Driving Home for Christmas

"Please don't hurt me, please. I've got money. I can give you money, please don't hurt me."

It took me a while to realise who she was talking to. It sounded like she was talking to a stranger. Then I remembered the Santa suit and the beard.

"Where is Ion? What have you done to him?"

I just pointed to the hall as I moved over to check the wardrobes. I checked out the spare bedroom and the bathroom before returning to the hallway. Penny was kneeling beside Ion, still holding the sheet around her. I stood by them grabbed her purse and opened it.

"You see, see I've got money. Here take it but don't hurt us please."

I stepped closer and letting go of the sheet she held her left hand out to stop me." The sheet fell down exposing her naked breasts. "That's what he tells his mates." I thought. "She may be old but she's still got a hot body and she can't get enough of me."

I grabbed her hand and started to pull off the rings. The pleading started all over again.

"Not my rings. Oh please not my rings; Take the money please."

"What can I tell my husband." she said as the rings came off her fingers.

I looked down at her with nothing but contempt and I spoke for the first time.

"You don't have a husband, not anymore."

It's strange when you have that much adrenaline coursing through your veins. I could see the shock spreading across her face.

"Drew!" she almost whispered. She reached up and pulled the beard down revealing my face.

"NO" she screamed as I walked away.

"Happy Christmas." I said, as I walked out the door. The girls said nothing as I walked past them. The lift doors were closing as Penny came out into the corridor, still trying to cover herself with the sheet.

"Don't go Drew, we need to talk, it isn't what it looks like. Please Drew, come back"

Percy reached for the door open button but I grabbed her hand and held it away from the buttons. As the lift started moving I turned to look at them.

"Have you girls got room for a passenger?"

"No." said Jackie."Nobody rides for free. You'll have to earn your keep."

"I will, Jackie. I'll do whatever you want."

"Now that sounds interesting, what do you say Perce?"

"Leave him alone Jackie, can't you see what a mess he's in?"

"I'll tell you what, He may be in a mess, but I'm glad he's on our side. Did you see the way that guy went down?"

"Just zip it sergeant." Percy was getting irritated. She turned to me."Get in the back and get your head down, we'll talk later."

She slapped me lightly on the shoulder as I got in the back of the van.

Curled up on the mattress I tried to sleep but as my anger subsided the sorrow and the questions started. Did she just not love me anymore? Why not just tell me she'd found someone else? What could that scrawny little runt give her that I couldn't? Eventually rocked by the motion of the van, sleep swept over me. It was 1pm when I woke and climbed into the cab next to Percy.

"Feeling better? She asked.

"I don't know how I feel right now. I'm calmer than I was. It seems like a bad dream now, I can't believe it happened."

"Oh it happened alright. I wish it hadn't, I've never witnessed anything like that before. I hope I never see it again."

"Oh dear was it that ugly?"

"Not so much ugly as harrowing. You seem like a pretty nice bloke, we've come to like you a lot. It's hard to see a mate go through something like that. For what it's worth I thought you were very restrained."

She put a hand on my thigh and squeezed it "We're just coming up to Sibiu. What do you say we stop and break out the camping stove? I don't know about you but I'm missing that breakfast we didn't get in Bucharest."

"You've got my vote." said Jackie from the driving seat.

We stopped, we cooked, we ate and we talked. By the time we were ready to move on I was more in control and able to take my turn at the wheel. I was happy to continue driving so both of the girls got some sleep. They woke in time to find me arguing with the border guards about how much I should pay in export duty on the fuel in our tanks. They wanted fifty British pounds. They weren't interested in Romanian lieu. I showed the guards the mattress in the back and told them we would happily sleep in the van and take our chances with the next shift. Five minutes later they came back with an offer of five pounds. In the end they settled for all the Romanian money we had and we were on our way again.

I turned in once we got onto the main road to Budapest and surprisingly slept. I was surprised to find that after a few hours I was not alone. A warm slim body slipped into the sleeping bag with me. I turned to find Persephone snuggling up to me.

"Are you OK?" she asked.

"I think the hospital term would be, as well as can be expected."

"That bad huh?"

"I feel sort of numb really."

"That's understandable. It will get better and we'll help you."

She kissed me on the forehead and cuddled up to me. She was wearing nothing but her underwear and as we lay there I was surprised to find there were stirrings in my loins. Percy ran her hand down my chest and I started to get hard. When she reached my waste I put my hand on hers and held it.

"Any further and your likely to get a surprise."

"I'm a nurse, not much surprises me. To be honest I'd be very disappointed if there was no reaction."

"Oh there's definitely a reaction. Little Drew is getting very excited but big Drew is not ready for anything like that yet."

"That's OK we can just cuddle for a while."

"Thanks, I'd like that."

We must have lay there for more than an hour and I noticed Persephone had fallen asleep. I extracted myself from her embrace and joined Jackie in the cab.

"I knew it." she said. "Not so eager to get away from Percy were you? I should be insulted."

"Nothing happened, alright? Nothing."

She just smiled at me "If you say so."

"I do say so."

"None of my business anyway. You like her, she likes you. Where's the problem? You're not still thinking about your wife are you?"

"It may come as a surprise to you Jackie, but I'm not at all sure what I think about my wife at this time. For more than twenty years I've loved her unconditionally. Now I hate what she's done but I'm not sure how I feel about her. I'm still getting my head around it."

She went quiet for a while. It was another ten minutes before she spoke again. "Look Drew, I'm sorry right. It's just that the way you tore into that arsehole in Bucharest, I thought that it was all over."

"It probably is but I just don't feel single just yet. Can you understand that?"

She reached over and patted my leg. "She doesn't deserve you. You know that."

I put my hand on top of hers. "Thanks Jackie. -- Just say when you want me to take over the driving."

An hour later I took the wheel, and took us all the way to the Austrian border. Once back in Western Europe we stopped for food and fuel. During the meal I tried to keep the conversation away from my personal life, with some success. Percy's eyes rarely strayed from my face. Whenever her eyes met mine she would smile, reach out and squeeze my hand. We decided that had to be the last food stop on the journey. We had to get back to Calais by Christmas eve so from there on it would be fuel and toilet stops only. We stocked up on soft drinks, cold food and snacks that could be eaten on the move. We had a rota of four hours driving four hours in the cab and four hours sleeping. I had first shift in the sleeping bag. To my surprise I slept but three hours in it became apparent that the shift system had gone out of the window I woke to find a naked Percy climbing into the bag with me. She pulled my head down to her breast.

"You may not realise it yet but you need this. From my experience it cures a lot of ills."

"I sorry Perce I really don't think I'll be up to much right now."

"Nonsense, just do to me what you really want to do to her. Just this once Drew, use me. We can work everything else out later but right now just fuck me."

She could feel my erection and knew I was ready for her and she was right about how I felt. If Jenny had been there I would have fucked her. There would have been no love involved, I wanted to hurt her the way I was hurting. I'm not proud of myself but I did as she suggested I thrust into her as if she was Penny and I wanted it to hurt her. There was no gentleness, no caressing or kissing, no love just hard rampant sex. More than once she cried out but she never tried to stop me. Her legs wrapped around me as I pumped my juices into her, and then we were done.

As I fell to the side of her I looked at her face and was overcome with guilt and shame. I'd deliberately tried to hurt this lovely young woman purely because the one I wanted to hurt wasn't there. She may have invited it but that was no excuse. I started to apologise and for the first time the tears started to come. Percy said nothing. She wrapped her arms around me and held me close to her as I cried for the loss of my wife and the mother of my children.

Even Jackie was tactful enough to say nothing as I slipped into the passenger seat. I'd been sitting there for an hour or more before she eventually spoke.

"Toilets and fuel stop at the next service centre, are you OK with driving after that?"

"Yeah, I'm fine with that; it'll give me something to do."

"So what happens now? For you I mean."

"I go home. Maybe I'll ring my mother to see if she's got room for me for Christmas dinner. I suppose I'll have to tell her and my kids all about it."

"I don't envy you in the slightest, but don't worry about your mum; she'll make room for you. It's what mums do."

She reached over and wiped a tear from my eye. Mariah Carey came on the radio singing "All I want for Christmas is you" exactly the thoughts in my head as I'd travelled out to Romania all those years ago. More tears started to come.

"I think we'd better stop at the next services."She said. "I need the loo and we need to get you sorted out."

The food in motorway services maybe awful but most of them have a Starbucks or Costa Coffee so you can get a decent cup of coffee. In my experience there isn't a lot that can't be made better by a good cup of coffee. By the time my wife had returned from the toilet my spirits were already lifted. She sat down opposite me and reached out for my hand.

"Now what's all this about?"

"You know what it's about, you've already said it. It's Christmas time and I'm driving. It does it to me most years; this year just seems a bit worse."

"But this is the last year you'll be doing this. You're moving back home, close to your family. You should be happy; you'll be able to be a proper grandpa to your grandchildren."

"I am happy about that, really I am. I'm not so sure about moving back into that house."

"Then we'll sell it and find a new place to start over again. I just want you to be happy."

"I am happy. Most of the time I'm as happy as I've ever been. It's just that from time to time something reminds me of the day my life fell apart. We've rebuilt it recently and I'm grateful to you for that, but I've lost ten years. On days like this I'm mourning the loss of those years."

"You don't have to be grateful to me, I love you, it's my job to make you happy. It hurts me to see you like this."

"I'm sorry my love, I'll be fine once we get there. As you say this is the last time and I've got you to help me. Things can only get better."

I took her hand and kissed it. I looked into her eyes and knew how lucky I really was. We finished our coffee and left.

Chris Rea was back on the radio when we left. "I'm driving home for Christmas; I can't wait to see those faces." You and me both Chris I thought as we slipped back on to the motorway.

By the time we reached Luton we were back in heavy traffic. Band aid were on the radio asking do they know it's Christmas reminding me of our arrival in Calais all those years ago. Percy and Jackie had been trying to find an English speaking radio station. As we pulled into the docks in Calais they picked up the BBC and Band Aid. It was the early hours of Christmas Eve. Percy set about getting us on the next ferry. I'd been quite surprised by the fact the change in my attitude. Since Percy and I got together I was feeling more in control of my emotions. Not right, but a hell of a lot better. I did more than my share of driving, it helped keep me focussed.

By 5 am we were boarding the ferry to Dover. Jackie got out of the van and I was about to follow her when someone grabbed my arm. Percy smiled at me.

"Where do you think you're going?" I was about to answer when she started again. "We have a mattress and over an hour of complete privacy. Now you owe me Mr Styles, and I think it's time to collect."

She locked her lips on mine and in no time we were doing the tongue tango. We moved into the back of the van.

"This time I'm not her OK. I know you fancy me, now you've got me. This is not punishment I want to enjoy this one."

We lay down on the mattress kissing as we removed each other's clothes. She really was gorgeous once the army fatigues were removed, slim, but shapely. Her high cheek bones and blue eyes were what always attracted me to her. At that moment it was what drove me wild with desire. As we held each other she whispered in my ear.

"Make love to me Drew, not for any reason other than because I want you to."

The van was still warm inside so at first we were quite comfortable being naked. I started kissing her lips, and worked down her neck. As I reached her breasts her hands came around the back of my head, pushing it hard down on her breast. I sucked and nibbled on her nipple before moving on to the other one. She tried to push herself up as she pulled my head down. My mouth was filled with her breast as I sucked on her. She rose and fell as she groaned and eventually released my head. I moved further down, over her stomach. With my fingers working her breasts and nipples her mound rose up to my lips. I felt her hands on the back of my head again as her vulva moved up to meet me. I found her clitoris and sucked on it. Her bucking became so extreme that I tried to pull my head away. Percy pushed my head down harder and started to yell between gasps."

"No! No don't stop... don't stop.. Oh god, don't stop now."

I continued to suck her clit and flick it with my tongue. In only seconds she was arching her back and moaning loudly before her whole body started to shake. I pulled my head back up and settled back to lie beside her. She rolled towards me and put an arm around me. I pulled her close to me and her leg wrapped around mine. I pushed her onto her back and climbed between her legs. As I entered her, her hands came down to my arse as she tried to pull me harder into her. The rolling of the ship blended with our movements, until she cried out in ecstasy as the orgasm swept through her. I felt myself pumping juices into her. I rolled her over on top of me as I softened inside of her. She lay on my chest and I wrapped my arms around her and held her. I stroked her hair and back as she moved up to kiss me.

"That woman is crazy."

"What woman?"

"Your wife. She must be an idiot. That was good you know?"

"But not as good as younger harder dick."

"He may have been younger but I seriously doubt he was better. A girl likes a man who cares about her when making love. Most younger men only care about getting themselves off. Do you think we can squeeze another one in before we dock? I'll help if you need it."

"Give me a while and maybe we can try again. In the meantime it's getting colder in here, we need to cover up."

I grabbed the sleeping bag and unzipped it so that it became like a quilt. I pulled it over us and cuddled up to her. If anyone had told me I would be ready to go again in twenty minutes I wouldn't have believed it but after only fifteen minutes of cuddling and stroking each other Percy slipped beneath the quilt and I soon felt her taking my cock into her mouth. As she sucked on me moving her head up and down, I felt myself getting harder. I felt an involuntary urge to thrust forward but Percy pushed me back. I'd moved onto my back and when Percy pulled her mouth off my cock I started to roll over towards her. She pushed me onto my back and she straddled me. She lowered herself onto me and began to gyrate on top of me. I had no trouble holding back my orgasm; I didn't expect to be able to produce one. Percy worked harder leaning forward and placing her hands either side of my head. Her tits began to swing as she forced her self down on me. I took them in my hands squeezing them and rubbing my thumbs over the nipples. I have to admit it felt good. I would never have believed how good. Making love to Penny was never like that, she would never take me in her mouth and we'd got into a rut with positions. Suddenly it was like a whole new world. Percy sat back on me moving her hands back to hold her ankles as she threw her head back and her back arched. I wouldn't call it a groan so much as a roar that came out of her, as she emptied her lungs. I did manage to produce another load which I pumped into her. She collapsed onto my chest and I held her there. We lay that way until we heard movements outside. The crew were preparing to dock.

We dressed quickly and by the time Jackie opened the door we were both sitting in the cab. I'd planned on flying back so I'd got a taxi to the docks. Both girls agreed to take me home and in return I offered them the chance to take a shower. I stepped through my front door at 9.30 am on Christmas Eve. Both girls used the shower and washed their hair while I cooked breakfast for us. We sat eating eggs and bacon. I noticed Jackie looking at Percy and grinning. Most of the time Percy was looking at me. After breakfast the girls had to leave. They had to return the van to its owner before close of business. Before she left Percy kissed me.

"Keep in touch Drew."

I found a pen and paper and wrote my home and mobile number down. As I gave it to her she took the pen and wrote her own number down for me. Then they were gone and I was left alone. I knew this would be crunch time, being on my own and allowing myself to dwell on things. Realising I was a bit low on food I decided to go out and do some shopping, To be honest it was mainly to get me out of the empty house. I managed to make that last well into the afternoon before settling down in front of the television. I soon got bored and started work on the things I was going to have to do in the coming weeks. I fired up the computer and started looking up our bank accounts. To tell the truth I was still running on autopilot. Pink Floyd described it best. I'd become comfortably numb. I sat in front of the computer doing what I could to separate our finances. Most things would have to wait until after the holiday but I did what I could. That night I slept in my own bed. It was the best night's sleep I'd had in a long time. I woke at 9 am Christmas morning to the sound of the phone ringing.

Bing and Bowie were singing Peace on Earth/Little Drummer Boy when she answered the phone for me.

"Hello.--No he's driving at the moment, can I help? Hang on I'll ask him." She looked over at me. "It's Alison she wants to know when we expect to get there."

I looked at the queue of traffic ahead of me.

"On a normal day, we'd be there in about two hours, but with this level of traffic who knows?"

"Come on give me a guess. She wants an answer; we can always ring again if we get delayed."

"Ok tell her three hours."

"Hello Alison, did you hear that? -- Yes it's been a bit grim I've never seen traffic this bad but Drew says it's like this every year.-- No I know, it's just the way he is always makes the effort sound like nothing. Yes we look forward to it. Are you ready for your move? -- Yes its' all ready, should be January 3rd. OK we'll see you soon."