick them off as she wraps her hand around my dick while she gives me another kiss. She gives me a shove and a fall back onto the bed. I crawl back onto the bed and she climbs on top of me, bringing her lips down on mine.

She then breaks away and slides down off of me. She lifts my legs up, pressing my knees against my chest. I lock my hands behind the back of my knees.

She gives each of my hamstrings a kiss making her way down to my ass cheeks. She licks my balls working her way down to the entrance to my ass. Then her tongue slips in past my rectum. Her hand slides up the back of my thigh as her tongue slips in and out of my butthole. It feels so weird, in a good way. I let slip a moan from my lips. She pulls her tongue away and I feel something else press up against my asshole. Her finger slips inside my anus. It sends a shock right through me. I gasp out.

"God, your ass is so tight," she says. I grunt as she pushes her finger deeper. It hurts, but not too bad. It also kind of feels good, if that makes any sense. It's a weird sensation. I like it. She starts to pull and push her finger in and out of my ass. She then pulls it out completely. "I'm going to try two fingers now."

I feel her press against my butthole, this time it hurts a little more. I let out a groan as she pushes her two fingers in my butt. She continues to push in. I pant a little and tense up. "Relax, it won't hurt as bad if you just breathe and let it happen."

I try to do as she says and just focus on breathing. She starts to fuck my ass with her fingers. I moan out as she pulls out her fingers. "Are you ready to try and take my cock?"

"Yeah, I think so. Go easy on me," I tell her.

"Don't worry Kev, I'll make sure it hurts as little as possible," she says.

"Should we get a condom?" I ask.

"Are you worried about getting pregnant?" she giggles and I start to laugh as well realizing how stupid that question was. Neither of us has to worry about that and this is the first time either of us has had sex before.

I feel her dick rub up and down my ass crack. She spits right on the rosebud of my ass. She continues to rub her dick, smearing the saliva around my pucker.

"Remember, just breath," she says as she starts to push her cock into my asshole. The pressure starts to mound. The pain takes over. I let go of my legs, grab the sheets and bite my bottom lip as I can feel the tip of her dick break through my sphincter. I wrap my legs around her waist. She grabs my wrist and I let go of the sheet as she laces her fingers in between mine. "I'm in, that was the worst part."

She holds it there while she leans over and plants her lips against mine. She bites my lower lip, then she slowly starts to push her hips forward. Her dick inches its way inside me. I let out a gasp as our mouths continue to connect. She breaks away from our kiss. "It doesn't hurt too bad, does it?"

"No..." I whimper. It hurts, but I can take it. "Keep going."

She gently pushes on. "Oh god you're so tight, I'm almost all the way in."