Lynn and Leif Forevermore Ch. 61

Lynne followed right behind him.

"Well you sure did look like you liked it. I never saw you come so hard before! You looked like you were about to start speaking in tongues. God damn it Leif! You taught me everything about sex, and you've done everything before me! When you are you going to let me show you something new? Explore new ground with me," challenged Lynne wrapping up her own body in a towel.

"I told you before, nothing I've done before I met you has ever held a candle to the way I feel now. At some point Lynne, you are going to have to trust that you are the best little lover that I've had and my freaky little soul mate. You want me to put things in your ass all day that's fine, but this is where, as a man, I have to draw the line. So what it if feels good, when you spray my ass while giving me a blowjob? Then what's next? His and her dildos? Then dresses for you and I that match? No fuck that shit, we need to have some boundaries," said Leif.

And he meant what he was saying. Sure the gust of water in his ass felt good, a little too good, and that made him uncomfortable. Didn't matter if the perpetrator was his beautiful wife. He didn't want that area getting turned on. When he was really little he'd play with his ass with a finger sometimes when he masturbated and it got him off so damn good. Once he knew that was what gay men did when they had sex though, that was it for Leif! No more exploring. He was one hundred percent male, and he didn't want to dabble anywhere around the edges of masculinity, he didn't care how sensitive he felt toward Lynne and how much he loved her.

"You are damn ridiculous Leif, really? You think that me tickling your asshole with a shower nozzle is a stop on the detour to homosexuality? I for one have never questioned your sexuality, you are the manliest man I know. And hell, even if you did decide you wanted to play some taboo shit with me, like with dildos and stuff, that doesn't make you gay, I'd be your partner, and I'm a woman. You've changed my worldview so much Leif. And you did that. Honestly before I met you, I'd have thought you were gay if you were into ass play if you were the receiver, but now I think, if it feels good, and you're doing it with me and we like it, what's the big deal. It would be shocking to me, but if it really brought you pleasure and you liked it, I'd be happy to do it with you, not uncomfortable like I would have been before you taught me to be free with my body. A little kink can bring us closer," said Lynne with a wicked smile.

But Leif was not smiling.

The more she talked, the more furious it made him.

"Well look Lynne, I'm glad I opened your eyes to what a liberal world being free with your sexuality can be, but ass play is not my kink. I don't know how many times I need to say it to get it through your thick little skull, but stay away from my ass!" said Leif.

"I wasn't trying to turn it into your kink. I didn't know you also meant shower nozzle, when you told me to keep my fingers away from your ass. Look, you don't have to worry about me playing near your ass again, I get it, it's off limits, I will never go near your asshole again! You don't have to speak to me like I'm a retarded child," said Lynne storming over to her suitcase in the corner.

"Oh now come on Lynney, I wasn't talking to you like you a retarded child, at least I wasn't trying to. Just trying to make it clear that I don't like to have my ass played with. I hate it when we fight. Let's get ready to go to the beach baby. I want to build a big sand castle with you that has all the rooms that our dream house will have," said Leif.

Lynne looked very hurt when he looked into her eyes as she ruffled through her suitcase.

He never recalled seeing her so hurt before.

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"I see what our relationship is all about. Our relationship is about me learning and exploring, even going beyond some of my comforts to learn about more love, and closeness with you. You are the teacher, and you get to show me this beautiful new world full of sensual feelings, and I'm just the learner. You don't want to break any taboos with me even though you smashed all my taboos," said Lynne looking at him over her suitcase.

Her eyes grew veiled with water. It would be one thing if Leif hadn't enjoyed the exploration, or had found it unpleasant or painful in any way at all. She never wanted to hurt her husband or make him uncomfortable. He was a tall, manly guy but she still knew what it felt like when she was coerced into doing things she felt uncomfortable with, and it was a terrible feeling. But she'd seen that look on his face when she tickled his ass with the shower nozzle jet spray while she deep throated his cock.

His beautiful blue eyes had gone hazy with ecstasy and then she only saw the whites of his eye, so much joy he'd rolled his eyes up in his head, and afterwards, his cock and balls were jumping with pleasure. Lynne had never seen him appear so pleasured before. She felt happy and proud until he got that angry look in his eyes, and yelled at her for using the nozzle on him.

It wasn't that she was trying to defy him, and his wishes about ass play. She didn't consider a soothing stream from the shower spray the same as her fingers. She could understand him being squeamish about that, but the water near his ass, she felt that was a little silly.

He'd sure explored a lot more of her on accident with his thumb, and that hadn't been traumatic to her, it was sexy. She felt that he was hiding the fact that the shower nozzle gave him pleasure because it threatened his masculinity. But that was where she felt even more hurt. He should know that she loved him more than anything and nothing in her eyes threatened his masculinity. Then he huffed about boundaries and that the next step was dildos and him wearing a dress, which would have been funny if it wasn't so silly and he was not such a killjoy.

She simply was not used to the prudishness with him and it hurt her, she felt it was putting a barrier between them.

"That's not how I see it at all! I see it as me being patient and yielding to you and helping you to become a sexual woman slowly, despite the fact that I was horny as hell and wanted to fuck you, hell from the second I saw you, and I see the one area, where I have a need that I want you to consider above all else, it's too fucking much for you to handle, that's what I see Lynney. And you always do this, hold this shy sadness, and these tortoise ways, hell, you won't even look at me, so you can win. That's what you always do, so you can be right," yelled Leif.

Lynne started rummaging through her suitcase in earnest now avoiding eye contact.

Because she hated when he raised her voice at her, and her heart felt tender. All she was trying to do was pleasure him, be the best wifey she could be sexually and cause him joy, and just because he felt threatened and embarrassed to have pleasure coming from his asshole, he was taking it out on her. She felt that he should be over being embarrassed by such silly shit by now. He was a grown man, and prior to this, she felt that he was such an imaginative, inventive, deliciously kinky lover, opening her eyes to all sorts of pleasures she never knew existed before.

"It is not what I always do! I'm not trying to be right. I'm acting shy because you are hurting me. Shit, I was trying to share some intimacy with you, and bring your pleasure over the top the way you always bring mine. But I see it wasn't welcomed and you...shit Leify, you can go to the beach by your damn self!" shouted Lynne snatching the clothes she was going to wear out of the suitcase, and storming to the bathroom, slamming the door behind her.

"Aww hell, that's how you always win, pout and storm off when things don't go your way. I don't think you're being a respectful partner Lynney. I told you time and again not to go near my ass. If you told me you didn't want me to do anything to you at all, I always respected that shit!" yelled Leif at the shut bathroom door.

"This isn't about winning Leify! I didn't even know what I wanted sexually, when we met or what I didn't want. Just that I was scared, and screwed up emotionally! But I always trusted you. Even when you turned me out with the thumb in my ass, and it was an accident, I didn't know it then. But I trusted you, because I loved you! I wasn't trying to take away your masculinity. Hell Leify you've got me doing all kinds of kinky shit I never thought I'd do before. Licking my own panties and getting sex toys pushed in my ass and I love the hell out of that. I feel like each new dirty thing we do that's just between the two of us brings us closer and deeper love. But it's me doing all the exploring. What about you? What new things do you want to explore with me that you've never tried before. Looks like I'm getting all your sloppy seconds. You've done everything imaginable, probably with very beautiful women, and you won't let me show you anything new you haven't done before," said Lynne.

"That's not true, I've done a lot of shit with you I never did with a woman before. Going down on you, licking your cute asshole. Baby you can't...I keep telling you...nothing that I did with anyone else matters, I don't think about it anymore, and it doesn't turn me on at all. The moment I met you I stopped thinking about any shit I'd done with any other chicks before. You're the only thing that turns me on honey, and you've gotta trust in that, rather than making me feel uncomfortable to try to prove that to yourself. That's all I want," said Leif with softness and love in his voice.

But it still hurt.

"It's still sexuality on your terms. All the new things we are trying are things that you are doing to me. Our sex feels good as hell, and it feels selfish to complain but Leif, I thought that kissing a man's private parts and letting him kiss mine was dirty before we hooked up, and now you've got me slurping up our juices after we've fucked. That's a big taboo for me. And even using the word fuck. And I just love being your dirty, slutty little wife only for you. And I thought you wanted to be dirty with me, have kinky private pleasures that only I would know about, but you only want to break my taboos, not any of your own and it hurts," said Lynne.

"That's not true. There's a hell of a lot of shit I want to explore with you, and my body that I've never done with a woman before. That's why I want to take you to that adult store. You've got to trust me that I want to try and taste something new with you, but you can't make me do it on terms that feel uncomfortable. Lynney, I'm all man baby, and I just don't like my ass fiddled with. Sure it felt good with the shower when I came, but I don't wanna do that shit right now. No internal or external stimulation. I'll let you know if I change my mind. I promise to try new shit with you I've never done before, and we will on this honeymoon baby. But you gotta come outside the bathroom to forgive me, and trust me. I'm sorry if I was harsh. But the ass, that's just something that...I don't know...I don't' want it. If you want it and love it, I'll do it for you, but I don't want it. But I love you very much kitten and I want to explore other new shit with you, I promise," said Leif.

He had such sincerity and yearning in his voice that Lynne wiped away her cheeks just realizing they were moist.

"Okay. Okay baby. Just let me get dressed. I'm already in here may as well finish," said Lynne.

The space apart while she was dressing also gave her time to think about what he said.

"Come on out here beautiful, and let me hug you. I didn't meant to get harsh at you. Didn't have to yell to get my point across about the ass, I apologize," said Leif.

"Well, I guess I should not have tried with the shower head, especially since you warned me before. I just wanted to make you feel good. I'm gonna come out the bathroom, I'm Just getting dressed. You should get dressed too, so we can be ready to leave when I come out of the bathroom. Maybe all the sex is making us crazy and we need some fresh air," said Lynne with a soft chuckle.